Heechul-

I couldn't concentrate at all at what I was doing. I kept thinking about Kara and Marcus. My imagination went wild as I imagined them dancing together... singing together... Marcus leaning over to kiss her...

"Yah! Heechul! Watch where you are going." Han Kyung said to me while he pulled me away.

I was about to collide with a man carrying a big box.

Focus Heechul...

You trust her... right?

"What has gotten you distracted? You made so many mistakes at practice today." Han Kyung asked me.

"I'm just tired." I lied.

"You're not thinking about Kara and Marcus are you?" Han kyung asked me with a sheepish grin.

"Ofcourse not!" I said defensively.

"Kara and Marcus are just friends. They're in the same group so they can't help it if they see each other all the time... just trust her." Han Kyung told me.

"I do trust her." I answered him.

It's him I don't trust. I added silently.

The two of us were walking to the practice room where we would be meeting the rest of the guys. The two of us passed a practice room and heard a girl shout. Curiously we went in. I was shocked at what I saw. Marcus was lying down on top of Kara on the floor.

That bastard!

I'll kill him.

"Yah!" I shouted at him.

I ran towards him and pushed him off Kara. I was about to punch him but Han Kyung held me back.

"Heechul... what are you doing?!" Kara asked me angrily.

"Me? You're asking me? What about you?! What is this guy doing on top of you?" I asked her angrily as well.

Han Kyung loosened his grip on me and I charged at Marcus like a bull and punched his face. Kara stood in front of me and went to Marcus' side.

"Stop it! You're acting like an a**!" She shouted at me.

"How do you want me to act? He was right on top of you! Aish! Did you enjoy it that much that you've completely forgotten that you had..." I started to say.

I didn't get to finish my sentence because Kara had slapped me. I looked at her angrily.

"We weren't doing anything wrong..." Kara said to me.

I turned around and stormed off. I was afraid that if I'd stayed longer I would have hit Kara too. Han Kyung followed me.

"Yah! Heechul!" Han Kyung said grabbing my arm.

"Leave me alone." I said to him.

"No. You might do something wreckless. Let's go back to the dorm." He told me half dragging me.

I said nothing after that. In fact I said nothing the whole day and night. I was so pissed at what I had just witnessed.

Marcus was on top of her...

They were alone in that room...

And she defended him...

What else should I think?

Angrily I threw some things around the room and released all the anger that I felt inside. Han Kyung went in my room and was almost hit by a flying pillow. He stood there for a while just watching me vent out my feelings. After I had calmed down a bit I sat on the floor and leaned my head on the bed. He gave out a deep sigh and handed me a bottle of beer.

"Drinking works for you." He said to me.

I took the beer from him and drank it in one gulp.

Alcohol seemed sweeter when I'm feeling like this...

"Go get me some more." I told Han Kyung.

He went out the door and a few moments later handed me more bottles of beer.

I hated this feeling...

Jealousy...

I hated being like this...

But when I fell in love and gave my all to that someone...

I seemed to have no reason to feel it.

Not until now...