Well, what to say
What kind of expression should I say?
With more touching words
I want to convey all my deepest sincerity.

Taeyeon parked her car along the sidewalk, not so far from Jessica’s unit across her. She just parked her car and do not have any intention to call her, maybe still, girlfriend.

“Hey” she picked the call, Tiffany is calling all the way from LA

“I heard from Sunkyu” the low tone from Tiffany makes Taeyeon smiled, she knows the latter might be freaking about after heard the story

“Yeah, thing happened”

“You look calmer than Sunny’s story, did something happen?”

“I talked to Taecyeon, just now” said Taeyeon, her eyes beaming outside with the traffic still jam-packed at this hour. Indeed, Jessica’s apartment located at the busy area of Seoul

“Oh wow, I thought you would kill him” Tiffany laughed, “I guess not”

“We talked a lot about Jessica” Taeyeon sighed, “I know she was wrong, Taecyeon too. But I must admit that I put her on the tough side last time”

“Taecyeon knocked some sense to you, huh? I have some things on my mind, Tae. After I heard the story from Sunny, I have my own point of view”

“Go on, Fany”

“I was thinking that Jessica wasn’t wrong, since you put your relationship at the bay, she has her right to do something, including . It’s not considering as cheating for me”

“Because I didn’t give the border, right?”

“Exactly” Tiffany chuckled, “Oh boy, if Jessica is me, I will totally ask for break up from you when you said that we should break for a while”

“That’s why I date Jessica, not you” Taeyeon laughed, “Fany-ah, I have one question that bothering me so much since Jessica admitted that she did something with Taecyeon”

“What’s that?”

“Did she really love me?”

“OMG KIM TAEYEON ARE YOU STUPID?” Tiffany screamed and luckily Taeyeon put the call on the loudspeaker so the voice didn’t affect her, “If she doesn’t even love you, why did she feel guilty? Why does she wait for you to come back to her? What the hell are you thinking about, Kim Taeyeon?!”

“Relax, Fany” Taeyeon chuckled, her friend always be the furious one between them, “I just wondered”

“You need to ask her, talk everything out. If the case is you guys don’t get along again, then break up. Don’t make both of you suffered in the long run.”

“I know”

*******

“Okay, wrap up!” Jessica clasped her hands since the meeting is finally over. It’s the last preparation before the tour, New York – Paris – Barcelona - Basel without rest. The schedule is packed for her and her team

After Wony closed the door and she’s the last person from her room, Jessica takes her time to rest her eyelids. She couldn’t sleep well last night because of certain person, who pushed her when they were about to kiss last time they met.

She sighs, she doesn’t understand why her life would be this complicated

“Unnie, I told you that…” Jessica hung her words after realized who’s standing at the opened door, “Taeyeon…”

“Am I bothering you, Miss Jung?”

Jessica scowled, Taeyeon is being odd again. Moreover, the older girl is holding a bouquet, of white roses, which is Jessica’s favorite

“What do you want?”

Taeyeon smiled and walked closer, seeing Jessica frightened at her seat

“Wow wow wow hold on! Who let you in?” Jessica stands from her seat and jumps forward, to the smirking Taeyeon

“Daniel-ssi and Wony-ssi let me in” said Taeyeon, “If I am bothering you, then I’ll just put the flower there and leave” Taeyeon put the bouquet at Jessica’s desk, “Also, I just want to say sorry”

Jessica’s eyes softened, why would Taeyeon say sorry? It’s her fault since the very beginning.

“I never meant to push you away, I... was just caught up with my bad feeling” Taeyeon takes a step closer, “Sorry”

“Tae, I had… with another person and you have your right to hate me” Jessica closed her eyes, her lips trembling when saying those words to Taeyeon

“We were having a break that time, Sica. Let’s talk about this with our head clear. Let’s just talk all of this without getting mad or angry” Taeyeon steps closer again, now she can reach Jessica’s waist with her arms, “I never considered that as a cheating since we’re not in good term. I asked for that break, Sica”

Jessica could feel Taeyeon’s arms creeping on her waist, when she opens her eyes, Taeyeon just inches away from her

“I’m sorry…” Jessica finally voices out, “I was wrong, I wasn’t thinking clearly when I walked out from your house like that. I’m sorry…”

“Sica, do you even love me?”

“I do” Jessica nods and Taeyeon leans closer. She caught Jessica’s upper lips and nibbling them gently, while Jessica circled Taeyeon’s neck and pulled her closer

“I’m sorry…” Jessica says again, “I’m sorry that I fell in love with you again”

Taeyeon hummed, she tightens her hug and caressing Jessica’s brown tresses. She can feel Jessica slowly crying on her hold. After 5 minutes, Taeyeon pushed her on her shoulders to see Jessica’s face

“Sweetheart” Taeyeon called Jessica while wiping her tears, “Hey, I’m here”

“I’m afraid if you just pity me…” said Jessica

“I’m not” Taeyeon smiled and cupped Jessica’s face, “Loving you is the best thing in this world that had happened to me. Falling in love with you for the second time or else, is the best grace from God to me”

Jessica looking at Taeyeon eyes, trying to find if the latter is serious with her. And she found that

Jessica finds the sincerity on Taeyeon’s eyes, no more disgusted look or disappointed look that Taeyeon gave to her lately

“I made a mess, Taeyeon. I was hurting you, what do you want from me?”

“I want you, Jessica Jung. If this relationship is destinated to end, let’s make a good closure”

“Do you still love me?” Jessica asked

“I do, and always do”

The last sentence from Taeyeon makes Jessica breaks into her tears again. Luckily Taeyeon is fast enough to catching the younger girl and brings her into her embrace, so that Jessica won’t sprawl on the floor

*****

Taeyeon knows that she might be the stupidest person in this world who forgave Jessica, as the younger girl thought that she’s cheating behind Taeyeon

But one thing which Taeyeon highlighted during their trip back to Jessica’s apartment is, Taeyeon isn’t considering that as a cheating since she was the one who asked for a break and also, she put the relationship at bay

Now, both of them are seating side by side at Jessica’s couch, waiting for the first one to speak

“Why did you feel guilty?” Taeyeon asked, after thirty minutes of silence

“Because I shouldn’t let my guard down even though we were both having a break” Jessica answered, still fiddling her fingers on her lap, refusing to look up at Taeyeon

“Do you really love me?” Taeyeon asked, the same question over again

“I do… I really do, Taeyeon. I love you so much, even though I don’t deserve you. I love you…”

Taeyeon reaches forward to takes Jessica’s jaw. She makes her faced her, “Sica, I love you more”

Jessica takes both of Taeyeon’s hands and takes into her own. She brings the intertwined hands to her lips and kiss them tenderly

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