Listen to this while reading please because i think it will give more effect hehe. 

Its  nice song aswell. 

Messed up; if you had to describe your situation in life that would be the right thing to say. L.joe and you cannot be yet he wants to be with you. He’s about to marry Yuri the girl you hate the most and Zico kissed you last week all of a sudden that got you even more confused with your feelings.

You just didn’t get what you should do. Give up on life? Did the kiss really mean something to Zico or is it just fake; just a show. Sighing you raked your fingers through your hair and you tried to concentrate on your homework. This is not the time for love life problems it’s the time to study.

It was just so hard for you not to think about it and carry on with your homework but your mom came in with a red envelope in her hand. Smiling she set it on the table and wiggled her eye brows at you.

“It’s your ex masters wedding invitation, wear something nice,” Your mom probably didn’t even know how much your heart was breaking then at that time. It was hard to conceal that sad expressionless face yet you forcefully did.

“Uh- yeah,” clearing your throat you pretending as if going back to your work facing the book that was set out on your desk. “Umma you should go rest I need to finish my work,” Chuckling she nodded her head.

“I got it honey, just don’t tire yourself okay?”

“Yeah, okay,” Biting your lips you made sure your mom had no chance to look at your face as she left. As the door closed you lifted your head up feeling wetness on your palm. You hated this feeling out of everything that has ever happened to you.

And most of all you hated crying like this; for reasons such as, L.joe.

your chapped lips you bowled your hand into a fist “I will go to that wedding and make sure sure that it will be the last day; last time I will ever love you.”

Yes, that was it on that day you will make sure to leave all of your memories with L.joe behind no matter how hard or painful it is. That was going to happen, that is that.

“There are 4 more days until the wedding.” Who knew that the wedding would happen so quickly and the invitation would also be given out late. You were just so shocked that you felt as if you wouldn’t be able to build enough strength to eve