Afterword - Thank You

Our Innermost Demons
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Thank you very much to all the subscribers and supporters of this story! Your comments were really helpful, constructive and motivating! I really don't know what to say! Thank you for not giving up on the story even though the characters often acted out in frustration and in the wrong way. Of course, I let them act foolishly and selfishly on purpose, because that's how humans are, unfortunately.

It was never planned to end so tragically. However, when I wrote chapter 'Acts 13:11', I didn't see any other way that could conclude the story more realistically. The chapter 'Letters' was not planned either, so it was even more difficult for me to write it.

I think I let the character Taemin go out of life feeling 'good'? He was not in pain and fell asleep peacefully. I hope I wrote well enough that it was clear that he dropped the lit cigarette into the paper, which caught then fire and so on.

I didn't want to write out everything about how the smoke increased and how he slowly caught fire. (He died from inhaling the smoke, not from the fire. Which also made it peaceful for him. Because he loves this fragrance because it reminds him of Minho.)

I didn't want to write everything down in detail for two simple reasons:

First, it was written from Taemin's point of view, and he didn't notice any of it. Secondly, it hurt like hell to write those words alone. Maybe I'm overreacting, but I actually had to cry.

Those who read carefully will have seen that Naeun's picture fell on a letter from Minho and covered it up. Why I put in that extra layer of pain, I don't know myself. Perhaps I am masochistic.

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2Min_Nim2
I apologise in advance for chapter 34.
Perhaps you should have your tissues ready?

It was very difficult for me to write the chapter.
And now I'm indecisive about the ending.

I'm thinking of writing two possible endings, but that would be ridiculous, wouldn't it?

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SHIN33ee
#1
Chapter 38: I keep rewriting and deleting comments about the endings. But it's not nice to scream and throw things at the author XD. So I will just say thank you for the happier ending. The other one would have killed me.
Yaneyane #2
I was scrolling down to checkout your stories and ended up seeing the title again 😃😃😭😭😭 I can't believe I'm still triggered and feel like crying just merly seeing the title 😢
Yaneyane #3
Gosh it's been a few days since I finished reading this, (infact I finished it within a day) but till now I still have no idea of what I should say about it. I was so into the story that I didn't even know how to feel when the story ended. ( I know I am repeating myself.) All I could say was thank you for putting 2 versions of the ending because I wouldn't known how to feel if it was only the first one. Somehow the 2nd ending cheered me up and even made me hopeful ☺️ 😊.
All on all thank you for the beautiful story ❤️
Moemoetaem
#4
Chapter 38: I regret not reading it sooner. Such a great story!
Iam_Lazy #5
Chapter 38: I loved this story so much 😍 it's soooo well written ahhhhh
Adaryn
#6
Chapter 38: Another long comment (as a reply) because this deserved it :)
lalalididam
#7
Chapter 38: this is my first time commmenting on ur story and i would say this story is beautifully written like i sobbed like a baby reading the last chapter when they met again 10 years later. it pain me but also it comfort me. u really did a great job writing this and i adored this ff so much cuz how realistic the subject is. please i wanna give a praise for writing this. thank you so much! it such a pleasant time reading the chapters!!
Spitzouuu #8
Chapter 38: Oh god... I've waited until I finished reading to comment.. This is so beautifully written. Everything is so full of emotions and tragedy.

I like the ending you've chosen I think it suits the last chapters better. Maybe could have written the epilogue as naeun coming to the farm 10 years later and getting to know what happened to taemin. But let's be real, my heart needed this conforting alternative epilogue :)
You can't change my mind that taesun was the one who killed taemin by destroying the letters. It's frustrating that all of the pain could have been avoided without that.
I feel super bad for naeun whose passion was stripped from her this young. Things like this are traumatising for kids...
Thank you so much for writing this and I'm going to read your other fics now! See you there
nunanneomuyeppeo
#9
Chapter 38: Didn't even realized I managed to finish reading this in one day haha this is so so soooo good! The way how you wrote it wonderfully, realistically, painful, and beautiful, I must say that Our Innermost Demon is an 11/10! It's been such a rollercoaster ride having witnessed their love story. Thank you for your hard work and I admire you for creating such a wonderful piece! ❤️