"With Ki..Kim? Di ko pa po alam. Pero let's see po. Sana mabigyan kahit for short period of time lang"

I've been watching his interview for three times now and I can still feel the ache in my heart everytime I see him speak. He looks more matured now since he wears eyeglasses now. I shudder at the thought that we would have a project. It would impossible for us not to be seen together even for just a dance production in ASAP because I know for sure that every Kimerald fans out there would request it so much. Am I really ready to face him? I know deep in my heart that no one else has replace Gerald in my heart. As much as I try to divert my feelings for him, I know that it would always come back to Gerald.

"Get a hold of yourself, Kim" I said to myself. "It's your fault. You let him go. Now deal with the consequences. "

My phone beeped and there was a text message.

Xian: "Hey, Kim. Sleep tight. Maaga pa tayo tomorrow. Goodnight. :)"

This has been Xian's way of showing his affection for me but I know that he knows what my heart really longs for. He has been so respectful and a good friend for many years now. But that's it. I let myself try to fall in love with him but I really only consider him as a good friend and family even though he said that he would wait because maybe someday, my heart would open to someone in which I think would be impossible. Even after all the hurt I endured by being with Gerald, there is nothing more heavenly by being by his side too. No one else can make me feel when I am with Gerald. He brings out the real me and makes me a better person. I'm almost 29 years old now and everyone says that I should think about marriage already.So I think my life would end up with me being a maiden for life or with Gerald by my side.

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"Ge? Are you there?"

"I'm right here, Kim. I would always be here."

"I can't see you, Ge." I started to cry now

"I will never leave your side, Kimmy. I will always love you." 

And right there I see him. He slowly walked towards me and kissed my forehead. He too is crying now. 

"Kimmy, ayaw ko ng makitang umiiyak ka. Okay? Happy tears na lang diba?" He said as he wipe the the tears that were falling.

"Sorry, Ge. Sorry for pushing you away. I'm sorry if I didn't fight for us...for you" 

"Shhh. It's alright now, Kimmy. What matters most is now and that I wouldbe right here for you all the time now." he said as he trap me in his arms and whisper in my ears.  

"Don't ever go again." I said as I look up to him.

"Never." he smiled and kissed my forehead.

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"Kim! Wake up na!" I can hear Ate Haidz voice getting louder.

"Kimmy, you're late na for ASAP rehearsals. 9am ang call time. I thought ready ka na. It's 8:20 na oh."

I quickly got up and said, "Hala! Sorry sorry!"

"Oh Kim, were you crying?"

"Po? Hindi po." I said as I fake a yawn. "Diba ganun naman humihikab. Nateteary eyed" I laughed at my own excuse.

"Sige na. Maligo ka na. Bilis! Nakahanda na lahat ng gamit sa baba."

"Okay po. Ligo na ko."

I went to the shower and thought of the dream I had. The dreams I had these past few days were all about Gerald. Is this a sign?

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"Ge. Let's go na. Malalate ka na." Ate Nhila said.

"Opo. Eto na po. Gwapo pa rin ba?" I said as I posed like a model.

"Baliw ka pa rin talaga, Ge. Kung alam ko lang, kinakabahan ka lang e." Ate Nhila replied while laughing.

"Ate Nhila talaga, syempre ngayon may chance na makita ko ulet siya. After ilang years makikita ko ulet yung babaeng pinakamamahal ko." I replied seriously.

Ate Nhila knows everything that had happened between me and Kim. She is not just a handler for me but also a close friend so I also tell her everything. She has been updating me about the happenings in Kim's life over the past few years. Also, while I was in the States, it was also her who includes me in shows there whenever an artist would perform there. 

"Oo na, Ge. Sorry. Basta bilis bilisan mo yang moves mo Anderson. Ang tagal na ng hinintay niyong dalawa. Gusto ko pang maabutan magiging baby mo ha." she joked.

"Kasal muna, Ate Nhila." 

"Ohsiya, tara na! Makipagkita ka na sa bride to be mo." she said as we enter the van and go to my ASAP rehearsal.