REST.
The Impossible | CLOSED.I can’t believe this is how I come back and have an “update”. I lay here, its 134 am where I am, and thinking of what just happened, unable to go to sleep. My mind is a mess, my heart is hurting, and my eyes are burning from crying. It all feels unreal, my mind can’t seem to grasp it just yet though Idk if it ever will.. there’s this hole in my heart– seeming to only grow bigger as I think about it. I want to believe it’s all a hoax, it’s fabricated but with the goosebumps I feel, the news that I’ve read, it all comes down on me and it’s all real. I’m so heartbroken, saddened, angered, and all of the above. My words are all but a jumble of messy thoughts that I have in my head. I don’t really know why I decided to write this but I think this is a way for me to rant, to vent out my feelings instead of holding it in – I’m sorry.
Just….it all feels sudden. It all feels abrupt. And I lay here, thinking. Thinking of one of the precious smiles I’ve seen and loved, thinking of the beautiful sweet voice, thinking of how the world….or some people treated her and for all of it to come to this. Thinking of all the laughter.
I’m sorry.
All I can is im sorry.
Im sorry and that I love you so much.
R.I.P, sweetest angel.
*edit, as you may see, i have decided to mark this as completed and leave it as it is. I don't have the heart to push through anymore and im so sorry. i don't think i'll ever go back to it, it all hurts too much rn. i hope you understand and please take of yourselves. love and appreciate those around you and make sure they're okay. thank you so much.
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