17.01.2012

                “oppa, let’s go somewhere”, i said when i was with Junho oppa at the practice room left all alone just the two of us. “where?”, He asked me and turned his gaze towards me. I looked at somewhere else as i could still feel his eyes on me. “Let’s go to the park that you show me last time”, i answered him. He suddenly stand up and grabbed my hand and pulled it so i stand beside him while our hand still held each other hands.

Soon, we sat at the bench where we sat before at the park, my hand still on his. I was sit there with Junho oppa but my mind has gone think about Hoya. Yes, i still think about him. I always saw the flashback when i met him for the first time until how he suddenly forgot about me everynight in my sleep. It wasn’t what i want, obviously. “why are you daydreaming?”, Junho oppa shook my body while asked me that made me stop thinking about Hoya, maybe for a while. “i don’t. I just have something to think”, i answered him and he nodded not pushing me to give him the exact answer, one of many reason why i like him. “You know what?”, he suddenly asked that made me turn my head and looked at his eyes. We looked at each other eyes for a few minutes until he said, “Listen to me, and don’t said anything until i finish, understand?”, i answered him with a simple nod. “You know how much i love dancing and i really couldn’t live with it. I really love it until i did what i could did for me to keep dancing. I treasure everything in my life for dancing, because dancing is what i wanna do in my life”, he explained everything so beautifully and i smiled at him and listen to everything that he was gonna say. “so were you...  i did what i could did to protect you, to make you smile and to make you happy. I treasure everything on you. and you were what i want to have in my life. Do you know why is that?”, he looked directly in my e