It's all dark.

Dark blue.

I can't see anything. The light is far away from me but I can't see it. I feel like I'm closing my eyes but I'm not. I open my eyes so widely. I just cannot see anything! I... I 'm not even sure why I'm here.
"Hellooooo??!!!!" I scream.
Where am I? How do I get here? Is this another nightmare? Ugh, please wake up! Why can't I move my hand? I... I can... I just can't make my hands slap my face. I cannot control them.....
"HEEEEELLPPPPP!!!" I scream as loud as I can. Where is Sana?? Where is Tzuyu?? Where are all my friends? Oh no... Am I dead? Am I? Am I? Am I???
My eyes get all warmed up. It's leaking, as usual. But I'm afraid... I'm so afraid... Where am I?

Where am I???

"Haeju..." 
Huh, who's that?
"Haeju, can you hear me?" I hear a heavy voice calling my name. It feels familiar but I'm sure it's not one of the members.
"Who's there?" I try to answer him. Her? I'm not even sure what I hear... "Who... Who are you?" I ask.
"Aww... You have a really beautiful voice. Calm down, don't be afraid. You're safe. It's... I'm a..."
"Who?"
"I'm your author."

Wait, let me light it up for you......

"I'm... On a street....."
"Yes, you are," I tell Haeju. She sounds relieved to see the city around her. I know she will like it. It's because I like it too.
"Where are you? Where is everybody?" I ask.
"I'm here with you. I cannot see you as you cannot see me either. Everybody? Each of them is in their place. They're safe and they're not leaving us. Yet, at least. But it's fine. What more important is I have to tell you about our situation now. Aren't you wondering why you're here?"
"I am! Who are you?"
"Alright... Listen to me, it's gonna be a long and uneasy explanation. Hold on something! Be relax and concentrate, okay? Do it like when you read the tarot cards. Concentrate, Haeju! Are you ready?"
"Wait..." I hold on the bar, facing the river. It's dark, I can't see anything. No. It's more like... There's nothing there. "I'm ready..."
"Are you sure? Focus, Haeju, I cannot hear you!"
"Sigh... I don't like this. Please tell me who you are!!!"
"Okay okay. Easy, Dear..."

I take a deep breath before saying the next sentence.

"Hello, Ahn Haeju. Just like I said earlier, I'm your author. Maybe this will be confusing for you. It's kinda mind-blowing, I know, but just listen to me and believe what you hear. Just swallow the hard pill. I know you're familiar with the dark sorcery so this won't be that hard to accept.
First of all, let me ask you some questions. Are you into making charm, curses, foretelling the future using tarot, astrology, numerology, and stuffs like that?"
"Yes, how do you-"
"Have you ever felt lost lately that you're not sure where you are? Or who you are? Or maybe, suddenly you just wake up in a room and not sure how you get there?"
"YES YES!!!"
"Do you see your friends differently lately? Like, they're not humans but they're just combinations of their zodiac signs?
"Yes... Who are-"
"Have you predicted some events in the future-"
"ALL TRUE! WHO ARE YOU? WHY DO YOU KNOW ALL OF THOSE THINGS??!"
I'm stunned to hear that. I'm nervous, but I still need to tell her this. That I- "...Haeju-ya, I am you."

She doesn't say anything. I hesitate a little bit to continue talking. It's so quiet. I'm not sure what she's thinking right now. This is odd...
"Haeju-ya, I am your author. I, somehow, create you(?) But I'm not a God. I'm just a person typing a story in front of a computer. The main character of the story is you. The story is your life. You are written based on myself. You have my personality, my habits, my way of thinkings, etc. You have written a fanfic before, right? A Satzu fanfic, remember? Just imagine you're talking to Sana and Tzuyu in your story. That's what I'm doing now to you. I'm talking to a character that I- You are my-
Haeju, a.. are you okay?"
I'm crying.
My chest feels so heavy. I cannot believe what I just heard. I'm just... I'm just...
"No no no, Haeju-ya... Don't think too far! There's something important thing I need to explain. It was just the intro so you can understand the situation," I tell her.
I hear her sobbing. This is not good.
"Talk to me, Dear..." 
"Just tell me you're a God!"
"No no, I-"
"Say it!!!"
"Haeju, I-"
"JUST SAY IT!!!"
"Fine, I'm your CREATOR..." Ohh that's not easy for me to say either. I feel guilty for playing God. "I do what you tell me, Haeju-ya! Can you believe me now?"
"JUST WAKE ME UP! I CAN'T TAKE THIS ANYMORE."
"I'm sorry but..."
"WAKE ME UP!!!" 

Haeju has a beautiful voice.
Even her crying sounds, somehow, soothing. I know this won't be easy for her. For both of us. That's why I have prepared something.
"Haeju-ya, I can bring anyone that you want to accompany you. Especially the Twice members, since they exist in both of our reality. But you can only ask one person. More people will just destroy our focus to the storyline. Haeju, can you hear me?"
"I can bring one person here?" she asks weakly.
"Yes..."
She wipes her face. Ohh, I can start seeing her. But it's too blurry, still. Anyway, let's wait which member she will ask. If it's Haeju, maybe it would be either Sana or Tzuyu. It can be Mina too as she always depends on her in anything required feelings and deep thinking. Or maybe Jihyo, the reader's favorite member to ship with her?"
"Give me Chaeyoung," I say.
"Ohh... Chaeyoung?"
"Yes."
"May I know why?
"I'm close with her these days. Also, I... I... I guess I just feel like it."
"Alright, then! I'm also biased to Chaeyoung nowadays. I guess you're me after all..."

"My Strawberry Princess!" I look up as suddenly I see her feet are in front of me. She's wearing a white Twiceland shirt and fake bunny ears on her head. She looks so pretty. I get up and immediately hug her. "Chaeyoung-aaa... I miss you...!" I cry to her shoulder. She feels warm but, as I saw it at a glance earlier, she had no expression. I've expected it. This is just her body without her soul. I start to understand what's happening. I play with magic too far.
"Can you see her?"  the voice asks.
"I can..."
"Yup, me too! I can see her back," it says.
"Alright, Author-nim, or whoever you are. You said you have an important thing to tell me. I'm strong enough with my friend beside me. You can tell me now."
I smile. "That's my girl... Okay, Haeju. Let me explain why you're here and why you can meet me... It's all because of those supernatural things we've played with these days! Let me take you to a better place where you can sit. Close your eyes for a second."

Sigh, at this point I wish I'm good at drawing a fanart or photoshopping instead of browsing the pictures from google.

Meeting Haeju in her world is draining my energy. I need to finish it faster...

"Haeju, I know you are into magic stuff lately although no one knows it. Not even your closest friends. I know you understand how to read someone's personality and how to feel the energy from your surroundings. Maybe it's just still a beginning for you but... It has to be stopped now! It's your psychic power that brings us all here. You have it but you use it without knowing how to control it. That's why you can meet me here right now although we're in two different universes.
Also, I know you've been stressed lately. You're falling into the darkness because of your psychic power. Well, I won't blame your power. Maybe you are just playing in the area that you shouldn't touch.

I think it's consuming you. Both of us. I'm into those things as well these days. The problem is... My energy is drained because of it. It's hard to explain, but as an author, I don't have energy and time as much as before. It's not just my life is too hard to go through, but the magic stuffs make me cannot think straight. I'm falling into depression. I was thinking about suicide a few weeks ago. It was kinda the of my depression. If I died, no one would continue your story. It would end as well..."

While holding on Chaeyoung's arm, I'm listening to the explanation carefully. I keep calming myself down. I'm a tough girl that Twice makes me. I can do this... "Will I die if the story ends?" I ask.
"No, I will make it a happy ending. You will live happily ever after."
"Let me make it straight. You want me to stop getting into magic. Yes, I've felt so different lately. You're right, I think the darkness is controlling me. I keep thinking of 'leaving' but I don't know what it means. I cannot control my own mind. Ughhhh..... Honestly, I've been trying to stop reading the future but I just can't. It always appears in my head. What should I do, Author-nim?"
"I'm not really sure what to do either but I think we can do something. Mm, remember your satzu fanfic?"
"Yes?"
"All of this mess started right at the start of that fanfic. It was all started in season 4, right when you show the draft of your fanfic-"
"-to Jihyo! Ohh, that fanfic isn't finished yet. I've left it because I don't know what to write."  
"I think, if you go back to the past, you can help me find what's wrong in your life since that day. You just have to jump out to the other dimension and help me to see the bigger picture.......

Haeju, can you understand me?"

I hug Chaeyoung tighter. "Chaeyoung-a... Help me......"

I sit on a train. Chaeyoung is beside me. "Will Chaeyoung go with me?" I ask. The author says no. She will disappear after a while. It will be a lonely journey. I'm not sure what to say anymore. I feel the fear crawling up to my chest. Where's Tzuyu? Where's Sana? I even miss Nayeon at this point! WHERE'S EVERYBODY???

My eyes melt.

Hmm, I always enjoy it when I cry. It's warm. It warms my heart and calms my mind. Wait... "If I am a character of your story, there must be some readers, right?" I speak to the empty air. "Are there the readers? Ohh no, please don't say my story doesn't have any readers...." 
"You have readers, Haeju, " the voice proudly say, "In fact, there are many of them! There are more than 500 people who are subscribed to your story and it has been viewed more than 25000 times. And they are all nice people! They are really friendly and supportive. They are Once and they said to me that they love you."
"They did?"
"I'm not even a good writer, honestly. I'm an amateur! But you get their attention. It's always because of you. You're not alone, Haeju. Never. I'm sure they will stay until the end..."
Receiving so much supports is not a new thing for me. Once... Twice... People I work with... They all care for me. But knowing that it's not stopping makes me feel so grateful. I'm so happy that I feel Chaeyoung's hand grabs my hand when she's supposed to not have any consciousness. I'm too happy! Thank you, readers, t- "Thank you, the readers, if you can hear me. Author-nim, please tell them that I love them too..." I tell it.
"Sure, I will let them know....."
 

The machine starts to run. The train shakes. This is my last chance to decide whether if I should do this or not. If I don't do this, the voice said that they will give me a happy ending anyway. But... "I can understand the situation now!" I say while looking at the dark blue sky, " I think I'm the only one who can do this. You wouldn't have asked me if you could do it by yourself, right? I feel like you've fallen too deep into the darkness. Too deep that you cannot continue the story. My story. My life. Alright, I decided to help you because I wanna continue my life too!" 
"Thank you... I cannot write the story without your help and continuing your story is my role here. I'll be empty without you, Haeju..." author-nim says. I sigh.
"Author-nim... I hope I can give you a hug. Hehe!"
I smile to hear that. She's trying to cheer me up. What a great girl I hope I'm as strong as her. "If you have a hard time later, just remember your friends, okay? They will always be there for you. Like they always are."
"Sure, Author-nim! I believe in you."
"Me too. Okay, are you ready to go back to the past?" 

Actually, I still have so many questions ask... But I feel so tired already. My head starts to feel dizzier when I fasten the safety belt. Chaeyoung does up as well, following me. I hold her hand. I close my eyes and concentrate. I let myself flows to where the wind will take me. I bend my neck and everything gets darker. It moves!

I'm going up, leaving my own story.......

((a/n)) I won't continue the story until Haeju comes back...