I'm still wondering how you could hurt me like this.

I was hurting when you left, and I'm still hurting now.

What did I do to deserve something like this?!

I tried to move on. I dated, even to the point of getting serious.

Still, it's your eyes, your smile. Everything I think about is you!

I told myself that you are a part of my past. That you will never get back in my life again.

But this stupid heart of mine, beats only for you.

I've tried so hard. I've gotten myself into a relationship, but still.

You are the only one in my heart.

Would I ever find the courage to set my heart free from your memories?

Would I fulfill my promise to myself that I won't ever forgive you?

I sound so selfish, yet I want to prove to myself that after you left, I can stand on my own.

When you come back, I will act as if nothing happened between us.

As if, my heart never belonged to you. I never belonged to you.

If you come back and I felt nothing for you anymore, would I be able to see...

a glimpse of heaven?

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sorry for another short chapter.

this will be a story, i promise. keke

i am trying to write the 1st four chapters in each of the character's point of view.

i hope you like this style. keke