Entangled Feelings
Acrimony (Bitterness)TIFFANY'S POV
The door open and as expected, Drunk Taeyeon.
"you're late" i said and she rolled her eyes "what is this some kind of school?"
"where have you been? Last night you said you'll be home before dark and now? Look at the time Tae.. It's pass midnight, you sa- -"
"SHUT UP, i'm tired and i don't need anymore of you blabbering" she said and i walk up to her "i'm not mad Tae, i just need to know where were you.." "Tiffany... I said, shut.. The up!"
It's not the first time she talk like this to me, it's been a while she become this person, i miss the old her, the one i fell in love with
"Tae.." i put my hand on her shoulder but i guess it's a wrong thing to do when i feel a slap landed on my left cheek
She slapped me. Hard. My cheek burns in pain but what's more painful is knowing the person who slapped you is the person who once made you feel safe.
"Fany.." she said but i ignore her and run to the bedroom to cry on my pillow
The door slowly open and Taeyeon walk in, she sit next to me "Fany.. Baby i'm sorry, i didn't know why i did what i did.. I'm sorry ok?" she hold my hand and wipe the tears from my face
Once again, like i expected.. I nodded and fall in her warm embrace "i promise, it's the last time.. We'll have dinner tomorrow ok?" she said, i know... I know it's just another lie but somehow i wish it's true so i nodded once again
"i love you Tae" i said. She smile and put me down on the pillow "get some sleep"
"Tae.. I love you" i just need to hear those 3 words from her, but again.. She just smile.
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SEOHYUN'S POV
"Yoona yah! You ok? What's the emergency?" i rush in her bedroom and see her wardrobe is all messed up. "Seohyunaah! You're finally here!! I don't know what to wear, i have a date with Donghae oppa tonight" she said and i sigh in relief knowing that she's ok
She texted me earlier, she said she need me to come to her house ASAP and use our emergency code '911'
"thank god you're ok! I thought there's something wrong" i said and she run to me "i'm not ok!! I don't know what to wear!! It's our anniversary dinner and i don't know what to wear" she said and lean her head on my shoulder, i lift her face and give a pat on her head "i'll help you ok? Don't worry" she smile and give a peck on my cheek "you're the best"
Every touch, every movement she makes, every kiss... Give me goosebump, it's not how i should react. She's my friend right? She's my bestfriend. Im Yoona. But why do i feel... More?
"Seohyunaah! Don't just stand there, come here" i give a smile and walk to her
She's changing inside the bathroom and walk out in a short red dress with her long hair flowing down her every movements
She put her hand on her hips "is this ok?" she ask. I look at her from top to toe, there's no floss in her... She's perfect "it's perfect" i said and she smile, she look at herself in the mirror and open her phone "oh oppa is here" she walk to me and give me a hug "i don't know what to do without you, thanks Seohyunah"
I hug her tight, i like hugging her, i like being by her side, i want to be with her
"you can wait for me here and we can have a sleepover later tonight, i should go now ok? Love youu!" she said and kiss my cheek
She walk out her room and i sit on her bed "love you too Im Yoona" i sigh and walk to the window to see her leaving, i see her walking towards Donghae who's waiting for her she run to him and fall in his embrace. Her face looks happy, she kiss his lips and they both get in the car and drive away.
They're happy, she's happy... But i'm not. Why? I'm not jealous right? She's my bestfriend and she's happy with her boyfriend. I should be happy too... But somehow... I can't.
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TIFFANY'S POV
I open my eyes and see Taeyeon still peacefully asleep beside me, she use to hug me in her sleep but now she always sleep facing the other side and her back is facing me. I crawl slowly to her and give a peck on her lips "i hope it's not just another lie Tae... See you tonight, ok?" i walk to the bathroom and get ready for work.
I usually just put on light make up but this few weeks i've been putting a little more make up because i know who's gonna be there, Kwon Yuri. It's not that i like her or something but it's just.. Everytime i'm with her i feel.. I don't know, Happy.
From this past weeks, work is feel better than home. Work feels like home. Home feels like.... Nothing.
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YURI'S POV
"hey"
"you're late. My shift has ended and it will start again in 3 hours" she said and i raise my shoulder, "i'm late? So you're expecting me?" i ask and she rolled her eyes, "i'm kinda busy now, i have to go to the underwater section and feed the sharks"
"WHAT?! You're feeding the sharks?? Isn't that dangerous?? No no you can't THAT'S CRAZY!!" i yell but she laugh "yah.. Tiffany.. Why are you laughing?? That's not funny" she put her hand on my shoulder "i was just joking Yuri" she laugh "that's not funny!!"
"I'm going to feed the dolphins, you can come if you want" she said and i smirk to her "do you want me to?" she rolled her eyes and about to walk away but i grab her wrist "ok ok i'm sorry"
"so, you're coming?" she ask and i nodded "yes Tiffany, i would love to feed te dolphins with you" she smile and i walk following her while i still holding her wrist
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TAEYEON'S POV
I walk out the house around 3pm, Tiffany's still at work and she won't be home until 6. I got a job but i'm thinking about quitting my job, my parents are rich, why do i need to work my off for something i already have?
"Taeng!" a familiar voice called me and i turn around, a petite blonde girl run towards me and jump to my hug "hey princess" i hug her and give a peck on her lips, "so... What do you want to do today?" i ask and she raise her shoulders "i'm not in a mood for anything, why don't we just stay in your house? Isn't it time for me to finally see your castle?" she smile but i don't think it's the right time for her to come, Tiffany's stuff are still in there. "umm why don't we stay at your house?" i ask and she sigh "ok but promise me, we will go to your house" "i promise Sica.. We will, just not today ok?" i kiss her forehead we walk together with my arm wrap around her
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YURI'S POV
"is it ok if i come in?" i ask and we enter through the staff door, "it's fine, my boss is actually my friend" she smile and lead me to the changing room, "can you swim?" i chuckled and smirk to her "i can do any sports, including private sports.. If you know what i mean?" she rolled her eyes and hand me a diving suit "i do know what you mean but i'm not gonna talk about that. put this on and meet me outside" she said
I put on the diving suit, thank god i am actually proud of my curvy body so i think i look good in a diving suit, i look at myself in the mirror and smirk, kwon yuri.. You still got your game.
I walk out the changing room and see Tiffany in a black diving suit with a small pink stripes, she look flawless her long hair falls perfectly and her eyes shine as bright as the sun, i swear.
"it looks good on you" she said and i nodded "i know" she rolled her eyes and i walk to her, "so are we gonna dive now?" i ask, "mm.. Here" she hand me a bucket and it must be the dolphin's food, i open it and see lots of small fishes and squids, i give a disgust looks and hear a giggle coming out "let's go" she said
We both dive and become a show for some visitors, there are 5 dolphins in the tank and all of them are friendly and trained. I'm wearing an oxygen and diving goggles but Tiffany didn't, she said she got a license and she's allowed to swim in a way she wants. She showed me underwater tricks and how to play with the dolphins, i never felt this happy to be in the water, we're holding hands and swim around with Dolphins until it's time to feed them. I'm feeding 2 dolphins and i look to my right i see Tiffany swimming with 1 dolphin. She's not wearing any equipment, her eyes are open in the water and her hair flows with the water as she swim, her face is beautiful, it's amazing, it's.. Perfect. She's so beautiful and seeing her like this makes me want to be with her more than anything.
I'm looking at her without realizing that the bucket i'm holding is empty and the dolphin bite my hand, it hurts a little and i swim out the water. I take off my oxygen and goggles and see that my fingers are bleeding. A couple seconds later Tiffany comes out from the water to breath some air, she get out the tank and walk to me "you ok?" she ask and before i answer she notice my hand "ohmygod you're bleeding!! Ohmy let me take the first aid kit ok?" "hey hey i'm fine, it's not as bad as it looks" i said and yes i'm saying the truth because it doesn't hurt that much. "still.. I'm responsible for this" she said
Tiffany's done with her shift for today and we're walking out the zoo together, "thanks for staying today, i gotta admit.. Work has never been this fun" Tiffany said, i glance to her and smile "i'm having a great time" i said
We're walking and the sun is setting, the wind blow softly, she shivers and rub her shoulders "you cold?" she smile and say "a little, it's because my hair is still wet and the wind is blowing so.." i take off my jacket and wrap it around her shoulder "here, you'll be warmer" she look down and smile "thanks Yuri" we arrive at the bus stop and her bus is arrive "it's my bus.. Thanks again for today" she said and give her hand for me to shake, i ignore her hand and lean closer to hug her "thanks to you"
I pull away and pat her head "becareful on your way back" she smile and nodded.
She stop before entering the bus and look at me "Yuri.. We're friends right?" she ask and i smile to her "see you" i said and walk away. Friends? I'm sorry i can't answer that Fany... I want to be more, but i know you still can't accept me.. So i'll wait.
"See you" she answer and walk away. I'm sorry i had to ask that Yuri, i just don't want you to think i'm giving you hope because i don't think i can.. My heart belongs to Taeyeon and Taeyeon only. I will wait for her because i know she will be herself again. I walk in and sit at the back chair in the bus, i fix my hair and i realize i'm still wearing Yuri's jacket. I look out the bus but i can't find her. I sigh and touch the jacket i'm wearing. I'm sorry Yuri... I wish i can just move on and be with you but.. I can't
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SEOHYUN'S POV
"oh Seohyunah.. You're still here?" Yoona walk in her room and yes i'm still here waiting for her, "i have nothing to do at home anyway" i said and she take off her shoes "so how's the date?" i ask and she jump to the bed and sit beside me "PERFECTT!! Ahh it was sooo romantic, there were candles and flowers and music and moonlight.." she said and hug her pillow, "really? I'm glad it went well" i said and she pull out something from her dress, it's a silver thing around her neck "pretty huh?" she said and i see a half heart symbol necklace. I nodded and look at her "gift from him?" she nodded "why only half heart?" i ask and i see her blushing "well.. He wear the other one, if we combine it.. It become one heart" she said and i see her face turns red "it's... Couple necklace? You and him have couple item?" she nodded "we've been dating for 7 months i think it's time for this kind of stuff for us right?" she ask
They wearing couple items now? What else after this? Sleep over at each other's house? Making out? Have ? Oh god.. No... I can't imagine Yoona and him having ... Not him... Not anyone but me.
"right?" she ask and blur out my mind "right.. It's nice, i'm happy for you" i said and she smile "you should be, you're my bestfriend right? When you're happy.. I'm happy and when i'm happy.. You're happy" she said and i nodded "ofcourse"
I thought falling in love with you is going to be the best thing for me, falling in love with my bestfriend but i guess i was wrong.. Your love for him is too much, you can't even realize i'm here.. Loving you too.
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TIFFANY'S POV
I just took a shower and prepared for my dinner with Taeyeon, i put on a dress and make up try to look as good as i can, i look at the clock and it's almost 8, it's ok.. I got time, she won't bail on her promise.... She won't. She won't.. Won't she?
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TAEYEON'S POV
I caress her thigh and we're still making out on her bed, i'm on top of her and she's laying on her bed, i kiss her lips, her neck, and lower to her chest. Her shirt is open, she's wearing a black lacy bra that makes her look as y as hell. I kiss the top of her chest and hear her moan "Taeng.. Lower" she said. I know what's in her mind, this making out is turning to a something more. I stop kissing her and move away a little, i kiss her lips and then her forehead. "not now Sica" i said and she sigh, she pull away from me and rest on the other side of the bed beside me, "why? That's what you said everynight. Everytime we almost reach that part you said not now. If not now, when Taeng?" she ask and i caress her hair "i promise the time will come.. Just not now" "that's not what you said the first time we did it in the bar" she said and i chuckled, i glance at the clock and it's almost midnight "you need to sleep princess" she pout and rest her head on my lap "i will sleep if you stay" she said and i kiss her forehead "i will stay until you fall asleep ok? Now sleep"
I don't even know what's stoping me from doing it with Jessica, she's my drugs and i need her, i'm addicted to her. That first time we did it was amazing was.... Perfect, it was everything i need and what i want but... I'm still not sure. I don't know why... Is it Tiffany?
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TIFFANY'S POV
"you're late" i said and she rolled her eyes "stop it, you know how busy i am and don't treat me like you're my mom. There's no curfew for me here" she said and i walk up to her and hold her hands "you promised Tae... Why is every promises end up becoming another lie?" i said and she push my hands away "i'm not in a mood for this" "for what?! Talk?! When is the last time we talked Tae?? Talk to me!! Tell me what i need to do!!" i yell and she push me and pin me on the wall, her hand are tight on my wrist and pinning me on the wall "Tae..." "Talk? You want to talk?? You want me to ask you what to do?? I want you to SHUT UP!! And stop acting like you're my ing family because YOU'RE NOT" she yell and tear streaming down my face
She pull away and walk in the bedroom, she slam the door and i fall on the floor and cry
Tae... When will you stop being like this? Why can't you see that i just want to be with the old you... Did i do something wrong?
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