When Bom was finally back on track with Seunghyun not leaving her side I told Dara about my little conversion with Donghae which made her look for him even more «
"Can you come with me ? After what happened to Bom I'm a little afraid "
I nodded with a soft smile and we left to find him with the other council member. Dara introduced us and from left to right it was Seungri, Hyeri and actually Chaerin's little brother Chanhyuk. As instructed I pretended not to know the connection and watched Dara ask Donghae if he wanted to dance. I can't say what was on is mind when he agreed but I know how Dara felt. She probably wanted to do one of her victory dance but kept inside and acted all composed as if it was no big deal. I talked a little bit to the others noticing some similarly between is brother and Chaerin's expression and since Dara hadn't been turned down I went for my own challenge.

 I didn't know how to talk to him but I definitely couldn't go and grab him at is table so I texted him to meet me close to the emergency exit door. I stopped to take something to drink for real because I would have probably died from dehydration at this rate. I took my coke and went to the spot to wait for him. He came a few minutes later as I was finishing my drink. I didn't say much and went in the emergency staircase where it was almost soundproof. Kibum used it to have private talk every time he got a call from one of is conquest when we were hanging out here. I sat down on the stair as he went in and closed the door. 

We didn't talked at first and didn't even looked at each other until we both tried to stop the awkward silence at the same time. That made him smile and somehow relaxed me a little so I started it 
"We need to end this 
He looked at me all serious 
- I agree
 After that an other silence probably because we didn't wanted this to end the same way. I was calmer that the list time I talked to him so I explained why exactly I was mad while leaving out the fact that I had feelings for him 
 - I was hurt. I know you, I know that you don't do this kind of things on purpose but it actually made it worse. I felt as if I was the only one valuing our friendship 
 He looked at me with really sad eyes, I could tell from here that he felt sorry but I needed to know for what exactly 
- I ... I'm just sorry. I know I've told you that a lot but this is really the case, and it's probably the first time I feel so bad about something. I never looked down on our friendship, on the opposite I always tough that it was meant to be forever so I never made any effort. When you left, I didn't get it at first and by the time I understood how much I missed you I felt as if it wad too late, that I missed something 
 - Then why are you doing this right now. Do you really think that we can go back to the way we were ? Do you really need this right now when you have friends and even a girlfriend? 
He squat to be at my level and looked right in my pupils 
- I didn't knew how much I missed you, us, until I saw you ... I know I'm an idiot. But I realized that no matter who my friends are, that I have a girlfriend or not ... nobody can replace you, it as to be you 
 As he took my hands I was just utterly lost. I came here to tell him that this need to stop but hearing him tell me all the things I always wanted to hear from him made me so confused
 I don't know if I want this
It came out honestly and I saw that my hesitation hurt him but he didn't said anything about it 
- I will do my best and pay you back all the time you were here for me, I just want us to be together no matter what  !  The mood was absolutely dead serious until he took me by surprise 
- Please, Minzy-ah, forgive this idiotic guy 
As he told me that on a childish tone he was doing something weird with is eyes  while putting is arms on the top of is head to make a heart and then cursed himself silently a second later. I wanted to laugh really but I was so chocked that nothing came out 
- What are you trying to do here He was so embarrassed and somehow cute like this that when he told me that he was trying out aegyo I finally leach out a laugh. I couldn't stop even if he told me to because it was my first time witnessing the stoic Kai go that far 
- You are such a child I don't even know how I managed to get mad at you . You are so hopeless
He raised is head like a lemurs making me go on a second row of laugh to the point I was almost crying 
- So you forgive me ? We are friend again? 
I calmed down and sighted to examine the situation. I wanted to still be mad at him but the truth was that seeing him made so much effort made it really difficult for me. No matter what there is also the fact that I still love him 
- Fine I will stop being mad at you" 
 He smiled so brightly that I suddenly felt shy, having him on is knees in front of me while I was dressed like this. Our eyes met and I felt a shiver down my spin as if we had a moment but I can't let myself be the girl who's looking for proo