Chapter 14

Pabo, can’t you see I am always by your side?

Why are you still shedding tears for someone that left you at the aisle?

Why are you still upset after years passed?

I her hair carefully not wanting to wake her up;

I am shock and having hard time to digest the fact that he left her in such state,

Seung Hyun couldn’t exactly interpret his feelings right now; He wasn’t expecting to experience a pained in his chest upon seeing her shedding tears and pouring her stories out to him; He wasn’t sure why would his heart winced in pain each time he sees her shedding tears and sobbing while blurting everything out; Each time whenever he gulp his saliva unsure of what to say to her;

Should he comfort her when he himself feel like he was in verge of tears seeing her so weak? Up till now he used to think that he enjoy teasing her for her unpredictable expressions and actions amused him, he finds her cute and funny most of the time as a close friend; probably.

Most of all, he finds her having the tough image ladylike with her fierce and temper especially when someone pissed her off; her BOMTARO mood will turn on; he knew better than to mess up with her seriously;

Hyung, what the heck happen to both you and Ji Yong? Why aren’t you guys home?

He stared at the message unsure of what to reply to Seung Ri;

He knows very well that maknae would never stop being noisy and start questioning A to Z of details;

He clicks the off button to avoid maknae from disrupting with his nonsense busybody stunt;

“No..!” her sudden exclaimed cause him to drop his cell abruptly;

He wraps his arms around her pulling her into his arms to stop her from sobbing and wailing, it breaks his heart.

“Shh..I am here nobody would hurt you” I cooed her as I her hair gently;

  “Ta..bi..he will be..back..”

“Let him be. You have me to protect you; Look, I will be your shield from that damn bastard!”

Seung Hyun mumbles softly controlling his anger at the thoughts of that bastard;

“ all the that he might possibly use to harm you; you have me the devil which you fondly nickname me” He force a smile and cup her face;

What the hell now CHOI SEUNG HYUN, you just going to make yourself look like a duck with the loud pounding heart?

“Thanks Choi Tabi!” she smiled and lean forward landing a kiss on my cheeks;

“Speaking of which, whatever happens to Chaerin and Ji Yong? Any idea? I couldn’t get him through”

I changed the topic due to I couldn’t afford to let my heart continue pounding like crazy it might end with two possibilities; she would notice the sound and  joke about it which would last a lifetime I swear; or my heart would just drop out of too much pounding;

 “!” she muttered and disappears into her bedroom;

Chaerin grumble angrily reaching for the buzzing phone; her hands move about for the phone.

Ji Yong grabs the cell and made his way out of the bedroom;

“Roo!! Where are you?” I winced as the loud voice bombarded at the end of the line

After spending some time to explain to noona that Chaerin is still asleep and assuring her that I wouldn’t do anything to hurt my baby right from the beginning and it is just a misunderstanding created from the trainee, I plop on the sofa and sigh.

What a good start of the day, I decided to continue sleeping, being lazy too walk back in I sprawled myself on the sofa and asleep, I awake at 4 in the morning with baby wincing in pain, panicked I sat on the floor checking her thoroughly,

I chuckled at her cramp ankles and I carried and place her on the bed. We talked and shared lots random stuff, important stuff, our feelings and thoughts while I massage her ankles. Somehow, baby fall asleep while half way sharing the girl’s joke the other day at studio while practicing.

I am glad we work thing out, literally I never know that I am capable of falling in love after getting major heartbreak of rejection from my first love, I am blind enough to never realize that Chaerin is the one that cheers me up whenever I sulked remembering of my first love, KiKo. She never fails to talk sense into me when I was going through depressing period; she was the one that would be honest and pulls me back into reality with her advices and nagging at times.

KiKo might made my heart beats faster than usual, and send butterflies in my stomach each time when we dated however the period of being with her we seldom talk about our feelings or have the urge to experiences other stuff.

 KiKo was the kind that wants 101% attention each time and maintain the elite class each time, there were times I was caught between choose to hang out with her or with my boys.

Well, let’s just say she had the habits to inform me last minute of any one of her elite gatherings or fashion runways that she would sulked and angry if I didn’t turn up.

I must be so blind to put up with KiKo every demand and even got into fight once with the boys when she accuses Top Hyung of touching her with inappropriate stare. Yes, KiKo is dramatic and sensitive at times probably due to her upbringing;

Chaerin was the one that is totally different; She stood by I was being accused of plagiarizing when KiKo my girlfriend at that time left me with the reason that I should stop pretending to be a music genius if I wasn’t and I am bringing her shame;

Chaerin went with me to each and every of my trial giving encouragement words at the end of each hearings until when the court decided upon verdict I am proven INNOCENT!

She opens up my world and thoughts;

“Oppa, love is blind, stop blaming yourself for being a regretting of how dumb you are now”

She is the one and only one that speaks straight from her point of view honestly, that is why I find myself fell for her;

She taught me to open up my feelings whether it would be unhappy or happy as she always quote;

“Oppa, I might as well register you at mental hospital if you continue bottle up your feelings in your heart! Stop acting cool and macho when you are not okay;”

She taught me that dates are not only consist of showering your partner with price tag;

“Yongie, why are you splurging into freaking expensive gifts all the time? Worst, it gets more expensive each time; pabo! I am not price tag collector!”

For the first time in past weeks I am capable to sleep with ease, no longer the wincing pain or nightmare of my baby leaving me;