Woohyun's diary entry before he told Sunggyu:

Ok, I’m straight. I swear to god I’m straight. I don’t find any guys attractive in that sense. But I think possibly I have a thing for my best friend but I’m not sure. And it worries me because if I do what the hell do I do??? I mean I can’t tell him! I’ve felt very strong affection for him for a while but nothing hinting towards more than friendship. Over the break I spent A LOT of time with him and I swear we got a lot closer. And I started telling him I loved him but I meant like all friends do; platonically. But slowly I’ve been having different reactions to things and I only just noticed over the last 2 weeks and it’s worrying me. I mean I felt like I wanted to protect him over the break because he's finding being leader hard sometimes. And I got into the habit of hugging him alot and telling him I loved him. A few weeks ago I stayed at his place and he started to cry and I hugged him while he cried and  then we just sat there and I had my arm around his waist and I felt really happy like that even though I knew that technically it was weird. 

I don’t know what I feel but I sometimes feel so acutely aware of his presence that it’s like there’s a freaking electric current and all I want to do is hold his hand or cuddle him. And I’ve contemplated kissing him. Once I thought about doing it, and we were just sitting talking and all of Infinite were there but I seriously contemplated it. And I always want to be around him and I want him to know everything. And I love his laugh and smile. And I always text him about pointless things. I sent him about 13 texts today. Over an hour ish. The other night we talked until after 11pm even though, of course, we were going to see each other the next day and I felt so happy. And I get a funny feeling in my tummy when he says “I love you” or “I love you too” even though I know he means it as friends. And I feel happiest and most comfortable around him. And even when I’m sitting withother members of Infinite I look to see where he is and sometimes I’m loud just to try and get his attention even though I’m not sitting with him. And I always try and sit as close to him as possible. I even try and stand as close to him as possible. And the other day he hugged Dongwoo and I felt annoyed because I thought he should’ve hugged me. Which is just stupid.

I don’t understand anymore.  I mean I know I love him but I don’t know in what sense any more. And what do I do if it’s romantic? He’ll never like me that way, that’s just stupid. I told Dongwoo  that I thought maybe I had feelings for my best friend and he assured me it wasn’t weird and that there was no one better to fall for seeing as he understands me and we get along etc. But I don’t see how it’s that simple. It is weird. I’m not homophobic at all but I’m not comfortable with it being me. I just don’t get how I feel. I just don’t understand anymore. I just don’t know what to do. The worst bit is I agonise over it and then wish he was there to hug me and tell me it’s all going to be ok. Because that totally ing works. Screw it.