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There is always this little miss that made my day; I enjoy doing the extra mile to see her 1001 expressions;

She would be shock and after lending a kiss on my cheek after then she would roll her eyes in annoyance and then start going on and on that I am stalking her and disturbing her girls especially Chaerin regarding her personal preferences;

There was this one time when she slipped during their interview;

“Park Bom shii so how was being engaged to one of our most sought after bachelor? You are so lucky” the female mc drooled;

“Nah, that little devil is just irritates me” Minzy nudged her and soon after that pabo realize;

“Little devil irritates? Omo, what does it mean Park Bom shii? Are you always having argument with him?” by then the female mc practically glare and threw accusing look;

“Ani, we always wanted to be the alien couples that why I would call him little devil while he would call me bomtaro; We never argue before as we believe we are mature adults and would discussed about our issues thoroughly in calm mode” that pabo smile and soon earn the supports from our fans;

Aish; Only a pabo like her would do that in interviews;

Only a pabo like her would find her so-call-irritating little devil whenever she is feeling down or craving for midnight snacks;

According to her it was to not trouble her girls after having a hard day of practice;

Tonight we were going down over to airport after her performance;

Soon to be mummy and daddy and her side of families are expecting us the next day;

“Sorry to keep you waiting tabii” she pinches my cheeks playfully as she rushes in the van;

“Well, how about a punishment then?”

“Alright, what is it?”

“A kiss as usual?” I chuckled;

The van began to move driving us towards airport;

She was about to lean in for a kiss at usual spot, I became daring at some point by turning my face and captures her lips right there;

“Ya..h..” she stunned and was cut off;

I took this opportunity to enter my tongue into hers, feeling her tongue and teeth;

I am crazy for doing this but as I was debating over, soon I felt her arms wrap around my neck and our tongue were dancing in rhythm; our own rhythm; I place my arm around her waist pulling her to fill in distance between us;

One word; complete; at this moment;

“Mmm..tabii..” she pulls away catching her breath and avoid meeting my eyes;

! Guilt sip over in my brain now that I no longer act according to my heart;

“Tabi, please don’t break my heart anymore; It is plain torture for me to conceal the stupid fact that I am falling for you each and every day; I know I am being stupid for taking all these acts too seriously indulging with my feelings now; mianhae it is a pure torture and what you just did simply hurts me more! I am sorry Tabi but please stop sending wrong signals to me”

I close my eyes the entire time I blabber out the truth; he would just hurt me more by sending these entire wrong signals to me!

To hell is it I tried my best to pull a poker face each time I were to face him; my stupid heart just keeps falling deeper and pumping furiously for any skin contacts that he did even a simple hug, stupid devil! Acting mean to him and reminding my brain each and every time whenever he surprises me! Lately his actions real do send me wrong meaning!

Chanting “He is just acting, he is just fulfilling his responsibilities” each time loud in my brain to perfectly pull a poker face for his actions, I am afraid, I am falling for him!

Chaerin and the rest are just unable to see through that he is acting; why?

And now with the intimate kiss aish, can it be more pure torture now??

“Bom, are you listening to me?!” I glare at him for nudging my side;

“What? Are you done teasing me for loving you?” I play with my fingers afraid to listen to each words he will utters saying how silly of me and this was just all an act and he is NOT in love with me, or to be dramatic, I was just trying to be a good friend by pretending to be your husband type of speech;

“Bom, let’s stop our pretending game shall we?!” he wipe my tears gazing into my eyes;

This is when literally I hear my heart cracks and shattered bits by bits;

I was not prepared for this much cruel words by him; not being able to see him this often with this close range anymore;

I am not able to even receive his PRETEND ACT of the perfect-husband-to-be anymore;

“Seung Hyun..” for once I am lost for words, afraid my tears would betray me even more,

“We’re here let’s move it the plane takes off soon” ahjussi wind down the mirror;

Great, what to do now? Tired of the intense emotional ride plus the stupid constant brain wrecking of words and stupid matter that is all happening, I let him drag my hand across the boarding hall;

Looking at his hand intertwine with mine, this is the last time I would be able to feel his huge and warm palm against mine;

I slump my body against the soft seat looking outside avoiding his gaze; 

There is no way I could face him without hearing the sound of my heart cracks; I, was no longer the old naive Park Bom yet as if god were playing games with me, I would get hurt by the one I love the most in unexpected ways and place;

3 ing years taught me not to appear weak and built a strong wall to never let people see me a weak pathectic human being crashed tonight with his each words, Let's stop our pretending game;

He seem so near yet so far away from my no longer beating heart;

Knocking myself over and over on the small windown pace wouldn't stop throbbing pain in my chest, 

I scratched my hands angrily!!