Baekhyun's pov

I quickly get up from the bed leaving Tae and Chanyeol to play as I excuse myself and rush to the bathroom closing the door behind me. Leaning against the door I touch my lips as I walk slowly over to the mirror looking at my reflection.

"I..I just kissed him, his lips touched mine what the hell am I doing ... no wait there was no meaning to it right... we where just messing with tae, oh who am I trying to kid I kissed chanyeol the father of my son"

I smile at myself in the mirror at the thought of his lips touching mine again but I can't do that to him it isn't fair not after walking out on him. Splashing water on my face I take a deep breath "get a grip baek" I scold myself looking in the mirror. Drying my face I head back into the bedroom.

Stopping in the doorway of the bedroom and leaning against it, I smile as I watch Chanyeol laying on his side as he smiles and rubs Taehyungs hair as he lays on his little tummy looking at his daddy before Chanyeol kisses his forehead then looks up at me making me blush 

"Ok will we go and get ready for our party?" Chanyeol smiles towards our son picking him up from the bed and putting him on his feet on the floor as he walks over to me 

"Appa up" tae smiles up at me as I crouch down to him "Sweetheart you need to get use to walking appa can't hold you all the time your a big boy now~" I hug him tight as we hear music come from outside as he begins to bounce up and down doing his little dance "Do you wanna go outside and dance?" Moving out of his way I walk beside him as we see Kai dancing in the sitting room 

"Bonk" tae points towards Kai then looks up at me as if to ask me can he go 

"Go sweetheart" I toss his brown locks

"Come on tae, dance with uncle Kai" Kai waves tae over as he walks quickly over to him as they both dance making me burst out laughing as a tear falls from my eye

"He loves his uncle Kai" Chanyeol comes up behind me making me blush again. I haven't felt like this in a long time 

"He really does" I smile wiping the tear away as I turn back to watch them dance as I spot Sehun filming  them 

"Baek about the kiss...." 

"Lets not talk about that now you have a party to get ready for~" I smile up at him before I head back into the bedroom to get my things ready as I hear the door close 

"You have to talk to me at some stage" he softly says as he sits on the bed 

Looking down not being able to face him "I will I promise you but now isn't the right time" I feel my tears start to fill up threaten to fall

"Hey are you ok?" He quickly stands up and moves towards me touching my arm. My tears let me down and flow down my cheeks 

"Yeah you know me I'm a fighter I'll be ok" I sniff wiping my tears in my sleeve 

"Nice mark you left on my hoodie" he smiles while looking at the tear stains on the sleeve of the hoodie he gave me 

"Oh hush I'll wash it" I smile lightly pushing him making him smile back at me too 

"Baek you know you can always talk to me I've always told you that" he turns away to reach for tae's costume as I look towards him 

"I know, Chanyeol I don't think I'll go tonight, ill stay in here with tae if that's ok" I sit on the bed waiting for his reaction as he turns and sits beside me 

"If your not up for it then you can stay in here, but do you really think you can keep our son away from the music really" he walks over to the door and opens it waving me over.

Reaching the door I look out and see Sehun just bouncing along, Kai doing the actually dance moves and our beautiful son bouncing in the middle of them doing his own little dance with the biggest smile on his face. 

I fall to the floor grabbing my mouth as not to let out my sob

Chanyeol falls to his knees calling out  "Baek are you ok?" 

"I have screwed up haven't I chanyeol?" I cry out feeling my heart break knowing full well I caused all this 

"Hey, look at me" he turns my head so I can face him as he wipes my tears away 

"You have done an amazing job with our son, just look at him out there" I turn my head and watch him with his uncles "I kept him away from you though chanyeol" I find myself falling into his chest as he wraps his arms around me holding me close 

"But he is here, you both are here now  that's all that matters right now" he kisses the top of my head as I continue to watch our son 

"Wasn't the best way to come back was it" I mumble as I pull away smiling making him move my hair from my eyes 

"Na I could have