28.05.2012

                There was a week left until SISTAR debut. SISTAR already gave our best for the best performance we could give later on our debut. So were 2PM, they did their best to teach SISTAR and lead us to the right path. Everything going on like i wanted it to be except one thing. Could i say that i love Junho oppa when i always think about Hoya everyday and night? Yes, i do love Junho oppa, that was what the others  said to me, how about my own thought? I didn’t know either.

                I sat on practice room, as i could see Junho oppa dancing with everything he had. He smiled at me between the dance which made my heart ached. He was too kind for me. i just felt that i didn’t deserve him for just a bit. He always said that he love me when i always hesitate about my heart. He did everything to protect me when i just stayed not doing anything for him. What did i do for him? Nothing.

                “yah.. why did you zoned out?”, Taecyeon oppa woke me up from daydreaming. I looked at him and then shrugged while said, “i’m not”. I moved my gaze to Junho oppa that already finished dancing, and Taecyeon oppa followed my gaze. I sighed when i think about that again. “he love you so much. Don’t break his heart”, taecyeon oppa said and left me.

                I was sat on the rooftop after practice with Bora. She rested her head on my shoulder and i put my hand on her waist. I actually realized that her behaviour was really weird since morning. I’d like to know about it so i asked her to came with me first to talk. I caressed her hair when suddenly i felt my clothes become wet, i looked at Bora that cried silently. I wiped her tears and then she looked at me. “oppa can we talk later? I really wanna go home”, she said. “sure, i drove you home”, i answered her. “no, i just gonna take a walk, please?”, she insisted. And i agreed with her and soon she left.

                Actually she was become really weird since the day i saw her kiss scene with Hoya. It was still hurt me when i remember about it. The look on her face when Hoya kiss her was different. There was something more than just fans-idol relationship, i was sure about it. I really wanted to angry at her for letting another guy kiss her, but i couldn’t, because i should angry at myself because i couldn’t protect my girl from another guy.

                I walked on the sidewalk