Yuri POV

I was watching TV for past few hours. But I can’t even tell the name of show because I wasn’t actually watching.

Yes you were not doing anything for past week Yuri. But you can’t go on like that. Forget Yuri-ah. It’s over.

But she was coming back for me and for us. She said she will.

I know, but she already decided to leave you in few months. It’s just that she decided to do it early.

But she said she love me. How can she do that to me after she said she loves me looking straight in to my eyes and after all the things we did together?

“shhh Yuri, It’s ok.. We are here, ok. Please don’t cry anymore” I felt someone hug me and rocked me back and forth. It must be Yoona. I can identify her voice. But I felt nothing. It wasn’t the same. It doesn’t have the same warmth I get whenever she hugged me.

“Unni I think we should take her somewhere. Can’t you talk to manager Oppa and cancel her schedule?”

Yoona asked.

“I’ll talk to Manager Oppa. You just take care of her” It’s Taeyeon’s voice.

 I know I shouldn’t bother them. They were upset about this too. Every member cries whenever we mention her. We pretend to laugh and try to act like nothing happened. But inside all our 8 members are crying and pray for her to comeback. After our performances and when we come to dorm, it’s feels empty and our every conversation leads to her name. Even it’s about food “Sica doesn’t like cucumber. So don’t order that”, or when we talk about early practices “What method we use to wake up Sica”. It’s hard not to mention her name when we practically lived almost 24/7 together. So someone would always forget that she isn’t here anymore and mention her name. Then we end up crying.

For me it’s so hard. Because we were best friends since the day we become SNSD. Sometimes I feel like it’s more than that. But we are not dating like sones think. Still I think that we can’t live without seeing each other for few days. At least we call or send text message. Even there are other members we always hang out with each other. It’s just a relationship that can’t put in to words. People say she had a cold personality before. But for me it’s not like that. Although she acted like that, I knew the reason for her behavior. She came from US and it was hard for her to get use to our culture and language. Also she couldn’t understand some words so it takes her a while to answer. So she prefers not to talk unless someone talked to her directly.  But I knew that she likes to listen to us and she really is a caring person. She helped me with singing and listen to my problems.  Another reason is her personality. She is more silent and shy when she is with people she doesn’t know. But that changes 100% when she was with us or her family. Then she was dorky than me. So you can imagine right?

“Come on Unni. Let’s go to bed” She took my hand and talked to our room. I and Sica used to be roommates. I can’t even sleep for 3 days after that incident. Because every time I went to that room I remember the moments we laugh and talked in that room. So after that I slept in the couch or in another member’s room.

I don’t know when Yoona left but suddenly I heard another voice near my ear.

“Yuri-ah, I know it’s hard to forget. I am sad too. But we both knew it would happen sooner or later, right? And we are always with you. You know she is your best friend. She won’t leave you like that. Also she isn’t gone forever. You can always talk and meet”

I didn’t know when Sooyoung came back. But when I heard her voice I knew she was trying her hard not to cry too. I looked at her face and saw her eyes filled with tears, but she smiled at me.

“We won’t let her go that easily. She is family. No matter what happen we won’t forget or leave our family. That was our promise. Remember?” She asked. When Sooyoung smile like that it gives the feeling of comfort. But still I couldn’t talk yet. So I nodded my head.

“Good. Now go to sleep and we will talk tomorrow, ok?” she caressed my head and kissed me on cheek.

“Good night yuri-ah”