❝City of love; 
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2 and a half years later

Jinri

It's a surprised that 2 years has passed and Taemin didn't even come back home for 2 years , i've been waiting for him It makes me thought that he's enjoying his life in England, probably having a new best friend there. Mom told me few days after Taemin left that his parents are also will be leaving to England for a while and they'll move to Paris and back to England before coming back here. 

Whilst he's studying in England , i'm just here stuck here in this town , trying to enjoy my summer break. University is so hard , i got nobody though there's just few girls that i can talk to , i don't think there's no one that can replace Taemin as my best friend. obviously these friends are just friends in univeristy and not outside the school . they're nothing like Taemin.. 

I still can't forget about what happened that night , it makes me feel like i shouldn't trust anybody , any guys to be exact. i feel so scared to even talk to them even there's some of the guys trying to talk to me. i can't trust any guys except Taemin. i feel so scared that they might use me like how Alex did years ago. 

I tried to move on and find a guy in my life , but i can't and i don't know why i can't be with someone when i really need it in my life , i'm lonely , i have no one in my life , i don't blame Taemin for leaving me , i don't want to be so selfish about it but honestly , i won't be like this if he didn't leave. i felt bad for mom and dad , i tried to be their best daughter , i tried . but seems like i can't give much attention in my class and end up having an average score for my exams. 

I asked myself why and i still can't find the answer . I have the necklace with me and the bracelet he gave me , it makes me feel .. close to him. i've realised myself throughout these years , i think i'm in love with Taemin. That's the reason why i can't move on because my feelings are holding onto him. they want him and only him. we can't be together because i've seen him , the way he's with me , he only look at me as his best friend , the best friend that he love as a friend and not more than that. i can't put my hopes up too high even though i wanted him to be mine. 

I've realised that i can't live without him , i freaked out sometimes when i don't have the bracelet and the necklace with me. Thankfully i didn't forget about them because i'm in Paris right now for a little self escape from the cruel city . I met Alex once again before and i couldn't believe how arrogant he was. he's with Sophie which didn't really surprise me, they just used us and i felt stupid about it. So i decided to go for a vacation alone . 

The first day in Paris was quite intense , i can't speak french and it's hard to tell them where i was heading to and where am i staying . it was hard but came the day two and it gets much easier , enjoying myself in the city of love . Being in the city of love without love is probably useless . yeah , useless and i don't know why i picked Paris out of all the countries in this world. 

It seems like , Paris is the one . Paris will accompany me , make me smile and feel the love from this city. I just have that feelings that maybe i'll get something that i always wanted for so long whilst i'm here in Paris. It might be true but it might not , i don't know what's the future holds for me , but i hope it's just simply beautiful that can make me smile once again. 

I see the eiffel tower right before me and i couldn't say how much i love seeing all these architectures , the greenery around the tower is just amazing. I see couples from around the world taking pictures together , kissing in front of the eiffle tower before taking a quick snap of their beautiful photo. 

I take a sit on the green grass , having the great view of the tower in front of me . i couldn't say much about how beautiful it is. I take out my polaroid camera and take a snap of the tower . a sly smile creep on my face after i take it. taking out my journey book out and paste it on . 

"perfect" 

I take out my current favourite story book and i think it's a nice time to relax un