I am really really sorry about this big part that I forgot to upload here at AFF...I am a failure -_-" It was in LJ, so those who read in hj have seen it before. Again sorryy :(
“what's going on jaejoong!?” his sister yelled as he speed even more, but e she receives no answer.
Jaejoong stopped the car rudely in front of the villa and ran up stairs. He swung Junsu's bedroom door wide open and entered running. However, what he found in front of him made him stop ans stare blankly for few seconds. When his mind finally began working again, he found in front of him a pair of surprised watery eyes looking at him:
“hyung? You...?” but Junsu didn't have the time to finish his sentence; He found Jaejoong sitting in front of him in the bed, holding the big, sharp knife that he had in his hand away and asking with a scared, scary look:
“what are you doing with that Junsu?”
Junsu looked at the material, held firmely, along with his own hand, in Jaejoong strong grip, and then turned to look at his speaker. He studied him and smiled sweetly:
“I was only...cutting this memory book into pieces”
Jaejoong looked unbelievably to Junsu's other hand and found a little notebook cut into two parts. He breathed out and loosened his grab; the knife just fell in the ground interrupting the brief silence that filled the room. Jaejoong relaxed thankfully. He took the smaller man into a warm, gentle, shaking, grateful, embrace:
“Oh God...didn't you find scissors to use that big thing Su-ah? You scared me to death...”
Junsu leaned closer, warping his arms around his holder and patting his back slightly:
“It is okay hyung...I am sorry...I wasn't thinking of doing anything bad”
Even with his reassuring words, Junsu felt Jaejoong's arms clinging more on him. He felt his hands caressing his hair,his neck and his shoulders like if to make sure hat he is all safe and real. Junsu relaxed in his hyung arms; it was beautiful to feel the closeness and the love of someone who cares; for him, this feeling was missing for so long. However the moment end came when a young lady appeared in front of the door, breathing heavily:
“Jaejoong!”
The eldest man turned around:
“oh! Sorry sis...I...(and he looked at Junsu, was still puzzled, not really sure what to say) I felt fear for him”
The young lady came closer. She looked at the big knife lying on the floor, then to the two men:
“Is he the friend you told me about? Junsu...isn't it?”
“Yes...it is him...Junsu...this is my sister...uh...I was talking to her at the phone”
Junsu retired his arms slowly away from Jaejoong body, embarrassed from the situation:
“Nice...to meet you” he said shyly
“Happy to meet you Junsu-ya...I am sorry I entered like this...I...”
“No...it is fine...I am the one who should apologize for interrupting your conversation...sorry”
“No...we talked...enough...I should go now...I have something to do...and...”
Junsu wanted to say something but jaejoong stood up and hurried to agree with his sister:
“Of course...Junsu-ya...can you wait for me for a moment?”
“Aren't you going to drive her at her place at least hyung?”
“I am too worried to leave you alone Junsu-ya...my sis can take care of herself...she is a big girl...I mean a big woman...isn't it sis?”
the concerned lady eyed the young man before saying: “yes of course...see you again Junsu...take care of yourself”
“Thank you...please forgive me for troubling you” Junsu said politely with a slight bow
“You freaked me up Jaejoongie” the woman said after they got out
“Sorry nuna...I was really worried that he could done something to himself”
“Yeah...you was so worried that you didn't even sympathize with me while I was so hurt” she said with a pout
Jaejoong smiled cutely: “you know I care about you so much...but when you started to tell me about sucide...I just couldn't imagine what would have happened if I didn't come”
“Do...he really was about to sucide?”
“No...I don't think so...I don't know...I still worried”
“Tell me honestly Jaejoongie...is it because of him that you don't come anymore to visit us? You used to come often...but it is been 2 months that you didn't...your nuna is sick, and she needs you. She even started thinking that she became a burden and that you don't want to see her anymore”
“That's not true (Jaejoong responded frustrated) Junsu...I only meet him not long ago...it has nothing to do with him...I couldn't come because of work...You know that I should work hard to save money”
“ But you should think of her psychological health too...she doesn't only need money”
“but from me that's what she needs the most...she must have her surgery as soon as possible...you are with her...cheer her up please...I can't do everything on myself nuna”
“I know...sorry...but your friend can help you...he seems very rich”
“Nuna! When did you become like this?”
“I said nothing wrong Jaejoongie...you care about him a lot...and if he don't want to help you it would be very rude from him”
“Nuna! He even don't know about it and I don't want him to know...he is very sick and very fragile already...I don't want him to have extra worries”
“You are a real friend then...but people are not like that...rich just want to have all others around them because of their empty inside...”
“Stop it please nuna...that's too much...you don't even know him to judge”
“I am just speaking generally...and just advising you”
“i got it nuna...don't worry”
“Ok then...I hope you will find time for your sister...she is having a depression and she needs you...more than anyone else”
“I will try to come...don't worry...tell her that I will visit her soon” Jaejoong responded with a sigh
Jaejoong view:
When I came back inside, I found Junsu standing beside the door, supporting his back with the wall and looking at the floor. I asked him a little angry:
“Were you spying on us?”
He didn't look at me. He just nodded with a little inaudible: “sorry”
I sighed, running my hand through my hair: “you know you shouldn't be doing that”
“she is right hyung” he said slowly, still almost inaudible
“right about what Junsu-ya?”
“about...everything she said...it is true that...I...wanted to...own people...just to make them fill the empty space I have...it is true that...I hated others because they had lovely friends and family...because they were loved...I hate them and sometimes I do bad things to...them...just because of my jealousy...If...you stay with me hyung...probably I'll be selfish and want to own you as my tool too...and your family...needs you more than me...it is also true...I...”
“would you stop please?” Jaejoong said firmly : “stop making yourself responsible for everything; stop making yourself the worst man in the earth...it is not true...at all...that bad man you are speaking about saved my life once...and he worries about every single person in this earth though he don't have to...and he become so hurt just by knowing that there is someone angry because of something he does nothing to do with...stop hurting yourself this way...it is beyond what you can handle...please”
Junsu didn't move...didn't say anything...he just stood there...not even looking at me. My sister's words hurt him badly...I know. I approached him and took his shoulders, “Junsu”
He didn't move, “tell me...please...let me carry a little for you, would you?”
He looked at me...his eyes red and watery, carrying dark circles around them, were telling all about his state...I felt my heart aching...I can read them...read the pain and lust in them...for a second, I thought that death would be a rest for someone....but NO! I shouldn't think this way! I smiled at him instead:
“I know what are you thinking about Junsu-ya...I know you're so scared...to get used to someone then not to find it beside you anymore...I know how it feels...I know you are telling yourself that I am not obliged to be with you forever, and that it would be selfish to want it...and I know that you are convinced that I will leave you one day, tired from your hopeless state...because they all did the same...but would you please trust me...because I am not obliged, I want to stay beside you...not because I own you one...but because you are dear to me...I would be happy, if I can see you smiling without this painful look in your eyes...(I took him in my arms) so can you please allow me to try to be happy?”
I felt his chest going up and down with brusque emotion; he was sobbing again,
“let us go and sit there” I leaded him to the main couch and helped him to sit down. He didn't say anything, didn't move, didn't look at me...he just followed. I settled myself beside him and held him again murmuring all what I knew that could calm him down...After a while I felt him returning the hug as he began talking...I felt relieved that he...at least responded:
“I...really wanted...to suicide... I don't want to be in this life anymore...I can't...it is too hard...my disease is incurable...the doctor said that my chances are so tiny that he even advised me not to do the surgery...my family is tired of always taking care of my problems...they are sick of it and they have the right to be sick of it...no one...I have no one...life...so lonely, so empty, so ugly...It is telling me to just disappear and I am clinging on it just because I am afraid of death...of what is there...maybe that hell would be harder, worst...but there, I can't die again...I would be stuck forever...” He stopped, tired from sobbing, his heart is so weak that I felt him struggling just to have air in his lungs...while a lot of people don't even notice that they are breathing....I felt tears in my eyes...but I let him open up for me...maybe he would feel good if he had someone to listen to him. I his hair, trying to make him feel a little comfortable, to let him know that I understand him...he continued:
“I sent everyone away and I told myself it was time...but I couldn't...I got angry and wanted to just throw myself in the river and get ride of it...but my car stopped...just like everything is against me...and...(he raised his head, looking at me. Tears were covering every part of his face. I couldn't help but to try to wipe them away...he was really hurting...if I keep looking at him...I feel like I am going to cry too)...I met you...and...I had a tiny hope... in life...and I wanted to live like this...just for a few minutes...so that...at least...the last moments of my life would be beautiful...so that I could have good memories...even short ones...but...when I took that knife...I thought of you and couldn't do it...If the police finds that my car was with you they could think you killed me...and...if I die...I...would (he stopped again...hesitating but he continued) I wouldn't be able to see you again...I was afraid of missing you...of making you feel guilty because you left me...so...I decided to die when you will leave...it would be easier...and...decided to kill that note book instead of myself...because it only has bad memories...I wanted to buy another one...and to write good memories...so I can remember that I lived some good time”
I felt my lips curling in a little smile and I enveloped him like if I wasn't intending to ever let him go...I was so upset but so happy I could make him think of good things...I was happy being there with him...to be there for him...and from that moment, I swore:
“I promise you Junsu-ya...I promise you that life is beautiful and that I am going to show you how beautiful it can be...I promise you that you will have your happy notebook full of wonderful memories before anything happens...I swear to you”
Now I can feel his body relaxing in my arms, and his breathing becoming even as he laid his head on my shoulder and closed his eyes whispering a little: “thank you hyung”
Junsu point of view:
I turned and rubbed my eyes...how come that I slept? I opened one eye, feeling lazy, and I found myself staring at a sleeping jaejoong. I was lying on his laps and I don't know how I end up like this, and he was asleep sitting. I couldn't help by smiling at the situation. He actually looks so cute while sleeping. I made myself comfortable, laying flat on my back and kept staring...I don't really know why but I felt warm inside. He started moving a little and woke up:
“ah...Junsu-ya? Are you feeling better now?”
I nodded, smiling and he smiled back at me : “very good”
I feel a little strange; it is like all the pain I had just faded away
Jaejoong's view:
Junsu started laughing like nothing had happened. He brought his head closer to my belly, listening and busted into laughing, “your tummy makes weird noise hyung!” he said playfully “are you hungry?”
looking at him like that, I laughed so hard. He moved his head again to look at me and then another time, enjoying the little noise, just like a little child, and I laughed uncontrollably,
“ahhhh Junsu-ya! Stop moving like this”
“Am I tickling you hyung?” he said innocently
“No Junsu!” but I couldn't stop my laughing process
“Then why are you laughing like this? Do I have something in my face?”
He begun touching his nose and cheeks and looking at his hands and that made me laugh even harder. He got up, puzzled and as soon as he did so, I leaned forward supporting my head with my knees and pressing my stomach as it began hurting.
“Seriously hyung! What makes you laugh like this”
I paused and wiped my tears: “you are clueless, so clueless Susu”
“?!!”
“don't you know where your head was sitting dear?”
“oh...on your laps...(the look he did next was so precious; I laughed uncontrollably again) I am sorry...oh my God...I really didn't mean it...I am so sorry”
he was so embarrassed...oh my God, he is really clueless! His cheeks became cherry red and he just hided his face with his two hands; it was so cute. I managed to wipe the new tears on my cheeks,
“it is okay...it did nothing”
“No it did...it made you laugh like a fool!”
“laughing is not important...other things didn't happen”
“Oh my God” he shouted before running up stairs, still having his hands on his face. I couldn't help but to laugh again. After a little moment, I knocked the door of his room and entered. He was lying on his chest and covering his head with the sheets,
“hey Junsu!”
“ Naughty hyung!”
I smiled as I sat on the bed, “cute innocent danseng!”
He peeped his head out of the cover: “did I...?”
“No! How can I be so sensitive silly!”
“who knows...”
“What?! I am not talking to you anymore!”
Junsu smiled brightly: “you cannot”
“You!” I started tickling him and he giggled so loud, but I stopped quickly knowing that I can't make him laugh so much
“What kind of voices do you have junsu?” I sat supporting my body with my elbow
“ Don't know...let's go somewhere...I know a lovely restaurant”
“As you want chef !”
I took the car keys and sat on the driver's seat. Junsu pouted:
“it is my car...i am the one who should be driving”
“No my Susu...you are going to let me drive you wherever I want and you, you have just to admire the view”
Junsu smiled: “I can allow you this,but I am the one who would be driving back”
“we will see about that Susu”
He closed the door and wore his security belt: “you behave like if you knew me for a long time...I like it”
“and I am waiting for you to do the same Junsu-ya...So first destination”
Junsu view:
Jaejoong hyung stopped the car in front of a little bookshop. He took my hand and drove me in. The lady working there was about to close, but as she saw him she asked:
“Jaejoog-shi...do you need something?”
“I am sorry but can you allow us to buy something before you go”
“Of course Jaejoong-shi...take your time”
“Thank you Yuzu! You are the best”
The lady chuckled shyly; Jaejoong have a lot of friends.
We stopped in front of some cute beautiful colored notebooks. Jaejoong let go of my hand and said:
“So first step Junsu-ya: buying a beautiful diary for your happy memories...let's see...oh! This one is adorable”
“Pink?! Do you see me as a girl or what?”
Jaejoong looked at me with amused eyes: “who knows?”
“stop it! I am not taking a pink one!”
“but it has also green and blue and yellow on it...and besides, pink is a happy color”
“it is a girly color”
“Ok...sorry Junsu-shi...what is your favorite color?”
I looked at the diaries and picked one: “I like green...green is the color of heavens”
“Heavens?”
“Yep...I am sure that heavens are so beautiful and green...I want a green one”
Jaejoong smiled tenderly. He had a lot of smiles and can change them anytime, and I love all of them.
I picked another one and handed it to him: “One for me and one for you...this way we can have our good memories written here, and every time we feel upset, we can just read what we wrote to cheer up”
Jaejoong asked the lady to put the two diaries in gift packets and he gave them to me, but I interrupted him: “I will pay”
“No way...this is a gift”
“No...I have never bought something with someone or bought something for someone, so let me pay for this...you can give me other things”
“If it is this way...ok...Yuzu! This is Junsu...he is my dearest friend...so please whenever he comes here, take good care of him”
The lady chuckled again, “Ok! Nice to meet you Junsu-shi”
“All the pleasure is mine”
We exited the little shop and stopped in front of a restaurant. As soon as the owner saw Jaejoong, he ran to hug him tighly : “oh Jaejoong! Where have you been my son? Did you forget about us?”
Jaejoong seemed very happy, returning the old man hug: “of course not uncle...I even brought a friend with me” The man looked at me and smiled brightly: “ he is welcome. What's your name son?”
“Junsu uncle” I answered, a little embarrassed. I wasn't used to this kind of meetings.
“Junsu is a little shy uncle so please be very very kind with him”
“Of course...it is a pleasure to meet you Junsu (he patted my shoulder gently)...come in! What do you want to eat?”
Jaejoong looked at me: “Do you like pizza? Uncle is so good at making pizza”
“yeah...I like it”
“So...a biiiiiiigggg pizza uncle, with a loooooot of cheese please”
“All what you want son”
The man served us the most delicious pizza I have ever eaten! He sat with us, along with his wife and two kids; a very cute 6 year old girl and an energetic 8 year old boy. We all chatted happily for an hour...I felt so warm inside...is that how a family supposed to be? Is is how it feels? So warm and so enjoyable?...the dark reality hit me deep inside...I didn't have a family...I only had “housemates”
“Let's take a picture!” Jaejoong hyung voice woke me up...he looked at me, confused. I smiled to reassure him and I think he understood...he is so smart...I feel so vulnerable in front of him; he can read me like an open book...I stood up, and we made a little circle. Jaejoong asked a man to take the picture for us and he came to warp his arm around my shoulder and tug me closer. I giggled at his cute action.
“everyone...say cheese...1, 2, 3” and the picture was token.
As we were about to leave the sweet woman gave us some kimitchi that she had prepared and the man insisted on us to visit them often. Jaejoong promised that we will come to spend the night together and they were very pleased. They all came to hug me and Jaejoong before we leave. I have never felt this way...even knowing them just for a while, I already feel myself one of them. I looked behind me as we exited the little restaurant...I don't want to leave this place and go to my cursed villa. Jaejoong patted my shoulder: “we will come again Junsu-ya...very soon” I felt my cheeks turning slightly rosy. I really was like an open book for him and...it was a little bit silly to miss a place that I just come into...
As we wore our belts, jaejoong took my phone and put the photo on my display screen. He returned me the cell phone saying: “now you have a happy memory, and you can always remember it by just looking at your phone. It will cheer you up”
“Thank you hyung” That's all what I had to say, because what I feel right now, I can't expalin it even to myself...However, it was so good that I don't want to loose it.
Jaejoong hyung was taking a bath when I started writing in the first page of my happy diary. I printed the family photo we took and stick it there. It is my first time writing good things...I am so thankful.
We setled in the bed, happy and tired: “I will show you something hyung...but don't laugh at me, ok?”
“That's interesting”
I went to my closet and brought a big teddy bear. I sat it between us: “this is mister Candy”
Jaejoong laughed as he took the bear and squeeze it, “so his mission today is to sleep between us, isn't it?”
“No hyung! My mission is to sleep between you”
“No! I want to be in the middle”
“No, no, no...this is my room. You should stick on my rules hyung”
Jaejoong pouted cutely: “so bear it! I am going to hug you instead of him”
“That's what I want! Yoopi”
Jaejoong point of view:
Junsu jumped on me and removed the poor Mister Candy away. I couldn't help but to giggle:
“Are you being that cute on purpose Junsu-ya? Do you want me to eat you?”
He looked at me deeply: “yes! Eat me please...please”
“but Junsu-ya...you are so skinny...you should have some meat here and here and here...now you don't even serve as a dessert!”
He giggled as my touches tickled him. His laugh...was so alive...if only he keeps on laughing like this.
Junsu rolled to the side and rubbed his eyes. I knew he is feeling sleepy. I opened my arms telling him to come closer. He didn't hesitate and laid his head on my shoulder. He straightened his arm to reach for Mister Candy, and he put his soft arm around him so he can be hugged by the two of us. I chuckled wondering if a person had to come in, what would be his/her reaction.
“good night hyung” he murmured all sleepy.
“Good night Susu. Have pretty dreams”
He smiled.
Jaejoong preview:
[Flash back]
“Are you okay?”
I raised my eyes to look at the boy in front of me. He seemed very worried. He knelled and looked at me, then reached his hand to touch the bursts in my face, “you are really hurt...Do you want me to call the hospital? Do you know your parents number?”. I avoided his hand and tried to stand up. He grabbed my shoulders sitting me in place, “I can understand. You don't want anyone to find you”. I was stunned. First because I had the feeling of knowing that boy, and second because I didn't tell him anything to figure out what I wanted. He stood up and asked me to wait for him, “I will bring you something to eat and...”, and he ran. What was he doing here? A boy like him? Dressed in a formal suit, smelling so good and caring an expensive bag? However, I waited. He came back again, aplastic bag in hand. He sorted some medicines and some sterile fabrics, “let me help you with these...it will leave ugly marks if you let it like that”. He dumped the cotton pad he had and started cleaning the bursts gently. I dared talking to him: “You should be careful. What if I was a criminal that have escaped from jail or from a dangerous gang? I may think of hurting you, especially you seem to be very rich”. He chuckled, “I can feel that you are not. It is fine”
“How come that you are alone?”
“I escaped from old people”
“why? Don't you feel scared? Alone in this place at night?”
“I don't want to be with them. They are not happy because I was the won the prize of the best student”
“What?!!”
“They...don't love me as much as my brothers...they were hoping that my brother wins”
“ah?!” noww I was shocked. I changed my sitting position, kneeling in font of him,
“You feel really hurt, aren't you?”
He smiled, a fainted smile:“somehow”
I don't know what made me do this, but I hugged him tightly, “congratulations for being the best student”
That was the first time we met. He gave me the sum of money he had won and disappeared, “I hope I will meet you again...at least...to be able to thank you”...
I came to the hospital to get the results of some analysis, and as I was passing by a room, I found a friend of mine, so I stopped to say “hi”
“Jaejoong-ah! What a surprise!”
“How are you? I missed you”
“Me too friend. I was hoping for a tea time, but I am very busy”
“an emergency?”
“Yes...I heartbreaking young student. He had an accident, and now, he is having a big heart problem because of it”
“Oh God! What had happened to him?”
“Ah...something you don't really want to know Jaejoong”
“Hope he would be better. Do your best as doctor”
“I will, so see you another time friend”
When we met again, I asked him about his patient, and he told me that his family transferred him to another hospital. He were very careful not to deliver me any further information about his patient state, and I could understand; we doctors, should not deliver any information about anyone. However, I couldn't stop asking him when he mentioned:
“I really feel bad for him. He was a brilliant student. His name was on the honor list all the time at his university. You should know him Jaejoong-ah; you studied there too”
“Who is it?”
“Kim Junsu...don't you know him?”
I dropped my cup of tea as I heard the name, “you said kim Junsu? What had happened to him?”
“ah! So you know him. Is he your friend?”
“Yeah...what happened?”
“I told you he has and accident”
“what kind of accidents? Tell me!”
“I am sorry Jaejoong-ah...I, myself, don't know much. His family was very secretive about his case. They didn't want to tell me what happened, and when I insisted, they just transferred him to another hospital. Actually, the police came regularly to ask him, and they always let him on a depressive state. I tried to convince him that he wouldn't be able to handle all this pressure, but they never listened to me. Sometimes, he also start shouting and crying on his sleep, but I didn't understand what he was trying to say. Maybe you should visit him. As a friend he may open up to you”
“What the hell is that?! Do you know to witch hospital did they take him”
“Oh yeah...sure I can help you with this”
“Thank you”
I couldn't believe! We were in the same university, and I never met him...I never searched....and now that I know, and I wanted to go, I found caps in front of me, asking me to go with them...there all my problems began...I could never visit him
[End of the flashback]
I leaned to kiss his forehead, “really sorry...Junsu-ya”. He was sleeping deeply like a little baby. With all the marks of tiredness he got, he still look so cute. I think that he is just born this way, “how can someone ever hate you Junsu-ya? Why everyone should leave you like this when you need all of them?”. Of course I didn't get an answer, neither from my brain, nor from Junsu; they both don't know. I was feeling so lazy, but I managed to prepare some breakfast, thinking about all what Junsu said yesterday...how can I help you Junsu-ya?
I heard a weak voice behind me, “Good morning hyung”. I turned to face the sleepy figure, “good morning Junsu-ya. Did you sleep well?”
He was still in his pyjama, rubbing his eyes, trying to open them fully as he answered with a little “mmm...”
I massaged his shoulders gently, “you can go back to sleep if you still feel tired Junsu-ya”
“no...want to wake up...slept too much”
I laughed at his sweet actions, “then go take a bath...breakfast would be served soon”
He nodded and turned almost mechanically toward the stairs...this boy! Was he doing this on purpose?
Junsu point of view
After breakfast, Jaejoong hyung took my hand and led me to my room. He brought the note book I had cut into two along with the knife, put them on my desk and then asked me to come closer. When I was just inches apart from him, he took my right hand and made me hold the knife. Then, he moved so he was behind me and held my right hand, squeezing it around the big material. I turned to ask him,
“what are you doing hyung?”
he smiled, “Don't you want to destroy your bad memories? Let us do it together! And, with every cut, I want you to wipe away a bad memory, ok?”
I smiled too, “ok...”.
We cut the little book into very small pieces...all together...hand in hand...at that time, I can't really describe how I felt...but it was a beautiful feeling
When finished, Jaejoong hyung opened the door that leads to the balcony. He put all the pieces of paper in my two hands and drove me to the open space. He stood behind me again and took my hands into his as he began talikng,
“I want you to look at the horizon. In your hands, you have all your bad memories, and now, you are going to throw them all away and never remember them. Just look at them flying away from you and they will never comeback...are you ready to tell them goodbye?”
I listened to him carefully, then nodded.
“Ok...then...we'll count together to three and throw them away”
“ok hyung, to three”
“ready? 1...2...3”
and there they are, flying away...very far...far from us... I felt relieved...like if I was carrying a big rock and just put it down...the wind was cool and refreshing...it was driving the vulnerable papers away...
“you are amazing hyung” I told him, leaning backward to lay on his chest.
“feeling better?” he asked me as he enveloped me with his strong arms. I tightened his hug with my hands, feeling so happy and so comfortable.
“much better, hyung, btter than any other time”
I've never been that close to someone. I can feel his breath over my hair and his heart beats on my back. I was too careful to put a small space between me and anyone else, but with jaejoong hyung, I feel this closeness totally right and securing. I feel like healing when he is that close to me. It is like he was reviving my soul with every word and every touch. Is it normal for me to feel this way? I observed the blue sky and the pure clouds that were moving...do the sky looks that beautiful every day? It is like if I wasn't alive before...how come I never noticed how beautiful it was?
“What are you thinking about Junsu-ya?”
“uh?...the sky, hyung”
“the sky?”
“yes...I've never noticed it was that beautiful” I left my head to look at him. He was smiling...like always, “hyung...I...”
“Junsu-shi!!” a stunning voice came from behind. I jumped in my place, token aback. Jaejoong hyung turned to look at the upcoming man and I followed him,
“Jung-hyung?!” I said surprised, “did you came back already?”
“I should be here today Junsu-shi”
“ah...” I was deeply disappointed, why should he come now? He was looking at me and Jaejoong hyung suspiciously, so I tried to make a little presentation. I took a step away from Jaejoong hyung,
“This is my friend Jung-hyung. He came to stay with me while you were absent (I turned to Jaejoong) Jung-hyung is our butler. He is in charge of everything in the house”
Jaejoong bowed respectfully,
“it is a pleasure to meet you Jung-shi”
“all the pleasure is mine. It is the first time that I meet a friend of yours, Junsu-shi. By the way, are you always that close to your friends?”
“what do you mean, hyung?”
“I think you should pay more attention to your actions Junsu-shii...this posture in witch I found you, wasn't that right”
“I am sorry hyung, but this was totally normal and I don't feel that I have done something wrong”
“We will have to know what your parents will think of it then, Junsu-shii”
“I think that you don't have the right to interfere with my personal matters hyung! You are the person in charge of this house, but you are not my babysitter! I think that I am old enough to know what is right and what is wrong”
“I can see how a bad friendship can influence you so easily Junsu-shii”
“please go to your work. You don't have the right to talk to me like this, and you don't have the right to enter my room without asking for permission. Am I clear enough?”
“I will tell your parents about that”
Jaejoong point of view:
“just leave me and do whatever you want!” Junsu shouted, getting angry. He wasn't feeling okay. I saw him holding his chest again...and his breathing wasn't even anymore. I had to say something,
“Please Jung-shii, leave us alone now”
The man seemed displeased, but he walked away. I approached Junsu, “are you all right Junsu-ya?”
He held my arm, almost crying, “you are not going to leave me, isn't it hyung?”
I was surprised by his sudden reaction, but I was worried; his breathing wasn't normal“of course not Junsu-ya. Are you okay?”
“ yes...I'm fine hyung...don't worry”
“Junsu...let me take you to your bed. You should rest a little”
He nodded, and I supported him, helping him to lay on his bed. He was too fragile. How could they not to be careful with him? From what the man said, his parents don't seem to be the most comprehensive...I am still wondering why they are leaving him here alone...
“calm down Junsu-ya. It is not a big deal” I tried to cool him down, blushing his soft bangs.
“ I am fine hyung...don't worry...I am sorry for what happened...he probably will disturb you a little”
“It is fine Susu...just calm down”
“I will be fine soon hyung...can we please go somewhere else? Let us go and visit your sister. She must be missing you”
“Junsu! How can you think about other people when you are in pain? You are an angel”
“I don't have wings hyung” He said, joking .
“You only lack wings Susu-ya”
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