Chapter one.

“ I’m struggling to fight my love for you, but it never works.”

Miyoung POV

I can’t take it anymore. My feeling is killing me inside. All this love – nonsense feelings is driving me crazy. Missing him, wanting him – it’s weird and beyond my imagination. I just wish this feeling could go away.

I squeezed my eyes shut and buried my face inside my hand. I could felt my body switching from cold to hot and otherwise. I felt sick.

“Miyoung-ah, are you okay?” Jessica, one of my classmates, asked.

I slowly looked up and smiled a little. She looked at me worriedly, while I wore this sick smile. I always hated myself, my coward self.

“Miyoung-ah, did your stomach hurt again? I don’t want to be here all alone again..”  Seohyun, my best friend, said.

“I won’t go home. Just having a mind crisis,” I said.

“About him again?” Seohyun whispered.

I looked through her eyes and nodded slowly. I have no choice besides heaving a sigh. My love, my one-sided love.

I breathed out and buried my head inside my hand again.

“Just.. let me rest for a while..” I said and drifted to sleep.

“Miyoung-ah, can we go to the cafeteria? I’m thirsty,” Seohyun pouted.

I nodded and took my phone with me. I always felt this anxious whenever I got out from my class. Yes, the worst scenario ever, meeting him.

“Mrs. Lee keep blabbering stories.. not lesson.” I said, trying to ease my anxiousness.

“Yeah, and I just stared at her like, ‘What is the point of all these?’, seriously.” Seohyun rolled her eyes.

I laughed and my eyes flitted towards the clas, his class. I slowly stepped forward, afraid that he suddenly appeared.

Both Seohyun and I walked in silence.

“Yah, Luhan! Get back here!!”

My heart suddenly beat faster, I’m afraid Seohyun could hear it. I wanted to walk away, but I can’t.