Heechul-

Kara and I went back to the car in silence. We soon found the hotel that Super Junior was staying at. Just before Kara could leave the car I stopped her.

I wanted to apologize...

I wanted to prove her wrong...

I wanted to say to her that I loved her too...

I wanted a lot of things...

But often times, we don't get what we want.

"I can't change who I am Kara and I'm not going to." I finally told her.

"I'm not asking you to change who you are. All I ask is that... you have to make an effort too. I can't be in this relationship by myself. I made an effort Heechul. I tried to be romantic and sweet... I love you so much and I'm not ashamed to show it. But... you obviously are and that's the problem." She said to me as she went out of the car and walked in the hotel.

Damn it!

Why is she acting like this all of a sudden?

What does she want me to do?

I'm an idol and I can't just be wreckless and show the world that Kara and I are together.

She'd get hurt. A lot of antis will hate her and hurt her.

This is the exact reason why I don't want her to enter this kind of life.

But... Kara...

Kara is...

Damn it! I can't even say what she is to me...

Face it Heechul... when it comes to relationships... you're the worst.

Show her you love her... Pabo!

I racked my brain on how to do just that. It was minutes before the performance and the members and I were taking our positions on stage. I saw the thousands of fans in the audience and I saw Kara standing next to Kana looking at us intently. As I looked in to her eyes, it hit me.

I know exactly how to show to her that I loved her.

I waited until the music was on and waited for my line in the song.

Kara, just wait... just wait for a few minutes...