Chapter 8

I unlocked our dorm and peep inside;

“Cost clear” I whisper to Bom as I made my way in my apartment,

Bom hugged me and tell me to just give her a call whenever I need her, I nod and assure her I am okay;

After she left, I changed into my shorts and loose t-shirt;

Hell cares about fashion right now; I just want to be comfortable;

I turn my bedroom knob and lay on my bed thinking;

Ahh, I am glad the rest eventually understand the message that I need time to think things through;

Especially the dragon, my heart pricked at the thoughts of the mms I received from an unknown number and the next thing I knew, baby min showed me the newspaper and websites.

I trusted that idiot dragon to handle papa yg side, I am not going to back him up for his mistakes; and it just doesn’t make sense why would he and the trainee have the guts to kiss right at public?

Who am I to him?

What does it mean when he was the one telling me that we should keep our relationship a secret for now as literally he doesn’t want his fans to come bashing after me and it would obviously affect 2ne1’s reputations?

Does he really mean it when he claims for the sake of my safety and my group’s reputations?

Men; it is so complicated with creatures namely men;

Why would I want to be involved in relationship when I had seen how painful and complicated it could be from Bom?

I am such an idiot to believe his sweet promises!

I am such an idiot to think he is different from the rest!

Pabo, Lee Chaerin!

My gaze turned blurry, I felt hot tears flowing down.

Once again, my tears betrayed my fierce and tough image I had been trying to pull

I slapped away the stupid picture frames; stupid dragon!

Glass shattered cutting my palm but I feel better at least!

I went to my dressing table and slapped all the picture frames;

For once I feel good for letting out my depress side;

For once the blood that drips no longer make me feels the piercing pain of my heart;

For once I enjoy seeing the dripping of blood from my both palms;

KWON JIYONG! YOU TAUGHT ME ONE VALUEBLE LESSON!

NEVER TRUST MEN AND THEIR WORDS!

THANK YOU! I WILL ALWAYS REMEMBER!

Now, I truly understand why heartbreak are the worst than any pain in this world!

The pain I hate to much to be in my heart!

GET IT OFF FROM ME!

STOP MAKING MY HEART PAIN!!!!!