All my friends keep saying that I'm way too good to you
But my heart is so invested I don't wanna face the truth
I'm not happy and you know it and you still don't even try
Broken down, I've had enough
If this is love, I don't want it

Jessica can’t believe her own eyes when Taeyeon suddenly tossed out in her sleep. She runs to her immediately and tries to calm her but suddenly Taeyeon takes her hands while mumbling something like please stay like this

Jessica also noticed that Taeyeon’s body is trembling but as soon as she takes her hands, it reduced

“Sorry…” Taeyeon pulls out her hands with her head hung low, “Sorry for making a mess”

Jessica raised Taeyeon’s face with her finger,looking straight at Taeyeon’s eyes to find if she can sense anything is amiss.

But she finds nothing

“Tae… What’s wrong?” Jessica asked

“Can we have a dinner first? I’m starving” Taeyeon stood up but Jessica stay at her place, she demands for an explanation

“Princess…” Taeyeon leaned closer to pecks Jessica’s forehead and keeps her lips a little longer, “Come on”

“But…” Jessica tried to protest but Taeyeon takes her hands and pulls her to stand with her

“Come on, Love” Taeyeon smiled. She tries to make Jessica follow her, in which Jessica finally nods and follows her

Jessica noticed how Taeyeon tried to relax when she had her pasta, but she failed miserably. She chuckled mentally because Taeyeon looks so funny when she loses her cool like now

“Why are you smiling?” Taeyeon gulped her water

“You looked so funny. Tae, I know you for almost half of my life so I thought you can’t even lie in front of my face like just now” Jessica chuckled, “I knew you tried to be cool”

Taeyeon pouted and Jessica ushered her back to the living room again

Both of them are sitting side to side, Taeyeon places her arm at the headrest while Jessica bends down to put her head into head rest so she could see Taeyeon’s face

“I went to see my doctor after we decided to take a break” Taeyeon takes a long breath before continuing her words, “Initially, I thought that I missed Jonghyun but it turned out that I… I need you”

Jessica widen her eyes

“I trembled, I can’t control my sense, I got those bad dreams” Taeyeon closes her eyes, “Because I miss you, badly”

“How… how come you never told me?” Jessica asked

“Because I don’t want to drag you into this mess” Taeyeon opens her eyes and found that Jessica’s eyes already watering. She reached forward and caressing her cheeks, erasing the tears that flooded her cheeks, “Because I thought, I would be strong without you”

“Taengoo-ah…”

“That was the worst decision that I ever made. I should either broke up or continue the relationship, not putting it into the bay”

Jessica throws herself into Taeyeon. She hugs the latter, tightly. Taeyeon was taken aback for a while before she moves her arm and returns the hug

“You should tell me! You should come to me sooner!” Jessica punches Taeyeon’s back lightly while becoming a mess in Taeyeon’s embrace.

“Sica…”

“You! Idiot!” Jessica cried again, she feels so guilty because she is the reason why Taeyeon became like this

“Shhh, Baby Girl” Taeyeon caressing Jessica’s hair while cooing the latter, when Jessica is crying a river, Taeyeon has no choice because Jessica won’t listen whatever she will say and she should soothe her, whispering some endearments and let Jessica finish her wail.

After ten minutes, Jessica sniffled adorably on Taeyeon’s embrace and makes Taeyeon chuckled, her Jessica is truly adorable even when she just cried.

“Gross as usual” Taeyeon said playfully when Jessica pulled from her. She takes her handkerchief and wiped Jessica’s snorts also tears, before wiping her own shirt

“Dork!” Jessica hits Taeyeon’s shoulder again and pouted

“Baby girl…” Taeyeon reaches forward to caress Jessica’s cheek with her own hand, the brunette closes her eyes and liking the sensation that she missed for three months.

“Don’t go…” said Jessica, almost inaudible but loud enough for Taeyeon to hear that.

“I won’t” Taeyeon drops her hand and takes Jessica’s, she caresses the back of her hand with her thumb and looking intently at the spot, “I won’t make the relationship at the bay again. So, would you be my girlfriend again?”

“Sure” Jessica nods and smiling widely, this is the time when the fog between them already gone. At least, both of them know that they have relationship, again

*****

Jessica was about to change her clothes into comfortable one when suddenly Taeyeon hugs her from behind

“Tae, I…”

“No need” Taeyeon Jessica’s neck lightly, “I miss you”

Jessica groaned when Taeyeon trails her fingers from her lower abdomen up into her . She squeezed them intently which makes Jessica moaned. Taeyeon doesn’t waste her time to takes Jessica’s body and tosses both of them into the bed

With Jessica’s grunt and high pitch’s scream, Taeyeon knows she could make the younger girl hits the point

Or she hopes, because at some point, she thought Jessica is holding back

Jessica tilted her head aside, Taeyeon is sleeping peacefully with wide smile plastered on her face. Jessica knew Taeyeon is happy

She untangled Taeyeon’s hold and takes her oversized sweater. She needs drink, her heart is heavy

One gulp and Jessica feel more relaxed, one thing bothers her mind

No, not about Taeyeon but it relates to her. This is the biggest mistake which Jessica ever did in her life

*****

Jessica hugs Taeyeon tighter than her usual, her eyes said that she won’t let Taeyeon go again. It’s not going unnoticed by Taeyeon, but when the latter asked, Jessica just said that she misses Taeyeon

Taeyeon left after the breakfast, she has some practices for her concert. She also said that she is preparing for the new songs

Jessica took her day off for today, she doesn’t feel to come into office and since nothing important, her secretary is enough to cover her for the day.

“Sunny…” Jessica called her friend

“Hi, Sica. What happened?”

“Taeyeon was there…”

There’s short pause between them until Sunny sighs, “Did you tell her?”   

“I’m afraid” Jessica bits her lips, “I’m afraid, Sunkyu-ah”

“You have to… It’s for you guys”

“I know but… she told me about her sickness and else. It makes me even more guilty, I feel like I don’t even care about her and doing what I want when we had the break”

“Taecyeon and you were realized that was a mistake. Both of you didn’t remember every single bit except you invited him to