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Reconciled concert (repost)
“Let’s go to the royal dance academy.” I had been driving aimlessly for the past half an hour since we didn’t have a destination in mind. “Are you resigning now?” I asked her since there was a possibility that she may do that. She nodded her head lightly. “But don’t you have to discuss it with your family first?” I said since it was right for them to know about it before she made as rash decision on her own. I supported her but at least her parents have the right to know about it.

“Even if I told them before, nothing they say can stop me. I’ve already made up m mind.” She said with a stern face. It’s true. Since she made up her mind, nothing could stop her. She herself had aid even if Yoochun were to stop her, she will still go on with her decision.

Upon reaching the royal dance academy, she told me to drive around the area as she wants to go alone. I respect her decision so I allowed her to go on her own. After seeing her disappear into the building, I drove off, finding somewhere to grab a good cup of hot chocolate. Seeing Starbucks around the corner, I stopped my car a walking distance away before heading to get her favourite drink.

End of Jaejoong’s POV

Jaebin’s POV

I headed to the main office where I know the president of the academy is waiting for me. I knocked on the door twice before hearing a faint ‘come in’ Opening the door, I saw a familiar figure, none other than Teacher Lee. I gave a bow before stepping in. When I entered the room, Teacher Lee immediately came to my side. “Are are really serious about this?” She asked with a worried expression on her face. I nodded slightly. Teacher Lee must really be very disappointed in me since I was one of her best students.

“This is my resignation. I’m really sorry for not being able to continue. However, I’d like to continue to stay here. Not to dance, but to teach. I’ll train ballerina’s to be the best in Seoul. Maybe the world.” I placed an envelope on the Presidents table. The president was a very gentle old lady. When I placed it on her table, she reached out her hand, touching mine. “I’d love to have you teach my students to be as good as you.” She gave me a heartwarming smile. “Thank you so much President Han.” I was glad I was still able to stay here.

“I’m sorry to hear about your brother. He was a wonderful young man. You can start anytime you want. I’ll give you time.” She said with the smile still lingering on her face. “Thank you so much President Han. I have something else to say.” I spoke up. Both President Han and Teacher Lee gave me a very puzzled look. “I intend to stage my very last performance in the Royal dance academy’s grand hall. This concert is in remembrance of my Oppa. I hope you could allow it.” I said and she looked at me at first with a shocked expression, but that then turned into a smile. “Of course I would and in addition, I’ll pay half of your concert’s fees. Your Oppa had done so much for our school this is the time where we repay him.” She smiled and I thanked her so much. President Han was one of the best women I’ve known.

“I’ll see you around. Jaebin songsaengnim.” She smiled as Teacher Lee and I left the room. “It’s an honour to e your colleague.” Teacher gave me a hug. “Same to you Teacher lee.” I said. She broke the hug and gave me a smile. “Now I’m no longer your teacher. “ She smiled and I totally forgot about it. “In my heart you will always be. Lee Songsaengnim.” I smiled before I bid her farewell.

I almost forgot about Jaejoong as I fished out my phone from my pocket, going to give him a call. Before I placed the phone at my ear, I hear the horn of a car. Turning around, I saw Jaejoong waving at me. I smiled before heading to the car. “I thought you went for a spin around the area?” I asked as I buckled my safety belt. “I did, and got you this.” He pointed to the cup holder which held 2 cups of Starbucks coffee cups. “Thank you!” I took a sip and knew immediately what it was. My favourite Caramel Hot chocolate. “It’s cold today. With a cup of your favourite hot chocolate, it’ll make your day better.” Jaejoong said as he started driving off.

“Where are we heading to now?” He asked me as he started his aimless driving again. “Let’s go to Lotte world.” I suddenly thought of that place where the both of us haven’t went to as we officially started dating. Lotte world is a place known for couples. Since we were already official, we should at least go there once. “But I’m injured. We can’t play a lot of things like that.” He said with a sad expression pinned on his face. “There’s rides which we can take don’t worry Jae.” I said as I was literally jumping in my seat in excitement. I haven’t been there for such a long time.

Upon reaching there, The first thing I saw was the Ferris wheel. I have loved that since young. “Jaejoong ah. Let’s have lunch.” I suddenly felt my stomach growl in hunger. Beside the entrance of Lotte world there was a barbeque restaurant. “Let’s eat meat!” I dragged him there and ate so much till I was bloated. “Jaebin ah. Don’t’ eat too much. You’ll throw up later.” He tried to stop me but I just continued eating. In Lotte world, we did so much walking my legs felt like it was breaking.

When night time finally came, I dragged Jaejoong to go on the Ferris wheel. “Seoul city is so beautiful.” I said and he smiled looking out of the window to look at Seoul city for the first time after so long. “It has indeed become more beautiful.”Placing my head on his shoulder, he looked at me. He slowly placed his arms round my shoulder, giving me warmth. “Yoochun Oppa, How are you doing up there? We’re so near to you now. Can you see us? We’re going to live our lives fully like you said. Watch us from above. We won’t let you down.” I smiled. Jaejoong looked at me like I was insane.

Jaejoong looked away after a while. We kept quiet for the rest of the right. He looked out of the widow while I lay in his embrace. I can say I really got over Yoochun’s death fully. Everything just reminds me of him. I just chose to remain strong and not cry over him anymore. When we got off, I saw a familiar. “Seulgi?” I called out and she turned around. Her eyes red and swollen. “What are you doing hee?” I asked her.

“Yoochun had promised to bring me here. He said he want to watch Seoul city’s night view with me. He wants to come to the place where most couples go to.”Seulgi was starting to tear again. “Seulgi Unni, Pardon me for saing this, but I wish you could forget about Oppa and live a better life. You’re still young and single. Oppa hasn’t marry you yet. You should find a better man and forget about Oppa.” I know I was cruel to tell Seulgi this, but she was not family yet. They weren’t married.

“I promised your Oppa to take care of your family no matter we were married or not.” She was sobbing now. I gave her a hug and continued even though it was really cruel. “Your Appa won’t want to see you like this. You’re his only daughter and he would be upset if you won’t move on Seulgi Unni….” Jaejoong shook his head asking me to stop. “I’ve liked Your Oppa ever since I saw him. 10 over years of feelings, I can’t forget it like that. I was so happy that finally after so long my wish came true. I was really with Yoochun. But the dream didn’t last long.” She sobbed. “Yoochun is my Oppa. We’re connected by blood. I’m also sad that he left. But there’s nothing we can do to revive him. Everyone is trying to get on with life. Omma, Appa, me, Jaejoong and you Seulgi Unni should also let go.” With that, she broke down into a huge cry.

Jaejoong and I drove her home since she didn’t drive to Lotte world. Dropping her off, she walked into her house, with a worried butler running after her. “I hope Seulgi would forget about Oppa.” I said to Jaejoong and he nodded slightly. “ She’s still young and add on to that, she’s the only daughter the Bae family has.” With that, we headed home, not knowing what was in store for us.

When I opened the door, I saw Omma, Appa, Junsu, Taeyeon and Mi young in the living room waiting for someone. “Omma, Appa, I’m home.” Everyone turned to look at me and when I looked at Taeyeon, she shook her head with a very sad expression on her face. “What’s wrong?” I asked since the atmosphere was not right. “We all heard about it Jaebin. How could you not say anything!” Omma exclaimed. This was the fist time I saw her so worked up.

“Jaebin ah, quitting your career was a big decision. How could you have not told us about it?” Appa said with a nicer tone. “I didn’t say was because I know you won’t approve of it.” I said, with my head hung low. “You know we won’t approve of it and you went on with it. How could you Jaebin? How could you?” Omma was angry, very angry. “I can’t go on. Ballet was my dream, but without Oppa, it’s nothing!” I was in tears. Why can’t they just let it be? “Without Yoochun it’s nothing? Then what about your Appa and I? We spent so much effort pinning hopes in you and making you the best. Now you just abandon it all?!” Omma was also in tears.

“I’m going to teach ballet. But I’m no longer going to do ballet.” With that, I ran up to my room, not caring about appa, Junsu, Mi young and Taeyeon calling me. I closed the door and sunk in my bed, I could feel the warm tears sliding down. I then heard a soft knock on the door. “Go away!” I didn’t care who it was. I just wanted to be alone. “Jaebin ah. It’s me Jaejoong. Open the doors please. “ It was Jaejoong. I know Jaejoong supports my decision, but I need some time alone. “I need some time alone Jaejoong. “ the knocking stopped. “Alright. I’ll come and find you later.” I heard footsteps getting softer and disappearing.

End of Jaebin’s POV

Jaejoong’s POV

I headed to my room and packed my things. I need to move back home. Staying here reminds me too much about Yoochun. Yoochun is one of my best friends. Everyone was upset about it. My injury was getting better, so I could go home now. I had told Taeyeon about it just now. She agreed and I had also told Mr. Park about it. He had said it was for the better since he knew how close friends Yoochun and I were.

I didn’t know whether to leave today or tomorrow. I left a set of clothes here before moving my things back to my own house before coming back again to stay here for the night. I hope Jaebin was feeling better. I can tell she was tying to not grief over Yoochun’s death anymore. She was trying so hard that she may hurt herself…

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