We were all tired from all our individual schedules… sica and I are alone in the dorm and usually this the time we both talk about anything... we may tease or annoy each other most of the time but sica and I are more than that… we held each others pain, well most of it is my pain,keke

“so how was the date?” she started…

“you know it’s not a date…how I wish it was”  I said in a flat tone…

“what about yours? Did it go well?” I asked her back

“ya! I haven’t able to get back on you about that!” she said hitting my lap

“do you still have to?” I asked her and she shook her head and smiled

“thanks yuri-ah!” she said and I just smiled

“so what happen to your date?” she asked again

“again,its NOT a date sica” I said giving a stress on the word ‘not’

“whatever! So how did it go?” she wouldn’t stop unless I tell the whole story so I told her what happened…

“jinja?! What if he recognized the both of you? You should’ve been more careful” she scolded me

“he didn’t so don’t over react about it” I said and she hit me again

“so… when will you ‘TREAT’ her again” she asked me with a bit of teasing

“I don’t know… I shouldn’t done that in the first place anyways” I told her

“eh? What do you mean?” she asked me confused

“its just… we’re getting closer” I reasoned out

“don’t you want that?” she questioned me

“it’s not that I don’t want it… I just want to be more distant to her..but… its just hard…” It’s really hard to explain that I don’t even know what to say… she taps my shoulder knowing im taking a hard time explaning.

“its okay yul, I understand” she said…we’ve been silent for a moment then she started again…

She asked me “Why don’t you confess?”

“And ruin everything? No thanks!” I said

“So you’re planning to keep it forever huh?”

“As long as I can” but I don’t know how long,it’s such a torture

“How long are you going to make yourself suffer while you can just free yourself by telling her”

Tears in me started to fall then I felt a tight hug,just what as I needed “You know I hate it seeing you like that!”

“im loosing her in both ways,tell her or not,still nothing will happen,but worst if I tell her,she might think that im taking advantage of what we have and loose her forever”

“hmm.What if im the one to tell her?” this makes me broke the hug and hold her on her shoulders

“Do that and you’ll leave forever with cucumbers around you!!” I threaten her

‘’yah! Im just kidding you know!do you really want me to die?!” her face! Keke!  How can someone be so f’cking afraid of a CUCUMBER?aiish this girl!

I just chuckled and there I received a punch… back from being serious…

“seriously yul, why don’t you just confess?” she asked again

“do I have to repeat it all over again?” I said staring at her

“fine, im just suggesting!” she said… after our drama talks we’re back annoying and teasing each other, then someone came out of nowhere… who is staring at us

“ya! Soo! Don’t scare us like that!” I said holding my chest… her stare… it there again, I could see it in her eyes…….jealousy… sica just kept silent not knowing what to do…

“sorry to disturb you guys… im going to bed now, goodnight” soo said with a hint of jealousy in her voice.

“goodnight soo” I said… sica was still not speaking up..

“sica? She’s gone now… you can talk now…” I said to her and thankfully she’s back to her own self now

“what should I do now?” she asked me worriedly

“don’t worry about it, everything will be fine…trust me… im going to bed now, im a bit tired now… you should take a rest now too, goodnight sica” I said and head to my room

“goodnight yuri-ah” she said

I’ve been trying to sleep for almost an hour but I failed then the door opened ‘she’s back’ I closed my eyes and pretend sleeping…

“goodnight unnie” she said.. ‘goodnight yoong… I love you’

Still I couldn’t sleep, yoong is in dreamland already so I decided to drink some milk hoping it will make me feel sleepy… I get out of the room trying not to make a noise. When I get out the room, I saw someone sitting in the couch but I can’t figure it out if who it is… i move a little closer so I could see clearly then I heard munching of chips.. ‘sooyoung!’

“hey soo” I greeted sooyoung as I joined her in the couch

“YAH! you almost killed me in shocked kkab” she spats

“shikshin!” I said

“so what’s up? What are you doing here?” she asked me

“im the one who should be asking that, I thought you were asleep already” I said

“I just felt hungry, that’s all” she said flatly ‘I think it’s about earlier’

“umm..soo?” I tried to approach her

“ne?” she said like not wanting to hear me

 “When will you ask her out?” I asked her,I can see her shocked face thought its kinda dark

“what do you….”

“yah! Don’t play dumb! You love her right? I can see it in your eyes! Whenever when sica and I are close to each other I can see your jealousy…” I cut her off and asked her

“why would you ask if you already know the answer” she answered then she looked up in the ceiling

“then ask her out! Just confess to her, tell her what you’ve been feeling towards her” I told her

“easy to say…wa-wait aren’t you guys are together?!?!” she asked in surprise which makes me laugh

“HAHAHA! Me and sica?! Pabo ya Soo! We’re not together! HAHA!” I told her laughing

“ but your closeness ….”

“because you’re blinded with your own jealousy that’s why” I said to her and she just kept silent

“so as I said why don’t you ask her out?” I asked her again

“it’s not that easy yuri-ah, what if I get rejected? I don’t think I could take that” she said still looking in the ceiling

“what if not?” I asked her

“what if it did?” she asked me back

“then go find it yourself, I know you’re strong soo, just trust in yourself!” I said as I patted her back and stood up… I head to the fridge and drink some milk…

“goodnight soo” I said

“goodnight yuri-ah, thank you” she said then I hugged her and gladly she hugs me back

‘How can I encourage others while I can’t to myself?!’ 

TBC-

about soosica's date maybe next chapter :)