“Mummy, when can I learn how to play an instrument? When are you going to teach me?”

“Soon dear. Maybe if we are richer in the future, I’ll buy one clarinet for you, and when you’re older, we can even perform together!”

“Promise?”

“I promise you with the twinkling stars and the sky. Eunbi yah.”

“MUMMY!”

I realised that it was 2AM in the morning. I probably fell asleep crying as it’s been days since I slept. I was sweating profusely. I realised that it was just a dream, but it wasn’t any ordinary dream…It was a promise we made when I was 10. My heart was pounding with all that adrenaline rush. I just wanted to calm down and go back to sleep, as it’s been days since I last slept peacefully, but all this has left me weak and trembling.

So instead, I played a song to soothe and lull myself back to sleep

A song played

 I can’t overcome the sadness in my heart, 

I can’t seem to forget you

Another one of my sleepless nights, I endure it once more,

I really don’t mind the sadness,

I just want you to be by my side…

It absentmindedly wakes me up again in the morning.

I can’t go on like this…

The injury seems worse than i thought it’d be,

I’d feel that I’ll die without you…

The pain seems to dig in deeper than i thought it would,

It’s like being stabbed with a knive thousands of knives

In the countless nights i spent resenting you,

I’ve been thinking about you, regretting not spending more time with you.

 It feels like i’m in hell. 

It’s more than I can endure

Please just stay by my side, please remain here,

When will you ever visit me again? Be it in just my dreams or just your spirit…

 Don’t let go of my hand as you’re holding it in yours, 

Hold my hand and never let go…

If this takes yo