9 July, 9.43pm

Dear Diary,

I feel like killing myself now. Somehow, the school found out I had cancer. I don’t believe that my friend had told everyone, she wasn’t that kind of person. But then… how did they find out?

I feel so hopeless now. Everywhere I go, I got weird stares, or get teased by people. They ask me, “When are you going bald?” or say mean things like “Stay away from me, I don’t want cancer.”

Seriously? Cancer isn’t even contagious! Are they too retarded to understand that? It’s not my fault I have cancer! It’s not like I wanted it! Why can’t they ever understand!? It’s unfair, it’s so unfair!

Even the teachers have been treating me differently. They ask if I need extra time to complete homework. In the middle of class, they ask if I’m okay. Some of them even look at me like I’m an alien! If adults look at cancer patients like that, it’s no wonder the students in the school will act like this!

Why is the world so unfair? Whether or not I have cancer, I’m still a human! I’m human like everyone else! So why were they treating me differently? Does having cancer make me a different kind of living thing!?

I wish cancer would just take me now. Just… don’t let me wait for 5 more months. Just kill me now. It’s not like my life’s getting any better anyway. Soohyun hasn’t contacted me for almost one week now. Maybe he found out about my sickness. Maybe he’s avoiding me. I know it’s stupid to think of Soohyun oppa like this, but I can’t help it. It seems like the only possibility.

I want him to be by my side now… I miss him so much. Oppa, where are you…?

Love,

Me

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Author's Note

I know i said more Soohyun will appear but... haha omg i'm so, so sorry ><

This time, for real, he WILL appear in the next chapter though, so i'm really sorry guys D:

And i really love your comments btw. I'm sorry if the fanfic is too sad QuQ