SINB’S POV 

Two years have already passed ever since I started to have that kind dream. A kind of dream where it feels and seems like it was all real. And every time I dream about it... I see a model-like girl with a black hair in front of me, holding me and telling me how much she loves me and she hopes that I won’t ever forget her even if she disappears from my life

I also see some memories of us being a sweet couple but I also saw myself being in so much pain that I wake up having cold sweats and panting heavily. It was like a dream that turned into a nightmare

Every time I see myself being in such state, I felt like even my real body was feeling it. I was getting suffocated like the oxygen around me was disappearing and I was having a hard time breathing.

The dream was haunting me and it seemed like it was too real just to be only a mere dream. And that girl? Every time she appears in my head, my heart starts to beat crazily and tears flow down from my eyes and a bitter smile or laugh appears

There was even I time where I tried touching her but when my hands lands on her skin, her body turns into dusts and it will follow the direction of the wind. Apart from me waking up from a nightmare, when it was her who I was dreaming... I end up feeling my eyes and cheeks wet from the tears and my heart felt like it was crushed by a big boulder or a giant stomped on it

But there was one thing that was weird. Her face. It was all blurry and I could see no feature of her. Like it was all erased from my memory and I don’t know her name

Even if I try to rethink and force my head to remember if I had known her, I just can’t. All of it was too vague. The memories of us were too vague... But it was also a dream that felt like it had really happened

I only dream of her and the pain when I’m exhausted or when I sleep at midnight but if I forced myself to dream about it, It doesn’t appear

“Hey, you’re not paying attention again” I felt someone nudge me from my side. It was Yerin who was frowning at me with a displeased expression

I can’t really blame her. We only meet up during weekends for she had already graduated college the past year and I became a senior now. Last year of my university days

“Sorry” I said timidly as I rub the back of my neck which made her sigh because of how shy I sounded—and I don’t usually sound like this when it comes to her and if I do, it means something was bothering me

“What’s bothering you now, Bi?” I looked everywhere but except in her eyes. She raised her right eyebrow and crossed her arms in front of her chest “It’s that dream again isn’t it?”

I stared at her, thinking if I should say it or deny. She would probably just tell me to stop thinking about it because it’s just a dream, after all. And no matter how hard I explain to her that it feels so real she just wouldn’t listen to me

“It is, am I right?”—she slowly shook her head out of frustration—“I can’t believe you still think that was real. I mean I’ve know you for almost your whole life but I’ve never seen you with a model-like girl. You barely make friends because of your cold aura, Eunbi”

I rolled my eyes and started walking faster just to get away from her who was starting her rant and sooner or later she’ll start reprimanding me like a child who did something wrong. And as much as I had a past crush on her, I don’t like how she rants. It gets on my nerves

And yes, I did have a past crush on her. Which I though I was in love with her but that all change when that dream appeared. I felt like I already found someone and am in love with a ghost that keeps haunting me. Weird right?

I didn’t know it’ll just take a dream to be able to forget my feelings for Yerin. I always had wanted to ask her out in the past but now... I only see her as an older sister. Nothing more, nothing less

“Hwang Eunbi, why are you walking away from me?” She said with her pouty face and using her cute voice which made me stop. When she caught up, she stopped in front of me trying to catch her breath

“You still get tired so easily Yerin. This is why you should start going to the gym to workout” I said with a smirk which earned me a deadly glare from her

“Don’t change the subject, Eunbi”—she went closer and grabbed my wrist—“Let’s talk about you ‘dream’ somewhere else and not in the middle of the street”

She dragged me towards a famous cafe near the university and it wasn’t as crowded is it used to be when I visit this store during lunch or after school. It seemed unusual seeing this place have barely customers inside and I rarely get to seat in this place due to all of the seats being already taken but now, I guess we’re lucky that no one’s here.

We sat at the left window seat of the cafe and when the waiter came to us to take out orders, she got a chocolate mousse cake while I just passed. I was already full from eating a huge piece of stake a while ago

When the waiter left us, she placed both of her arms on the table with her hands clasped together and leaned closer “What’s up with that girl in your dream that it’s driving you crazy? It’s already been two years—gonna be three years in a few months—but you still can’t get over it. You just seemed to get crazier for her as time passes by instead of forgetting about it”

Just when I thought she’ll finally give me a proper conversation regarding this matter which turned out to be another rant from her. I deeply sighed as I lean my back on the couch that I was sitting at

“Jung Yerin. I already told you that she doesn’t just came from a mere dream. I feel like she’s a real person. And I don’t know why my heart beat faster and why I am crying every time I wake up from my sleep. And that only happens when she was part of my sleep”

I don’t quite understand which part of my story don’t she get? I already had clearly stated every bit of the story about that vague dream of mine and I just get even more frustrated at how she doesn’t believe me

“Fine. Let’s say I believe you. But if you were in my shoes and I kept blabbering nonstop about a dream and kept telling that ‘I think I’m in love with that person inside my dream’ would you believe me even if I had told you everything about it?”

I thinned my lips at what she had said. In fact... I think she had a point about not believing but... “But if you have proof then I’ll believe you and if you looked serious enough. I will”

She gave me her famous you-gotta-be-kidding me look before she facepalmed “This is going nowhere”

“Yes. It isn’t and probably won’t if you don’t believe me”

“Fine. Let’s say that I believe you now. But what if you suddenly see that person in real life? Can you easily approach her?”—she stopped because the waiter had arrived and served her the cake and when he was gone she continued—“I’m pretty sure she wouldn’t even recognize who you are”

I stared at her not knowing what to respond because honestly, I don’t even know if I would be able to talk nor approach her. I’m known as a kind of person who doesn’t talk to others unless they approach me first. And that’s probably why people thinks I’m cold or some sort of snob which I totally am not

“See. You won’t and can’t do that, knowing what kind of person you are when it comes to strangers or someone whom you’re not friends with” She said as she took a bite of her cake. I was about to say something but she raised her hand with her index finger up and said “Don’t. I’m currently eating. Let me savor this delicious cake without having a fight with you”

I raised both of my arms up in the air indicating that I surrendered and that no matter how I think of it, I don’t think she will believe me nor have a plan on doing so. It just shows how stubborn we can be towards each other

I looked at my wristwatch and saw that I’ll it’s already getting late and I still have a curfew to catch. “Yerin, I need to go now since there’s still a curfew hours so I should get going” I said as I stood up and slid my bad around my shoulder

“What? You’re going?” She whiningly said and made that don’t-leave-me-alone expression on her face.

I weakly smiled at her because even if how much I want to spend more time with her, I can’t. Rules are rules after all.

“Sorry. But I really need to go. There’s only 30minutes more before curfew hours” She can only sigh and nod for she also had experience curfew hours and we all know what the university does to late students. They make them—or us—clean and put reduction on the student’s performance tasks score

As I make my way towards the dorm, I saw a familiar figure walking not far from me. She was wearing a black hoodie, a ripped jean and a white sneakers, the hood was covering her head so I couldn’t really see  her hair. Both of her hands were placed in her pockets

I tried following her but as soon as she turned at the next street, I suddenly lost her—as if she just vanished or did she find out that someone was following her so she decided to hide?

When I saw that she was nowhere to be found, I couldn’t help but feel disappointed. There was someone in that stranger that made my heart race due to how nervous I felt as I saw her walking in front of me...

I felt something oddly familiar... something I haven’t felt before. There was something special and odd in her presence, as if she was pulling me towards her without even me knowing that I was already being attached to her

I shook my head to remove those thoughts because I might just have been hallucinating or Yerin was really becoming right about me starting to become crazy because of the person inside my dream

When I arrived at my room, I immediately lied down on my bed. This was just such a turning day—specially with Yerin arguing with my belief

“Sinb. Did you already forget about me?” I saw someone in front of me. The same girl who appears in my dream—her face was still missing.

“What? But I don’t even know who you are” I said with my eyebrows knitted but my I wasn’t irritated. I was confused and worried.

She then raised her right hand and touched my cheek “You did forget me”—she let out a bitter laugh—“But I still love you. Even now that I know that you had already forgotten about me, my princess”

Her voice started to crack and I felt a pang in my heart and I suddenly felt my eyes burning up, getting blurry.

“Tell me. Why do you make me feel this way? You’re just a dream but why do I feel like I have known you for a long time and... why do I feel like I’m in love with you? A stranger in my dreams” I took a step back to get away from her touch but she held my wrist, stopping me in getting away from her

“Because you do know me and... love me... but you just forgot everything despite of you saying that you won’t” I felt both of her hands cup my face and she was leaning closer and closer but as soon as our lips touched, she turned into dusts and disappeared right in front of me

I woke up from my sleep I was panting and I felt my heart getting crushed by something so heavy and when I touched my cheeks, I felt liquids—tears falling from my eyes. Just like how I wake up every time I dream of her

The unknown girl who’s making me crazy the more I think of her and the more I dream of her

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Author’s Note: The italic words are Sinb’s dream and the next is the last chapter.

Comment whatever theory you have for why Sinb is having dreams about Cupid and what / how do you think will this story end? Please let me know your thoughts for this chapter ;>