“Can we talk ?
- I have to...
- It won't take too much of your time
I really wanted to say no, but at the same time I knew I needed this
- Shall we go somewhere else, less exposed
- Sure”
I followed him without a word but inside me the panic keep growing. I was so afraid of whatever he would say, so afraid that it would hurt me. But I couldn't keep the hide and seek thing forever since he apparently wanted to settle things down. I think I did pretty well for one week of school considering that I run into him every fricking day. Now that I think about it, karma really is a , because she keeps putting in front of me the only person I'm scared of. I breath like I had run a marathon, so during the time we took to the cafe shop not so far from school, I tried to focus on my breathing. It was pretty quiet at this time of the day, only a few person who were focused on the tv showing the results of the day. It as been 10 minutes that we didn't say a word to each other so when he ordered the sound of is voice surprised me “I'm gonna take a coke, and you ?
- The same
When the waitress was leaving giving her most alluring smile to him I was trying to put myself together so I could at least talk back like a normal person
- So what was it you needed to talk with me ?
- You don't know ?
He looked at me the same way he did yesterday morning, I couldn't read what was on his mind.
- I don't
I lied but hey, I don't have to be honest every time
- Are you avoiding me ?
YES!
- No.
- So why don't you talk to me
- I am here, and what I'm doing is called talking if I'm not crazy
- Yes but I had to drag you here almost against your will by the look on your face
What face ? I try to stay stoic since the beginning of this
- And you also told me that it won't take to much time, so get to the point
- Alright, I want to know what's wrong between us
You want to know what's wrong, I'm in love with you and you're not. The world doesn't turn right !
- Why do you even care, you're not short on friend aren't you ?
- I don't understand how we became like this
I start to feel the anger growing up in me, and as our order came with the cunning waitress with her high pitch voice my blood pressure got up
- And it took you 3 years to ask the question
Don't look at me with this sorry eyes, I'm not buying it
- I wanted to call, several time but I taught you were angry with me and I didn't know what to say 
- Like you ever had an hard time telling me things
- It was the first time you were angry with me, really angry and I didn't knew why. I asked Joon and Yoseob but they didn't knew either
I remember when they called me to know if there was something wrong, I didn't told them of course, I couldn't tell anyone but you. And you're the only one who didn't call even if I kept the same number just in case you would have remember me.
-You had my birthdays, new years, christmas even easter or halloween to think about it. You could have said to yourself it's already been one month, six month, a year or two but no. If you really wanted to know you would have called, even if you were afraid, even if I might turn you down. You would have really tried because it would have been worth it. Since you didn't and you're probably only doing this because, unluckily for you I had to come back, just be reassured that we can pretend like we don't know each other at all !
It was all inside me waiting to come out. I didn't  wanted to be so emotional but I couldn't control it.
- Minzy …
You where the first to call me like that
- Don't. You were right we needed to talk to make it official. We are nothing to each other. You can take back this thirteen years and just make it like nothing happened"
I couldn't let him answer, it was already hard enough to say out loud that all this years of friendship and love on my account was for nothing. Yes it was overdramatic and as I left the place I felt a pressure on my chest because it was hard for me to breath. I walked without even watching where I was going.

I almost bumped in someone while I tried to control my eyes