Before you start reading this chapter… make sure you have read my last chapter.

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HONGBIN POV

Here goes…

“Just remember you promised to stay” I looked at her one last time before my words started forming

“The day after… don’t leave me okay” I whispered slowly

“Hongbin just start already if it’s that bad I’ll be the judge of it” she said not wanting for the truth to be prolonged

I glanced at her through the corner of my eyes… her eyes were like jigsaw puzzles. She was confused, scared. I knew what she feared… I’m afraid of it too. I’m afraid that after she hears the truth... she won’t stay… she’ll break that promise. She’ll leave because I’ve done the most terrible thing I could have ever done… and my actions… were they worth it? Were my actions worth possibly losing _______? DEFINITELY NOT. But I have to tell her the truth… even if it means losing the person I love…forever…

I breathed in and out once again. Her hand still wrapped around mine fiddled with my fingers as she gave me time to think.

“The day after the truth came out… you know about Hyuk and you.”

“That was ages ago… but Hyuk and I… that wasn’t supposed to happen remember” she said frantically, making sure we both understood that situation

I gave a small smile in her direction at her willingness to forget Hyuk and her ever existed.

“I know. I know. Don’t worry I forgave you for that and I understand you now” my voice drifted off “that’s why I hope you can understand me when I say the next thing”

She nodded slightly and gave me her full attention.

“I was so angry, upset and confused after that happened. I became drunk and lost my mind. Maya was by my side for most of that time… she… uhm… we spent the night and…”

“no… Hongbin..NO…PLEASE DON’T TELL ME” She wrenched her hand from mine and stood up.

She wasn’t just angry. She was disappointed and I could see the tears fall to the floor as the puzzles in her eyes formed a picture.

“________ -ah please sit down. Remember you promised.” I tried to be as calm as I could but that did not work in my favour.

YOUR POV

“How can you act so calm? Like you didn’t do anything bad? Like you didn’t just break my heart?” Tears just kept falling from my eyes

I don’t know if I was sad, angry, disappointed… I just now I was completely torn.

Hongbin kept quiet as he tried to take hold of my hand and sit me back down

“AND you keep saying that I promised… but how can I keep that promise knowing that you slept with the girl?” I couldn’t take it anymore I wanted to run to my room

“________-ah please” He took hold of my hand just as I reached my bedroom door.

Our eyes met and I could see his vulnerable face. Even though he had gotten me to stop, he said nothing.

I wasn’t as angry anymore but I was definitely still sad and heart broken.

“Tell me this…” I whispered slowly “was she your first?”

“yeah” he said slowly as he let go of my hand and I went into my room closing the door. I slumped against the door as I heard Hongbin say

”… and I wasted it on someone I didn’t love at the time”

As I heard Hongbin leave for his own room. I stood up brushed the dirt from my pants and looked into the mirror. I looked horrible. Tear stained face, hair draped across my face and well if you feel horrible you just start to look horrible…

I looked towards a photo of Hongbin and myself. It was the photo we took after choosing our wedding cake. The day I knew for sure… I was in love with the man.

I shared a small smile with myself remembering that day but I couldn’t just stand here remembering the past. I took a small suitcase from my closet and started packing some clothes.

I needed some time away… some time just completely out of the house. I finished packing and went outside my room. It took me by surprise as Hongbin hurriedly opened his door at the sound of mine opening. His eyes quickly went from my face to the suitcase.

“Where are you going?” he asked worriedly “I thought... I thought you promised you’d stay”

It was silent for a moment. He was being genuinely worried that I was going to leave him but I couldn’t let it seem that I would go weak at the knees without him.

“look…” I replied slowly as his eyes met mine “I’m going to stay at my parent’s house for now”

“What will your parents say when they find out we aren’t living the sappy happy life they thought it would be?” He was just finding something desperate to say as he took hold of my suitcase “please don’t go”

“Hongbin. My parents will know… it just wasn’t meant to be”

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OKAY!! So... how'd you like this double update? I hope I have made it up to you... Hopefully. Thank you for all your support and comments. There is still more to come with this story but I will definitely make sure to update you when the story is coming to an end.

By the way does anyone have any good stories to read? ...

ONCE AGAIN I am so sorry that I didn't update after two months or more... I'm terrible I know 

Thanks... any constructive criticism is welcome!