I'm never gonna let you close to me
Even though you mean the most to me
'Cause every time I open up, it hurts
So I'm never gonna get too close to you
Even when I mean the most to you
In case you go and leave me in the dirt

Jessica realizes that Taeyeon slumps her shoulders off when leaving the porch. The moment when Taecyeon came to her and hug her aside, Jessica could feel Taeyeon’s gloomy mood

What was actually happen?

“Tiffany once told me that Taeyeon usually is being gloomy” said Taecyeon when sipped his drink “Well, I don’t know the exact reason though”

“She’s not jealous, isn’t she?”

“Jealous of me? Are you serious?” Taecyeon laughed “It’s been four years when we had the relationship, Jess. And she knew that we’re not together again”

“But I felt the same way…” Jessica sighed “When we had the first date, she was being moody”

“It’s not reasonable for this time. Or maybe, did Tyler came last night?”

“He did”

“Nah, maybe Tyler made her jealous? Listen up, Jess. I won’t make a stupid argument about her but are you sure she still has the feeling to you? You ended your relationship seven years ago, and had an argument at the time when we broke up, which means four years ago. There is no reason for her for keeping her feeling to you. Or maybe, you can have the friendly thing like you and I right now”

“Maybe you are right, Oppa” Jessica smiled “I hope we aren’t awkward as before”

“Try to text her first, maybe she needs a friend to talk”

******

Taeyeon decided to buy ice coffee and parked her car somewhere. She felt… heavy… somehow

“Stupid…” Taeyeon sighed and leaned her back on the seat “Stupid”

“We don’t even have a relationship. We just mere ex”

“But why Taecyeon came alone to her house”

“Is that obvious?”

“Gosh…”

Taeyeon still cursing herself when a message coming. She unlocked her phone and the name of sender already made her shock

Jung Sooyeon

taengoo, are you okay?

seems like you didn’t have a good sleep last night

 Taeyeon played with her fingers for a while, do she need to reply the message? This is so awkward when she reminded of her intention to back at Jessica

But she did nothing but keep saying sorry

Finally, she starts writing the reply

Jung Sooyeon

taengoo, are you okay?

seems like you didn’t have a good sleep last night

Hey, I’m fine

I’m just tired because of my schedule
 

Are you okay now?

Too many sighs left Taeyeon’s mouth before sending the message. She gripped her phone tightly, afraid if the answer isn’t amused of maybe Jessica isn’t interesting with her anymore

She had Taecyeon or Tyler, or maybe Donghae

Those exes are more enough for her, than Taeyeon herself

One message incoming

Jung Sooyeon

i’m okay

get some rest when your day off

see you

“See you? OMG is she insane?” Taeyeon laughed sarcastically

“Do I need to see her after the moment before?”

“Stupid”

“Hello?” Taeyeon takes the phone immediately when it’s ringing. Her tone is still down because of her chat with Jessica just now

“Yah Kim Taeyeon, you need to go back to the dorm because we will have a practice today” Tiffany is shouting from another line and Taeyeon check her watch

“Sorry, I lost track of time” Taeyeon sighed

“Are you okay? Where are you? Are you with Jessi?”

“I’m all alone” Taeyeon sighed again “I left Sica’s house at the morning and driving around. I’ll be back soon, don’t worry”

******

After the practice, the members are having rest at the dorm. Seohyun and Tiffany decided to watch their favorite movie at the living room when the others are sleeping early

Taeyeon isn’t sleeping yet, she takes her drink and eyeing Seohyun and Tiffany. They are watching Eternal Sunshine on the Spotless Mind again and again

“You guys know the storyline as well, why bother watch it again?” Taeyeon asked while leaning her body on the couch

“This is our favorite, even we already memorized every part of it” said Seohyun without separating her eyes from the screen

“It’s like reading same book” Taeyeon said again

“It’s also like back to your ex” suddenly Tiffany fired back “You already know the ending”

It let Taeyeon speechless for a while. She sighed heavily before leaving the living room, back to her bedroom

“Fany Unnie, is it okay?” Seohyun asked when Taeyeon’s door already closed

“Yes. She needs someone to knock her sense back”

“But she always happy when we talk about Sica Unnie, or when you told us the story after had a date with Sica Unnie”

“She needs to know, Juhyun-ah” Tiffany sighed “She needs to know if she still being coward, Jessica will be out of reach again. Do you remember every time Jessica break up? Taeyeon always had the hope for being back to her again but she never did anything”

“And then Jessica Unnie found her partner, Taeyeon Unnie just being sad”

“Exactly”

“What should we do, Unnie?”

“Let the time answer them. If they are meant to be, they will be back again”

The maknae nodded in response. She also believes that Taeyeon still has a feeling to Jessica, but how about the brunette? Seems