Afterword - Thank You
Our Innermost Demons
Thank you very much to all the subscribers and supporters of this story! Your comments were really helpful, constructive and motivating! I really don't know what to say! Thank you for not giving up on the story even though the characters often acted out in frustration and in the wrong way. Of course, I let them act foolishly and selfishly on purpose, because that's how humans are, unfortunately.
It was never planned to end so tragically. However, when I wrote chapter 'Acts 13:11', I didn't see any other way that could conclude the story more realistically. The chapter 'Letters' was not planned either, so it was even more difficult for me to write it.
I think I let the character Taemin go out of life feeling 'good'? He was not in pain and fell asleep peacefully. I hope I wrote well enough that it was clear that he dropped the lit cigarette into the paper, which caught then fire and so on.
I didn't want to write out everything about how the smoke increased and how he slowly caught fire. (He died from inhaling the smoke, not from the fire. Which also made it peaceful for him. Because he loves this fragrance because it reminds him of Minho.)
I didn't want to write everything down in detail for two simple reasons:
First, it was written from Taemin's point of view, and he didn't notice any of it. Secondly, it hurt like hell to write those words alone. Maybe I'm overreacting, but I actually had to cry.
Those who read carefully will have seen that Naeun's picture fell on a letter from Minho and covered it up. Why I put in that extra layer of pain, I don't know myself. Perhaps I am masochistic.
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