29.06.12 Hoya’s POV It has been two days since I found the letter from Hana. And since then I really couldn’t see her everywhere. Even her apartment was empty. Inside of myself I knew that I missed her, a lot. I missed those times that we’ve spent together. It was fun, nothing to fear, nothing to cry for. Not like these days cry was like a thing that we need to do every time. When I saw Hana in hospital the day the accident happened. i didn’t dare myself to look at her eyes for a long time because from that I could see her sorrow. She wasn’t the kind who would cry in front of so many people or may be she hated it but I knew that she held it in, she wanted to cry but she didn’t want people to think that she was weak. When of course she was not weak at all. I always admired her. In a really young age she lost both her mother and her father. Both of them died in an accident and she live with her aunt after that. Her aunt was not very nice, I thought. But she always loved her aunt the way she loved her parent. After all she was strong, hid her tears behind all those cold-faces. Today I decided to see Bora. Even though may be I couldn’t, at least I tried. As soon as I arrived at the hospital. I could see from a small window at the door, that Junho was sitting beside Bora’s bed. His hands held Bora’s hand tightly as if he didn’t want to lose her. neither did i. I saw Bora still lied on the bed helplessly. Her face was pale and from what I heard from Dasom last night Bora still haven’t awake yet. I wonder what would I do if I could see a smile from Bora again someday. The day when she woke up. And yet I am afraid of what Bora would say. We all knew that Junho and I loved Bora, and surely Bora needed to choose. I would accept whatever the choice she would made. Because just from her smile I could feel myself smiling. That was what I need, to saw her smile beautifully. I opened the door to Bora’s room and Junho stood up as soon as he saw me. Below his eyes were dark, he perhaps the most tired between all of us. He was the one who always beside Bora, watched her in her sleep and hoped that Bora would wake up soon and be alright again. He walked towards me with a smile on his face and said, “do you want to talk to Bora first?”. “If you don’t mind”, I answered. He patted my shoulder and smiled again, “ I don’t. beside I need to do something first”. I nodded, and he left the room. Now only me and Bora in the room, Junho told me to talk to Bora first when of course I couldn’t. I sat at the chair next to the bed. I looked at her face for a really long time, nothing happened. nothing that could probably make everyone happy. I rest my head on the bed in a position so I still could see her face. A moment later I could feel Bora’s body shaking and heard some voices that came out from her lips, it was not really clear so I didn’t understand what she was saying. “Junho”, i was not sure but it was what I heard from her. Her head kept on shaking as if she was looking for someone. And in the matter of second, she opened her eyes and looked at me. She woke up with a smile with on her a face. “should I call doctor?”, I asked at her and she shook her head. “oh should I call Junho then? He was there before..”, I continued but she cut me off and said, “he always be there”. “there? What do you mean?” I said clearly don’t get what was she talking about. “no nothing”, she answered and smiled. “so how long I’ve been pass out?” “three days”, I told her. “Ah.. you know while I slept I have had a nice dream. I saw you and Hana were happy. You look at Hana like she means a lot to you, you hold her as if you don’t want to lose her. I would be happy if you and Hana could become a couple again. And I bet you will be happy too”, I listened to everything she said carefully. “I..” “you love Hana and You still do. Can’t you see it?”, she finished. Did I still love Hana? I hadn’t know the answer yet. Bora’s POV The thing that I told Hoya was the truth. I dreamt about that. How Hana and Hoya looked really happy together. They loved each other a lot, I might guess. Perhaps that was what they felt to each other now. I didn’t know what would I do if Hoya really loved Hana. I didn’t know about my own feeling to Hoya. Should I feel sad or Happy about that? I just wanted both of them to find their own happiness. Probably I would find mine soon. I remembered Hoya told me that he loved me, but then his love for Hana was not entirely gone just because she left him. I guessed he was still in love with her, he was just deny it. He didn’t want to feel hurt like the first time Hana left him. He didn’t want to believe what his heart was saying. While he was struggle to forget his feeling for Hana that was when I showed up in front of him. That was why he turned his attention to me and tried to forget Hana. May be it worked for awhile, he tried to forget Hana, he could forget Hana. But then Hana came back for Hoya, for the sake of love that she had lost before. I would do what I could do for both of them to be happy again even if