11.06.2012

Bora’s POV

                I came out from JYPEnt building and tried to hold back my tears. I walked as fast as I could towards manager oppa’s car. I smiled to him, the fake one. my heart crashed into uncountable pieces and it hurts deep down inside myself. Manager oppa looked at me curiously and said, “are you ok? You look so pale”. “I’m fine”, I answered him with a lie ofcourse, what kind of person would be just fine after broke up a few minutes ago. Or maybe some people could but not me. I maybe hid these tears, this hurt feeling well enough. “I just about to call you but since you already here, let’s get going. I forgot that tonight sistar will have practice for special stage with infinite”, I heard manager oppa say something and I just stared at him not knowing what to do or neither what to say. Manager oppa who seems so clueless about my feelings just drove off and headed toward the place where we were going to practice.

                As soon as I arrived at the practice room. I saw everyone already there, talked to each other. Then I thought about what just happened again, I took a look at their smiling face one by one. I shouldn’t broke they mood just because what happened to me, should i? I heaved a sigh and pretended that I was absolutely fine. And I just hoped that I am. “annyeong!”, I said cheerfully and everyone looked at me, planted a very beautiful smile in each of their faces. How I wish I could give them a smile that truly reflected what I feel inside. “since bora already come let’s start our practice”, said sunggyu oppa. We did our routine for a few hours and for a moment I could forgot the problem inside myself and just moved to the music. I was wondering how dance have become part of me, like I couldn’t live with it and I smiled now was a truly smile as I realized what have bring me and junho oppa the way we used to be. It was all just because dance. How junho oppa and I shared a same interest in dance. How junho oppa spent a lot of time to teach me how to dance back then when I was still trainee. How I feel so impressed by the way Junho oppa moved his body. Just because of dance, everything between as could change. My mind stopped wondering around when sunggyu oppa told us to rest first. I sat with my back on the wall, I straighten my feet, still panting. So do they. “what should we do now?”, soyou unnie asked. “resting, why did you ask?”, woohyun answered her with amusement. I was always think that they will mak