Knowing my heart

Reconciled concert (repost)
“AHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!”
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I looked at the bed to see that it came from Jaebin. I shook her up. “Jaebin Jaebin. Wake up!” Maybe if she does, she won’t have any more nightmares. When she opened her eyes, she immediately hugged me. “Jaejoong, I’m scared.” And she was crying again. Then I thought of something. “Let’s go downstairs. I’ll make you lunch.” I smiled and she nodded lightly. She walked behind me, gripping on my shirt tightly.

Upon reaching the kitchen, I pulled a chair to somewhere which won’t interfere with me cooking and Jaebin sat there, looking around, hoping Heechul won’t appear again. “So what do you want for lunch?” I asked, opening the fridge as she stood up, looking at me like a child. “Gimbap.” She said and I shrugged, taking out all the ingredients I need. “I hope your Omma won’t blame me for using your kitchen.”I said and she shook her head, indicating her Omma won’t flare.

When I was done, We headed to the dining room the exact same way which we entered the kitchen and she looked at the food before eating. When she put the first piece in , her eyes widen. “Is it that awful?” I asked and looked down. I then felt her hand on mine and I looked up to find her smiling. “It’s good. It’s even better than Omma’s one.” She said and I smiled. She continued eating and when she’s at her last bite, she placed it in front of my mouth. I opened my mouth and ate it. She smiled and lean back. “I won’t mind eating what you cook.” She said.

I tided the kitchen with her sitting at the same spot and when I was done, we headed to the living room to watch television. She watched a variety show which is good as it’s able to lift her mind of Heechul. My phone vibrated in my phone and it was a message from Yoochun. ‘Are you with Jaebin now? – Chun’ I think he must know Donghae left. ‘ I am. She called me to come over. – Jae’ I didn’t want to scare him so I made it seem like Jaebin was fine. ‘Good to hear. At least I know you’re there with her. –Chun’ I smiled and kept my phone in my pocket.

When I turned to look at Jaebin, I got a shock She was staring at me. “What’s wrong?” I asked as I touched my face as I begin to sweat. “If I had met you earlier, how good will it be?” she said with a weak smile and she turn her attention back to the television.

We could have met earlier. 3 years ago. If She had opened that door 3 years ago, maybe everything would be different now. I thought as I smiled. It was a smile filled with weary and disappointment. I then heard the jingling of keys and turned around. The door opened to reveal Mrs. Park. “Jaejoong, Jaebin.” She greeted us and headed upstairs to her room. I stood up, wanting to leave when she grabbed my hand. “Don’t leave.” She said with a very cold voice and I sat back down.

“At least wait till a guy comes back. I don’t feel safe with Omma alone.” She said and I nodded. It was quite true since her Omma can’t do anything when Heechul appears. “It seems I’ll be here often then.” I joked and she smiled. “Let’s make good use of it then.” I said and she looked at me. “How?” she gave me a puzzled look as I dragged her upstairs to her room into the dance studio. “We can practice and create new music and dance together.” I said and she nodded frantically.

End of Jaejoong’s POV

Yoochun’s POV

I leaned against my car waiting before seeing a familiar figure appear out of the crowd. I smiled as she approached me, running into my embrace. “Oppa.” She said as I pat her head. “I’m sorry for not meeting you sooner. I was quite busy the past few days.” I said and she shook her head. “It’s ok as long as you’re not busy with other women.” She joked and I smiled. I opened the car door for her and she sat down before I ran to the other side of the car.

During the drive, she suddenly spoke up. “When can we tell our family about us?” she asked. I stopped the car at the side and looked at her. “I don’t even know why we are hiding it. Why not today? Like you can ask your father to come over or something.” She smiled and nodded, pulling her phone out almost immediately, calling her father. I continued driving to our destination.

I parked the car at the car park and headed into the holding area. She was confused at first, but kept quiet. When We finally proceeded to the actually room, she gasped. It was the 2009 autumn fashion show. The kind which you could buy their apparel. She had said she wanted to come the other time, but I said I couldn’t get the tickets. I really couldn’t, but a friend didn’t want to go so gave it to me and that’s why we’re here.

I bought her a few things and she couldn’t be more happy. She’s not like other girls who are always out for branded goods. Even thought what I just bought for her are all branded, I bought it for her at my own will as I saw her eyes sparkling when they walked past. I sent the clothes to her house under her name as the news will only be exposed tonight and till then, nothing should go wrong.

“Oppa. I’m really happy.” She smiled and hugged me. “It’s my duty to make you happy.” I placed my hand round her shoulder and we headed for tea since it was barely 5pm. We went to her favourite ice cream parlor. She’s one of the few girls whom I know who doesn’t care about their weight. However, she goes to the gym to keep herself healthy.

“Oppa, How are we going to break the news to them?” she asked as she was eating her ice cream. “Why not we just be straightforward and just walking into the house hand in hand?” I smiled and she nodded her head, excited. I was also excited. I don’t think anyone other than Jaejoong and Jaebin would have expected me to be with Seulgi of all people.

“What will happen if I die?” I asked suddenly since it popped out of my mind. “Die as in accidental death?” She asked and I nodded my head. “I’ll take over all your duties. If we’re not married, I’ll still take care of your parents and sister especially. I know she’s important to you. I’ll not marry anyone else other than you.” She said and I smiled. “I had actually thought you’ll be like those girls in drama who will say I’ll die with you.” I laughed and she couldn’t help but laugh along as well.

Since it was still early, I drove to the park at my house and we stayed there till it’s time. Omma called me saying that Mr. Bae came and of course I knew that since I was one of them who planned this. I smiled and held her hand before we drove back. I opened the door with my hand which was holding onto Seulgi’s behind my back. Since my frame was bigger, she could hide behind me without being seen.

“Hurry up Yoochun. Don’t stand at the door.” Omma exclaimed and walked towards me. “Hold on!” I exclaimed causing her to stay rooted to the ground. I then brought my hand forward alongside with Seulgi, causing gasps to be heard. I saw Jaebin smiling bright and Jaejoong too.

“You…” Omma pointed at the both of us and broke into a smile. “I’m so glad the both of you are together.” Omma said and gave both of them a hug. “Seulgi, Appa is happy for you to have found your true love.” Mr. Bae said and turned his attention to me. “I’ll be more than happy to have a son-in-law like you.” He gave an assuring smile and Appa spoke up. “So that means we’re having a wedding soon!” Then the adults started planning while Jaebin, Jaejoong Seulgi and I went to the backyard.

“Finally you’ve decided to tell them.” Jaebin said with a smile. She had her eyes closed and Jaejoong was looking at her with so much affection. “Jaejoong, I need to talk to you.” I dragged him away from the girls to a silent corner since the both of them needs to bond. “You like Jaebin don’t you?” I said and Jaejoong jerked. His eyes became apologetic and he looked down.

“Love is blind Jae. I won’t stop you but I don’t want you to get hurt. You may not get a chance with Jaebin, but I cannot be sure of it. I don’t mind putting her in your hands but she together with Donghae. You should know what I mean.” I told Jaejoong and he nodded gentle, still not meeting my gaze. “I wish you luck.” I pat his shoulder before pulling him back with me to where the girls are. Apparently they bond really well as they’re laughing and talking like sisters.

At around 11pm, Seulgi left with her Father while Jaejoong left for home. I really shouldn’t have been so straight with him. In school, he’s known to have a strong outer appearance but his heart was weak. I really regretted telling him that. But what’s done is done. At least I know if Donghae were to disappear from the face of the earth, Jaejoong will still be there. No wonder when Omma asks Jaejoong to help take care of Jaebin, he never rejects.

I got back to my room and took a shower. I rushed out of the bathroom upon hearing my phone ring. It was Seulgi and I know what’s the reason for the call. “Oppa! Thank you so much!” She exclaimed and I chuckled. I knew she would be happy. I remember giving her just this stalk of flower which I plucked from the road. She was already very happy. I feel very content with her. She makes my heart race with ever smile and giving me surprises each time we meet.

Seulgi and I talked on the phone for around an hour before we hung up. That night, I drifted off to sleep with her on my mind.

End of Yoochun’s POV

Jaejoong’s POV

When Yoochun knew I was in love with his sister, he didn’t object, but I know the consequences of loving her. I know I may never get the chance to win her at all. Donghae was in every way better than me. Having a stable job, she likes him, that’s enough. Just having her liking him already brought me to defeat. I would never win in a war like this.

When I was finally able to go home, I opened the door to see Taeyeon sitting on the couch, waiting for me with a silly grin on her face. She must have had a great time with Junsu. “Taeyeon, Go to sleep.” I said at the bottom of the stairs before ascending to my room. I took a long cold bathe before heading to bed. Maybe I should just give up. However, it’s hard if I continued to see her every day. I don’t think I can let go.

Looking at her room, I could see her movements. I promised her to keep her safe and not let Heechul harm her. I have to keep that promise. No matter how hard it is, I cannot break a small yet important promise. Maybe, just maybe, she’ll open her heart up to me one day, gladly accepting me…

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So sad.
It’s happy yet sad in a way.
Will Jaejoong get Jaebin?
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