Donghae couldn’t sleep that night. The feel of his baby gentle kicks was still on his mind. Despite his vow to stay emotionally distance from Taeyeon and the baby…it was already to late. Donghae sighed and leaned his head against the bed board. Three more months left…that was all the time he has with them. For the past weeks Donghae couldn’t stop thinking about what it would be like to be a real father, to raise his daughter…

He knew he was being selfish, that was not the agreement he had with Taeyeon. He felt heavy hearted thinking about Taeyeon, the baby and Suzy. Donghae dialed Suzy’s cell numbers. The phone rang a couple of times but she did not answer. Donghae dialed the number again and this time she answered.

“Donghae? Why are you calling so late?”

“Suzy, I need to talk to you.”

“Donghae, it’s past midnight, let’s talk tomorrow.” Suzy said with a yawn and proceeded to hang up but stopped when she heard Donghae whispered,

“I don’t want to lose them…I…” 

“What do you mean?” 

“Suzy, I want to raise my daughter. I want to be a part of her life.”

Silence. 

The sound of Suzy’s breathing could be heard over the phone but she remained silent. 

“Suzy?”

“Did you fall in love with her?”

“What?”

“Remember that day…when you first moved in with her, you made me a promise…do you remember?” 


“I remember.”

“Tell me the truth…have you fallen in love with her?” 

Donghae paused a few seconds before he answered,

“I…no.” 

Suzy felt tears welled up in her eyes, Donghae’s hesitation  indicate he was unsure about his feelings. She tried to hide her jealousy, she tried to keep a smile on her face whenever Donghae had to take Taeyeon to the hospital but everything was becoming too much for her. 

“Donghae…why did you change your mind about the baby?” Suzy asked concern about her place in Donghae's heart. If he somehow fell in love with Taeyeon, and now wants to raise his daughter…where does that leave her? Suzy has always been first since the day she was born…she knew she was being arrogant and selfish, but she refused to take second place even when it comes to his daughter. 

“I saw her ultrasound pictures today.