I was so scared.

I don't know why.

I don't want to do this.

But i can't.

I am scared, so scared..

With many reasons.

I hate being sad,

Crying infront of many people.

I always want to laugh,smile and tell a jokes.

with Them.

But maybe..

"It's your turn,Sooyoung-ah"

My head slowly raised up, i was looking down.

I smile at him. It was Sooman Appa.
He was smiling at me,with a lot of emotions. I don't know what's with that smile but He's sad.

I look to my right side. 

'I am so lucky to have them'  That is all what i thought

They we're all smiling at me, waiting, and hoping that i'll make a right decisions

I give them a smile that i'll never shown and their smile slowly fade away. YoonA, who's beside me hold my hand and shook her head. 

I turned my head to my left side, where Tiffany is looking down. Another side of my hand reach her face and caress her cheek. She look at me. Giving me a weak smile

"Do what you want" She mumbled and kiss my hand on her face. But then i felt Yoona tighten the grip. "Sooyoung-ah" I heard Taeyeon call me. I look at her. she was shaking her head

I snob her. But i didn't mean it.

I look to the paper infront of me. They already did, Only Tiffany and I who didn't.

My hand is shaking when i let go of Yoona's hand.

I reach the paper. The paper is shaking because of my hand. 

I put it down and smile at Lee sooman Appa.

He's not smiling anymore. He doesn't want this.

I look to my girls, theyre tearing up. 

This already happened when She did this too. I know now what her Feelings when she did this.. 

I hate this

"I-i.." 

I can't speak.

I heard Sunny burst into tears that makes me look at them. Seohyun is looking down, Taeyeon,Hyo,Yul were keep calming Sunny down. 

I know this is wrong. 

But i know it's for our sake.

"E-eonnie" I slowly look at Yoona. She is tearing up "N-no" I slowly cupped her face and caress and cheek "A-always remember t-that i love you all" I said softly and kiss her forehead. I slowly stood up but then both Tiffany and Yoona hold my hand. stopping me "You shouldn't but i should" Tiffany begged
"Mianhe" That's all what I've said before leaving the room with full of regrets...

But maybe... Those laughter that we have turns into what we had.

I closed the door and ran away. 

Please tears, don't fall down!

"Sooyoung?" I turned back. Donghae Oppa is here. He waved when he Realize it was me. "D-don't" I said and cover my face. Donghae Oppa will hate this too. "Are you crying?" He asked. He look at the door where i came from "D-don't t-tell me.."  He stopped. He covered his mouth 

He's looking at me despirated.

I saw he gritted his jaw "O-oppa..."

"Y-you did wrong" That's all what he says before leaving me here.

Am i wrong? Did i've done wrong? Is it wrong?

"Soo!!" 

I didn't dare to look back. It was Yuri. My bestfriend is calling me. I know she was.. She was disappointed to what i have done.

I ran..

I ran outside the building. Covering my face. Im embarassed. Everyone was looking at me. Taking a photo with me. 

I rode to taxi and tell the driver where i wanna go.

I paid the taxi when i reached my destination. I take a deep breath before entering the building

*bzzt*

I open my phone. It was Tiffany. 

From: MiYoungieee
"Sooyoung.. Come back here. Don't do this" 

I sighed and didn't dare to reply. I walked into the building and look for the room of the person i wanted to see.

I reach the room and knock on it. "Who's there?" I get shivered when i heard that voice. it's been a long time

"Just open it" I said,changing my voice. The person opened it. Giving me a shock look. Her eyes are bigger than owl now

"W-what are y-you doing here?" I smiled at her. "Hi" I said. But she just keep looking at me. 

I'm hurt with what i have done tonight but she changed it. I hug her tight

"Tell me, did i do right?" I Mumbled but i still hugging her. She slowly pushed me away.

"D-did you?" She stuttered. I nodded my head

"What the hell are you doing Choi Sooyoung?!" She screams that makes me startled for awhile. 

I expected this. She hate me for doing this. She doesn't want this. I decided this 3 years ago since she left us but i don't want my girls to get more stressed.

"I-i. .." She look at me and sigh frustatedly. "I hate you for doing this!!" She screamed again and pushed me. "S-sica-" She stop me by putting her hand infront of Me. She stand there for a minute and entered her room without talking to me. But i followed her, i lock her door. Then she faced me

"What are doing here?" She asked me and i know she's still dissapointed. "I need you" I replied and look at her like i used to do before. She avoided my gazes and turned back. "Leave and Sign that paper. They need you. My girls needed you" She said and she's finally calm. I shook my head slowly and just hugged her tight as i can. I felt that she hugged me back "I still love you,Sica-ah" I said making her pushed me again. 

"Go away Soo