Kana POV

I'm sorry Hoya-sshi...I'm so sorry. I wish I could remember everything. I would go right back to you if I didn't already belong to someone else...I can't just leave Sunggyu. He's taken such good care of me, and we've been together for about four months he said. I...don't know what to do...

I love you

My cheeks got hot at those words. He loves me...but I don't love him. I'm only attracted to him. I like him...a lot. But...I think...I'm falling in love with Sunggyu. 

If I had someone else to talk to, to help me out a little...maybe this would be easier. Maybe I wouldn't be going through all this. But who could I talk to? I'm not close to anyone else besides Sunggyu. I don't recall having any other friends and if I did, well, no one's contacted me...

Ugh, what am I supposed to do?! Am I supposed to choose between the two? I couldn't do that. Sunggyu's my boyfriend who I've been dating for a long while now and Hoya...I've barely known him a day! Well...two days counting that one day I don't remember...

But...Hoya is just the sweetest thing. And he is by all means better looking than Sunggyu...not to be mean, but Sunggyu is like a baby hamster compared to Hoya. Well, Hoya isn't really a hamster though...he's more like a--wait a minute! That's not my point! 

The point is: it's impossible to choose between the two of them and I don't know what to do or who to talk to about this. Initiate panic mode. 

While in my crazed mindset, I sleeplessly got up from the couch and started making breakfast for everyone. One by one the infinite guys came out from their bedrooms and sat down at the table waiting hungrily for the food to be finished. As I served out the food, I noticed Sunggyu and Hoya were both not at the table. 

A small sigh escaped my lips, but I pushed the thought to the side. As the others and I ate, I couldn't help but get lost in my thoughts; comparing and contrasting the two guys who have been fighting over my heart. I was so lost in my thoughts, I didn't even notice my chopsticks slip from my fingers and clank onto the plate.

I only slipped out of my thoughts when I heard a voice calling out to me. "Kana noona~ Kana noona!" Sungjong said. My eyes widened and I looked out to see the others staring at me with concern written all over their faces. 

"U-Uh yes? What is it, Sungjong-sshi?" I asked. "Uh, are you alright? You don't really seem...all there," he replied. Crap. He noticed. "Uh, y-yes I'm fine. Quite alright! Just, uh, thinking about what to do today! Yeah. And um, what I should eat for...dinner," I lamely said. I got looks of utter disbelief and suspicion but no one questioned it. We all just continued eating and I breathed a small sigh of relief.

After, I volunteered to clean the dirty dishes just so I could have some more quiet time to myself to think. While washing a plate, a person sneakily came and gave me a back hug. His arms wrapped securely around my waist and he rested his chin on my shoulder. My heart rate sped up and I could feel the heat in my cheeks. 

"Kana-sshi~ breakfast was delicious. I forgot to thank you so I thought I would thank you right now. Is that okay with you?" he said. I turned my head to the right and was greeted with Woohyun's smiling face. I quickly escaped his grasp and ran to the furthest corner in the room. He just chuckled at me as if this was normal. 

"Yah! You don't just go and hug a girl from behind when she has a boyfr--.....when she's with someone," I exclaimed. He looked at me amused and replied, "Sorry Kana-sshi. I just got a little excited that such a pretty girl like you was all alone and figured you needed some company."

My cheeks were probably so red after his compliment. I'm not used to those. I told him, "S-Still. It's wrong. And I'm fine. I don't really need company. I'd actually prefer to be alone right now..." "I honestly think that's a lie. After your weird behavior during breakfast, I'd say something is on your mind. Something you need some consulting with," he said. 

I heaved a sigh and contemplated whether to tell him or not. I mean, these are his best buddies and I don't want him to feel burdened... As if reading my mind, he said, "I know you're probably thinking that you're trying to be nice because you don't want me to feel burdened, but I'll feel even worse knowing you're going through some trouble all by yourself." 

He took a couple of steps towards me and continued, "And seeing how you're going through this trouble by yourself right now means you haven't talked to Sunggyu hyung yet or you don't want to talk to him about it meaning that it has to do with him. I'm probably the best person to help you if your problem includes him because I probably know him best." 

He walked all the way up to me and gently held my face on his palm. "Kana-sshi, I think of you as a sister if you're with one of my friends. And as my sister, I have every rght to know what's going on so I can protect you. Plus, I'm also your friend now. You can tell me anything." He smiled and I slowly smiled back. 

I told him everything. And I do mean everything. From the moment I woke up from the hospital to now, I told him all the things that were confusing me and all my troubles. We had moved to a living room area and were comfortably talking over some tea I made. I was glad he was there to just listen and be the friend I've needed all this time. 

A friend...why hasn't anyone contact me or anything all this time? Not even my family...I can barely make out silhouettes of their bodies, but I have no idea what they look like... Tears started forming in my eyes at the thought of not being able to remember my past. My life, my family, my friends, I've lost it all because I wanted to forget something.I'm disgusted with myself for being so selfish. 

I hand rested on top of mine and I looked up to see Woohyun giving me a caring smile telling me it was okay to cry right now. He hugged me and soothed me while I just cried and told him my thoughts just now. I felt him stiffen, but didn't bother to question it. 

All of a sudden, a voice said, "What the hell is going on here?" I looked up with my teary eyes to see Sunggyu holding onto his head. He looked furious but once we locked eyes, he softened up and looked at me with concern.

Woohyun explained, "We were just having a friendly chat, something she desperately needed. I'm like her new girlfriend since she doesn't have any other girl friends. We're now officially bffls. Best friends for life you know. So we were having a girl chat." I laughed and shook my head at his rediculousness and Sunggyu raised his eyebrow in amusement. 

I went up to hug Sunggyu and playfully told him, "Don't worry. I wouldn't dream of cheating on you with Woohyun." Woohyun pouted and said, "Heyyy. That's not cool. I'm totally cheat-worthy." We all laughed but in the back of my mind I couldn't help but feel awful knowing that Woohyun and I both really meant by my statement. 

I wouldn't dream of cheating on you with Woohyun even though I kind of already am with Hoya. Thanks to my "girl chat" with Woohyun, I now have a confidential friend. No, I have a friend, which is all I could ask for right now.

Sunggyu POV

I woke up with my head hurting insanely. The pain was pounding mercilessly so I had to have my hand on it to slightly ease the pain. I slowly dragged myself to the bathroom to wash up a bit. I looked in the mirror and saw a really crappy-looking me staring back at me. I groaned and dragged myself into the shower. 

I felt a little bit better after I cleaned myself up, but the pain was still eminent. I lazily half-dressed myself, not bothering to look amazing and what-not, and walked out toward the kitchen. However, on my way, I saw Woohyun and Kana hugging. I was furious. Why the hell are they hugging? Why is Woohyun with my girl?

"What the hell is going on here?" I asked in my calmest voice possible. Kana looked at me with her eyes filled with tears and I immediately felt all traces of anger disappear. Instead, concern replaced my anger. Woohyun gave that extremely rediculous and stupid explanation, but I believed him. 

"Don't worry. I wouldn't dream of cheating on you with Woohyun," said Kana. For some reason, that statement irked me. Hoya came up in my mind and the thought of Hoya and Kana together again made me feel angry again. However, I didn't show it and just laughed at Woohyun's remark. 

Kana then told me she wanted to go home and I agreed to take her. I gathered everyone together so that they could all say their goodbyes. 

"Aww bye Kana-sshi! It was cool hanging out with you yesterday! Hope you feel better now! Take care of yourself so you don't keep fainting, alright?" said Dongwoo. 

"Bye girrrrl. Haha, it was nice having our girl chat and just so you know, I'm always here for you, okay? I'll be your best girl friend if you'll be my best guy friend? Haha. You already have my number from earlier, right? *wink*" said Woohyun. 

"It was nice meeting you Kana-sshi! You're really cool, you know? Who knew you had such talents! And although I'm not your 'best girl friend,' I hope we can become good friends!" said Sungyeol. 

"It was nice to meet you Kana-sshi. I have to admit your photography skills are pretty good. Maybe we can hold a photo shoot together? I'll be looking forward to it," said Myungsoo. 

"Bye noona! If you don't want Woohyun to be your best girl friend, I will gladly be! Hint hint. I'll see you soon, right?" said Sungjong.

I realized Hoya wasn't there. I looked at her to see if she wanted to say bye to him, but she showed no signs of whether she did or not. I guess I really didn't have to worry about her and Hoya getting back together as a possibility. I figured there was no harm in letting her walk to his room to find him by herself. 

I watched her figure walk to his room, away from me, and there was no harm in that. None at all.

Hoya POV

I fell asleep peacefully after my interaction with Kana. I ignored Dongwoo who tried waking me up for breakfast and continued sleeping, dreaming of Kana and me on a date. We were blissfully holding hands and walking around talking at the beach. She was showing me her full smile and laugh just for me. We kept teasing and playing with each other. And right when we were about to kiss, I felt someone shaking me gently. 

"Hoya-sshi~ Wake up~ Hoya-sshi~" said the voice. It was so soft and sweet, I smiled in my sleep. After being shaken a little more, I slowly opened my eyes to see a blurry figure hovering over me. When my eyes adjusted, I saw Kana giving me a sweet smile and said, "Good morning Mr. Sleepyhead." 

I smiled and adjusted myself, replying, "Well I wouldn't mind waking up to seeing your face everyday and greeting me in the morning." She blushed and I sat up chuckling. I put my hand on top of her head and said, "You're so easy to embarrass. It's cute." She puffed up her cheeks and I pinched them, saying, "You're so cute, you know?" I just chuckled as she became even redder than before.

"A-Anyway! I-I came here because I wanted to tell you that I'm leaving now. I'm going home to escape from your greasy grasp," she said playfully.

I raised my eyebrow and said, "Greasy, eh? You want to see greasy? Alright, I'll give you greasy. Did you know that I was blind before I met you and your beauty opened my eyes to see again? You are my other half and I feel empty without you. Every day without you leaves a hole in my heart, but my love for you fills those holes because our love is everlasting. And I'll always love you, you who is so beautiful and cute and talented at practically everything. I love that sparkle in your eye when you're doing something you love and--" "Okay you grease ball! Oh my gosh..." 

She was fanning her red face and I couldn't help but laugh at her attempt to not be smiling. I pulled her into a hug and whispered into her ear, "I'm going to miss you. Do you have to leave? Can't you just spend your day with me?" I pulled away and pouted at her, batting my eyes playfully. 

She giggled but only shook her head. "Sorry Hoya-sshi. I really need to go back home. My kitty needs to be fed and taken care of. Plus I miss her..." she stated cutely. Play pretending to be hurt, I said, "Oh. I see. Your kitty is more important than spending time with me. I'm losing you to a cat..." We both laughed and when the laughter died down, I wrapped her in a hug again. 

"Call me or text when you get home so I know you're safe, okay? I don't want to hear it from Sunggyu hyung when he gets back, but from you, okay? And tell your cat all about me." She giggled but nodded her head. I took her phone and input my number so she could reach me. I took a picture of me kissing her cheek and saved it as my picture contact. 

I kissed her and we just kissed for a minute before she had to leave. She left and I felt content. However, I had this strange feeling that something bad was bound to happen soon. I shrugged it off and just got ready to go for a run to clear my mind.

Today would be a good day.

Kana POV 

I said my goodbyes to everyone and headed over to Hoya's room. I was surprised Sunggyu was just so cool about letting me go by myself. Honestly, when he asked me if I wanted to go say bye, I didn't know if I did or not. I didn't know what would be best because I'm honestly still confused about what to do. 

When I got to his room, I wasn't expecting him to be sleeping. He always looks so cute when he's asleep. I almost didn't want to wake him up. However, when he finally woke up, he was even cuter than when he was asleep. I have to admit, just-waking-up Hoya is incredibly hot with his husky voice and everything. It's basically like: go ahead and flutter butterflies in my stomach, just go ahead. 

After spending my last moments with Hoya, I left feeling light and happy. I arrived at my apartment and hugged Sunggyu goodbye. I got in, texted Hoya that I was home safe, fed my cat like I said I had to, and washed myself up. After I was all clean--showered, teeth brushed and flossed, and hair dried--I layed down on my bed and instantly fell asleep. 

Today was a good day so far. But all good things must always come to an end. 

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New Year's update! Yaaaaay! Happy New Year! With a new year means new beginnings. What will be in store for my characters? Stay tuned to find out! Thank you for reading my story. I appreciate it so much. Really. :D and thank you for commenting and subscribing! Although, I would appreciate more subscribers and comments, if you get what I'm saying hint hint. ;D 

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