Walking down the streets and not minding my soaking wet uniform. I'll let Seungwan see me like this again.

It's not very like me to be this sad and Im weirding myself out. I still cant get over the fact that Seulgi loves me and that love is what hurting her.

Or is it really me? 

I rode the elevator to the floor that otor-nim dont remember so let's skip that one. I entered Wan's room and saw her sitting on the bed while eating chocolate.

"It's really pouring down" She said as she stared at the sky and she averted her eyes and find mine.

"Irene, why are you so wet?" She asked as she got the towel and pushed me to her bathroom. I took a bath quietly and she lent me some clothes that are small since she's smaller than me.

"What's wrong? You looked so stressed" She said. I faced her and hugged her.

"I hate myself Wan" I said and she hugged me back. She leant backwards and I stayed on top of her.

"Dont do that, you might get depressed" She said and my eyes met her eyes. "What happened?" She asked and I looked at her tummy and sighed.

"Seulgi, I snapped at her because I dont understand her lately and I feel like she's very distant and it turns out that Im hurting her" I said and she chuckled.

"I know that kind of hurt and you dont need to say it. Do you have someone you like? Cant you like her back?" She asked and I bit my bottom lip.

"I cant, someone already stole my heart" I said and she smiled.

"That girl is really lucky to have you" She mumbled. 

Then youre lucky 

"I want us to stay as friends but it seems like we cant in this situation" I said and she smiled.

"Im not doing spoonfeeding because I know you know what to do, youre smart Irene and you can handle things perfectly" She said which made me smile. 

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I walked towards our room and was greeted by Yeri and Joy's smile and Seulgi is also with them. Honestly, I feel awkward.

"Yah! Want to go shopping with us later?" Seulgi asked with a smile plastered on her face. Just like the usual Seulgi. 

"Sure, I dont have anything to do later" I smiled and Joy stared outside the window for a while.

"So youre gonna forget what happened huh" She said which made us look at her.

"What are you saying?" Seulgi laughed.

"I hate that look in your face" Joy said and her eyes darkened as she looked at Seulgi. Everyone is minding their own business as the atmosphere between us changed.

"What are you talking about Joy? Youre really acting strange"  Seulgi patted Joy's shoulder.

"After the rejection you chose to stay quiet and act like everything is normal? Really Kang Seulgi?" Joy blurted out which made me look at the floor and sighed.

"That's rude, stop this f-" Joy cut Yeri's words off.

"Who is being rude Yeri? Me who only wants to help her?" Joy asked and Seulgi's hand turned to a fist.

"How can you help me?!" Seulgi stood up from her chair. The chair fell on the floor and our classmates looked at us.

"Come on guys let's stop this huh" Yeri said with a smile. 

"Tell me how can you help me! Why are you questioning me?! Do you know how I really know?!" Seulgi yelled and Joy stood up.

"No Seulgi I dont know how you feel that's why I want you to show us! I want to help you Seul but how?! Youre hiding your feelings from us! Are we really your bestfriends? We're not just here in terms of happiness Seul, I want you to know that we're always here" Joy explained her side which pretty much made sense.

"No, you cant understand me" Seulgi said and she walked out.

"Then make us understand even if you have to explain numerous time! We will listen to you!" Joy yelled but Seulgi didnt turn back. I ran after her and pulled her hand when I caught her.

"Seul Im so-" 

"If you feel sorry then leave me alone instead" She said and then she walked. 

Right now it felt like she's not Seulgi, she's not my bestfriend and she's not the one that I know. I didnt notice that she grew this distant. 

I just want our relationship to go back to normal.