God, this has been the worst day ever. After all the times Rina and I have broken up, I think this might be the final time. And we were fighting about the stupidest thing and it's just. . . I need to talk to someone. Or go outside. Or both. Or neither. I don't know. I see Suyeon up ahead. She'll know what's wrong. I hurry to try to catch up with her, calling out her name as I run. She spins around, sees me. I must look like absolute crap right now, because as soon as she sees me, her face falls. "What's wrong?" she asks. She sits down on the stairs and pats the carpet for me to sit down beside her. So I sit down beside her. I put my arm around her, rest my head on her shoulder, and despite my best efforts at control, I start crying again. I would have thought I'd be all cried out, but apparently not. I try to talk through the tears. "Suyeon, what's wrong with me? There's got to be something wrong with me - what is it? You can tell me. I can take it. What is it?" She pulls me closer and my hair. I start feeling better - if not for the fact that I can't imagine Suyeon dating anyone, I could imagine falling for her. "What makes you think there's something wrong with you?" she asks as I keep crying. As soon as I can, I try to stop crying. I sniffle a little, wipe my eyes on the back of my hands, then fish a mostly unused Kleenex out of my pocket and blow my nose. "Rina and I had a stupid argument this morning and split up. Seeing the look on Suyeon's face, I feel the need to add "Yes, again. Anyway, when I went to try to apologize to her and get back together, she told me that she's dating Elly now. So now I'm the only member who's not dating someone." "No you're not," she says, still my hair. "I'm not dating anyone." "No, that's different," I say, shaking my head vigorously. "Not only are you the leader, you're the oldest unnie. You're intimidating. All the girls are scared to try to date you." Apparently Suyeon is unaware of the effect she has on people, because she looks totally surprised by this idea. "No they're not," she says. "They can't be." "They are, though," I say smiling knowingly. "One of the members told me she had a crush on you, but she was afraid to say so." "Who said that?" she asks, apparently desperate to know the answer. I'd love to be able to tell her, even though it would create so much drama, but I pinkie promised that I wouldn't, so I cross my heart and say "Nope. I promised not to tell." "You've got to tell me!" she shrieks. She puts her hands around my neck and starts pretend choking me, shaking me back and forth. "You can't just hint at something like that and then not tell me!" She starts laughing, and Suyeon's laughter is so infectious I can't help but join in. "You see?" I say, acting like she's really choking me, "this is why the members are afraid of you. Because you can laugh while choking me!" Just that quickly she lets go of my neck, sits up straight and folds her hands in her lap. If our media trainers were hear to see this, they'd give her an A for posture and poise - it would be an A-plus, except that she keeps having to struggle to keep from smiling. "So," she says, "you want me to help you find a new