“Why are you acting weird these days?” Sinb asked as she scroll down through her phone. I turned my head slowly and blinked a few times as the question process in my head

Looking at her, she didn’t seem to he waiting for an answer nor cares if I would answer so I turned my head away but as soon as I did, I flinched by her voice

“Don’t just stare and look away without giving me an answer, Sojung” I turned to look at her again but surprisingly, she was already looking at me.... hurt. With pain in her eyes not knowing why she’s looking at me with hurt visible in her eyes

“I-I-I’m not acting w-wierd” I said stuttering and with my eyes all over the place but not on hers

“You are. You’ve been avoiding me” Her voice that was full of sternness and dominancy turned soft and fragile making me uneasy

I admit that I’ve been cold to her these past days due to what was happening to my feelings and also... because of that nightmare that visit me every night.

The nightmare disappears when I’m not getting too close to her in a day but when I have a close interaction towards her, it visits me again. Like it was haunting me and trying to tell me something.

A warning perhaps? Or an encrypted message that’s waiting for me to decipher it...

The more it visits me, the more it gets complicated and the more I get confused about it. The girl inside it was saying nonsensical things such as “you destroyed yourself for me” “you should’ve seen it coming along”

I heard a snap beside my ear pulling me out of my thoughts “I asked, why are you avoiding me?” Sinb’s voice became stern and irritation could be heard in it but the pain still is inevitable making guilt creep into me

“I’m sorry...” Those were the only words that came out of my mouth. It came out like it was forced to come out due to how I said it between under my breath and how I was the only one who understood what I said

“Tell me what I did for you to avoid and act cold towards me?” She asked but I remained silent and looked at her right to her eyes

She closed her eyes as she sighed in defeat. She stood up from the seat across me while shaking her head slowly but even before she could open the door out of the room, I finally managed to say something making her turn around to face me

“Wh-where’s your favorite place to go other than the arcade place?” She tilted her head with confusion plastered on her face 

“I mean, I already showed mine so...” I said shyly while rubbing my right hand on my nape and I saw her lips form a small curve

She walked towards me and reached out her hand in front of me making me look at it “Come. I’ll take you there” she bounced her hand indicating that I should take it and so I did... hesitantly if I should

As soon as I touched her hand, I felt electricity running through my body sending shivers and goosebumps to me

Before I could hold it tight, she was the one who held me tightly and never let go of my hand

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We walked together with our hands intertwined until she stopped walking and turned left as she released her grip from my hand.

I turned my head and saw that it was a parking lot of an abandoned supermarket. Questions started running through my head on why is this one of her favorite place to go and before I could open my mouth to ask her that, she opened hers first

“You must be curious on why is this my favorite place” I slowly turned my head to her and saw that she was admiring the place like it had so much memories to it

“This abandoned place is actually the number one in my favorite places in the world. It’s not the arcade place”—she turned her head to me and forced a smile—“Do you know why?”

We stared at each other for a while until I slowly shook my head and stutteringly said “No”

She took a deep breath and gathered herself “It’s because it was always had the been the place where my parents and I go and...”—she hesitated to continue and pain was yet visible in her as she sat on the rusted bench—“This was the last place where they were with me”

“W-what happened?” I knew that they were already gone just by hearing what she had said but that question about me wanting to know what exactly happened just slipped out my mouth like it was nothing. Like it won’t hurt nor make her reminisce about what happened

“Car crash. A big truck crashed into us and I was the only one who survived and guess what day it was” She looked at me with pain and her forcing a smile.

I returned back the question to her with a “What day is it?” but this time, I was hesitating to say it. I was afraid that it might hurt her if she try to remember what it was

“It was June third, my eight birthday to be exact. Do you know what hurt the most?” She asked once again but she didn’t wait for me to answer her and just continued

“I didn’t even got the chance to say  goodbye to them... and how much I love them” I moved closer to her and wrapped my arm on her shoulder and tapped it to comfort her

“I was so devastated and so lost during those times. It was like I was trapped in a dark place where no light can creep into but then... she came along... Yerin came along” I felt myself getting suffocated and hard to breath as I heard her call Yerin’s name with such admiration that it made me had a hard time getting myself together. This is why I was avoiding you. Apart from fearing of having more feelings towards you... I was afraid of me getting jealous of Yerin...

I suddenly felt a warm hand on top of my hand on her shoulder. She removed my arm from her shoulder and placed it onto her lap to interlock her hand onto mine making me redden up and confused on why she did that.

“Was it because she was thinking about her? Is she thinking that my hand was Yerin’s?” I asked that question suddenly came up to me as I look and felt at how tight her grip was

“Yerin’s family took care of me as their own and she took care of me as her own sister and as time goes by we became best friends. As cliché it could be, I slowly fell for her but I knew from the start that she won’t feel the same way because for her”—she closed her eyes and exhaled deeply—“I am nothing more than just a younger sister but I hoped and hoped everyday that my one sided crush would not be one sided anymore until it got crushed. She told me that she likes someone else and now she’s even courting her and pleasing her and everything around me seemed to have fallen apart. Until you came” I felt her grip tighten making me turn my head towards her and meet her brown eyes that was and has always shine like a crystal every time I look at it and every time our eyes meet

“W-what do you mean... I came?” I asked nervously, scared of what she might answer

“You know... I’ve told you a week ago that if cupids do exist, I hope and wish that they would pair me up with Yerin but I realized that that would be impossible. Because I think... she’s already met her match and that would be Yuju... and I would be delusional if I keep hoping that we would end up together when it’s clearly visible that the one she loves is Yuju and not me”

The more she opens and the more she says something... the more I get scared on what she’s trying to point out and what her reason behind saying all of these towards me

“They’re still not together... so you still have a chance towards her” I said nervously but she should her head and turned her body to face me

“Could you stop thinking about helping me with her even just this once”—she shook her head—“No. I want you to really stop thinking about helping me towards her”

“What?” My forehead creased in confusion, not getting what she’s trying to say nor what’s the meaning behind all of this

“I want you to stop helping me with her because I’ve realized one thing. I would never be with her”

“What? I don’t get what your trying to say. You love her and I’m here to help you so why are you suddenly giving up?”

“Because we could never be together and because... and because... I’m feeling something weird when I’m with you. Believe me or not but when you’re not with me, I kept missing you and when you acted cold and avoided me these past days, I felt thousands of boulders crashing onto me and I felt my heart aching. It ached more than how it ached when I see Yerin with Yuju”

I could feel my heart beating rapidly in each word that comes out of and I found it hard to process, all of what she had said. It was leaving me confused. All of it seemed like a broken puzzle waiting to be picked up and get placed into their designated location

“I-I don’t really get what you’re trying to say” I tried removing my hand from her grip but she tightened it making it to stay in her hold

“Why are you so dumb, Kim Sojung? Why can’t you understand what I’m trying to say when I’ve said mostly the hint of it?”

“I’m confused... that’s all...” She then placed her right hand onto my cheek making me flustered and caressed it slowly and looked at me with endearing eyes making my heart want to explode

“S-stop... please” I said while I felt and heard my voice crack a little bit

“W-why?”

“Stop or else I would just get more confused and I’m afraid that I would fall deeper towards someone who will never be mine” My eyes widened at what I just had said. Surprised by my sudden confession and too afraid of how she would react—too afraid that she would distance herself from me and I’m scared of that to happen

I tried turning my face and avoiding her stare but her hand stopped me so I closed my eyes to not see her reaction nor what she would do

“Look at me, Sojung” her voice was soft yet full of desperation. I slowly opened my eyes and met a smiling Sinb in front of me

“What if I tell you that I won’t stop? That if you ever fall deeper, I would gladly and openly catch you?”

I could feel the cool breeze passing through me, the whispers of the leaves that are dancing along the wind and everything around us turn mute and disappear just like what had happened when we were in the cliff. Where I had realized that I was in love with her, a human whom I know which I could never be with because I am a cupid.

But why do I want to take it? Why do I want to choose the option where I could be with her even though there are consequences instead of taking the safe road but I would be hurting?

Is this what love could do? Make someone take a risk even if it’ll be dangerous? Not knowing what the outcome would be?

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Author’s Note: Well... I would really appreciate to know what your opinions or feedback is because I don’t know how this turned out. Idk if its good enough or lacking because I think it’s lacking so I would really really  appreciate it if you leave a comment below ;) // And thank you for the new subs and upvotes ^-^