One step everyday
A New Life with BTSYoongi wanted to speak about something serious and i wanted to convince him that everything will be okay, and even if he is not near i will be alright.After changing my clothes, i went to the kitchen to prepare something warm to drink, i don't know why but i felt like this conversation will be long and a drink was needed. In other hand yoongi who was sitting on the coach playing with his phone, followed me and leaned on the table watching my every moves. It was destabilising, he was really observing me with an intense gaze.
« Yah Yoongi-ah, stop looking at me like that, i can't focus » i sorted out nervously
« How many time do i have to tell you? , it's YOONGI OPPA for you, Repeat after me OPPA~~ »
« Oppa, my »
« Yeah, you have a nice » he teased
« Oh my god, you became a ert, i think i have to call either joonie or jin omma to control you » i scolded and went to the table to grab my phone from the bag that was next to him, i wanted to but i didn't think i was putting myself in danger { not really danger just being near him is dangerous in a different way }, and in a spur of second, Yoongi pulled me to him,using more strength than usual making me land on his chest, he was half sitting, half standing on the edge of the table ; My legs were between his and his hands rested on my waist while mine was holding his shoulder { wo wo i didn't do it on purpose, my hand landed there what can i do?}. There was enough distance for me to be able to breath proporely. But there is a thing i wasn't able to do, to look on his eyes, the piercing gaze he was giving me was so strong that i can't meet it.
« Oh you lost your voice or what? » he said in mocking tone, being fully aware of his effect on me.
« Can you let me go ert, it's not really comfortable. »
« Oh you hurted me, my body is no longer comfortable for you, Wow, But First you have to look in my eyes, second i want to hear you cutely say yoongi oppa-ah~ »
« In your ing dreams, MIN YOONGI, As*sh*ole » with this statement his pulled me to him more making the distance between our faces less than inches apart. { Luna you searched for it, so you deal with it }
« Humm.. » he hummed with a smirk in his face but i can feel his heart beating so fast that it can burst out anytime. so i am not the only one nervous here, wait why am i nervous? i slept with yoongi at least twice a week. no no it's different.
« Yoongi oppa, please, the tea will get burned » i pleaded.
« We can buy another one, now look at me Luna » i couldn't lift my face, no i can't look at him, i know if i am so near and looking in his eyes i don't know what can happen next, yes i never thought of yoongi more than a friend or best friend, but lately i found myself wanting him, it may be just desire, or just attraction but without knowing i cought myself looking at his lips more than once, sometimes, i dream about kissing him, other time my dreams are more erts, i don't know why ? i really don't understand. Can we love two people at the same time ? because i still feel like i am in love with jungkook, Ohh my head is going to explode this too much for me.
The new job i got and this distance will make me understand what i want and who i love ? i got lost on my thought when the hands that once were holding my waist are now on my face and his fingers were touching the inner of my neck, lifting my head slightly, making our eyes meet and for more than a minute, only silence can be heard, before yoongi start talking « I meet less than year ago, and i never thought you will became this important to me. I told you i will not confess my love SO i will not, earlier i asked you for a month now i will change it i think i need more, in three months i will confess, if i got rejected then, i promise you i will forget about you and will never ask you out again, but i want you to wait for me till then ok ? i will not ask too much from you just look at me. I may not be the perfect man but just look at me, i know who you have in your heart but let me try maybe i can win .. One more thing, if you are willing to go to this job because of jungkook don't but if you really want to do it for yourself than i will not hold you .. i know you will do well but always remember sometimes it s alright to not be okay and to feel tired .. it's ok to be stressed or pissed .. it s ok to be angry and frustrated don't hold everything in.. and just do what you always do everything will be ok, i promise " his hand that was on my face didn't stop caressing my cheeks making me want him more and more. This feeling is pure desire ànd i don't want this feeling to take over me.
So for god sake hold on Luna
" Don't worry about me oppa, but i want you to eat well and rest.. don't over work yourself. Ok?"
"Mmh.." he nodded yet our gaze were locked all time.. Words we couldn't express with sentences are traveling through our eyes.
I can not deny how much yoongi helped me and if it wasn't for him i would never be here now.
Only inch apart were separating us, but i could feel this distance getting smaller with every second.. am leaning or is he ? Are we going to kiss? Should i stop ? But my body is not even listening.. I can not distinguch but one thing for sure is i don't want to pull away.
Slowly my eyes closed, my body was waiting for the impact but what i felt on my lips was not his lips but his hand.. my eyes opened instantly to see him leaning . We were kissing but with his hand on between our lips. Like a wall separating two people. His hand was separating our lips. Why did he do that ? It s not like the first time yoongi attempt to kiss me? And he always did.
" Don't look at me like that Luna, you don't know how much i want to kiss you but this time i will wait for you to do it.. i don't want you to kiss me because of temptation or because you don't want to push me or anything like that.. I want a kiss that means you love me, that means i have a place on your heart, that means you wnat to be mine so .. i will be waiting for this special kiss. Even though i am not sure it will come.."
This moment was cut by a banging on my door. Yoongi sighed and i got pissed. Aiiish who can be the one who came other than bangtan who never knock? Who the hell is annoying me?..wait bangtan i think, i made a mistake giving them my passeword. Oh no i didn't give it to them they discover it alone those crazy boys.
I pulled away from yoongi who just stayed on his place and went to open the door to be surprised by the one standing outside.
"Oh park seo jin-Shi?" What is he doing here in the middle of the night ? Oh wait before asking question and starting to talk with your self .. god , i am wearing a pyjama in front of this handsome actor. I wish it was a correct pyjama, just small short and a tshirt i got from bangtan. Oh you saw him like 5 times and you are more or less friendly with him why are you being so shy? Why am i shy ? Not i am more embarassed then shy .. holy i am looking like .. don't forget your messy bun teased my conscious. please!!!
"Usually, you let your guest standing outside ?" He teased
"Oh of course no no, come in , i was just surprised .. how did you know where i live ?"
"Oh i was passing by so i called taetae to wish him luck for his tour and i asked about you so they told me you moved next door"
"Oh oh i get it now.. anyway you are welcome.. just feel comfortable.. i am preparing tea. Want some or do you prefer something cold like beer or juice or water ? "
" i will go for a beer"
"Ok"
"Do you live alone ?"
"No, supposed to be but since the day i moved to this house, bangtan moved with me, like now for exemple, i think suga slept on the kitchen i don't hear his noise anymore " i laughed walking to the kitchen to find suga on his phone" oppa, so you weren't sleeping, anyway park seo jin is here"
"To see me of course"
"Ok i am going home, have fun " he replied shortly but sternly
"Oups are you angry ?"
"No"
"Then why are you acting cold?"
"I am tired"
"You are jealous " i laughed at him
"Yes i am, why can't i ? you have a lot of man around you, it's not easy to win your heart.."
"But my one and only best friend is you" i can feel him more relaxed after these sentence and a small smile come out from his mouth. He walked towards me kissed my cheeks and went out. He said hello to park seo jin on the way home i could hear them talking for a little and then he left.
I think his cute when jealous, all girls will be happy when someone is jealous over them.. even if he is a friend called Min yoongi and very handsome.
I walked back to the room with a beer and cup of juice. The tea got bured after all, because of who ? Min yoongi!!
" so how are you ?" Park seo jin asked engaging a conversation.
" Fine, as always work and sleep and work and sleep and you Seo jin-shi"
"You will talk formally with me forever ? "he questioned actind annoyed.
"Oh i can change it right away if you want"
"I hope so, we are friends after all and try saying oppa"
"Sorry but this one is a little bit hard for now, i will go for Seo jin-ah"
"Mmh ok for now.. anyway tell me are you in relationship with suga ?"
"No we are just best friends "
"Ohhh... " eyeing me wih a smirck
"I swear " i laughed at his teasing
"I just hope i was not disturbing you this late , hehe"
"Oh no, not at all !! i am happy to see you again it's been such a long time. just, I am sorry i am not in a very presentable look"
"You are always pretty" with that the door opened and the band entered making so much noise. Wait it s not even all the boys just taetae, jimin and namjoon.
"Why so noisy?? And you can't knock before you enter? " i was still walking but there is tae who crashed on me like a bomb, he was half sitting on the sofa and half on me. Raffling my hair and pinching my cheeks. am i a baby ?holly
"Noona why tire you when we know the passeword?"
"Because it's invasing privacy and get of me tetae you are heavy"
"No i miss you so much" he whined
"But i saw you 2 hours ago, oh my god this baby is gonna kill me one day .."
"i miss you aleardy, i don't care my noonaaa"
" oh my god, Seo jin-ah do you see what i have to survive everyday, with this bunch of kids? » complaining with puppy eyes, wishing someone will move this heavy body from me.
« Taetae, let her go, you are chocking her » Seo jin defended, finally someone talk because my dear other members are having a fight of a beer.
« but hyuuuung, we will not see her for 3 months »
« Taaaehyungiiiieee, there is a thing called face time, KakaoTalk, Skype .. Phone! whatever you want » i moved around making him fall on floor and stand up to the kitchen searching for more drinks for the boys so they can shut up.
Between fights and laughter The night went on like that, Taetae was the first one to fall asleep after getting too much drink. Soon after Park seo jin passed away, i thought he is able to hold alcohol more than that but he was really funny when he is drunk as for jimin he left in the middle and i am more than sure he went to a club or to meet some of his girls. The only one who survived are me and namjoon, me it's normal since the only thing i had the right to drink was either juice or water .. and as always the leader is the one who holds alcohol the most. So we moved to the kitchen after making sure that Taetae and The actor were covered and in a comfortable places.
« Luna, i will miss you, sweet girl » Pulling a chair next to me and throwing his hand over. I looked at him and i had the desire to « Oh, the leader is confessing to me » .
« A person should never act sweet with you, sucha pain on the » { it's always fun to mock him because he easily could get angry hehe}
« I just wanted to tease you joonie, you know i will miss all of you a lot » looking at him with cute eyes { yes good Luna, tease then plead him}
« Some more than Some, right ? »
« Nooo »
« Stop lying »
« i am not, really »
« Ok ok, i will not insist »
« Joonie, please take care of yourself and take care of them, don't forget about me in 3 months, ok ? i will make sure to annoy you everyday with messages »
« Please shut up, forgetting you ?as if anyone of us can, even in ten years you will always our little princess Luna »
« Thank you for everything you've done for me, i am living the best moment of my life, with everything that happened, yet i can say those moments are the most beautiful »
« And thank you for being with us, but now is time to sleep, tomorrow, you will have to prepare your luggage and wake up early »
« Ok ok, i am going to sleep » i stand up and walked to my room to grab some blankets for rapmon trying my best not to trip on tae who strangely moved and was sleeping on the floor while Park seo jin sis still on the couch, i was walking out of my room when namjoon passed me and walked to MY bed « Holly what are you doing that's my bed !! » i stated with an irritated voice.
« i am too lazy to go back home and the floor is not very comfortable when you are sober » he simply replied, taking of his shirt and sliding under MY matteress, on MY bed { Luna you slept in his bed and he never complained so why are you like that? But it's been a long time. i don't know, conscious have you ever helped me ?}
« and where should i sleep then ? » i asked pretending to be stupid.
« Luna, we slept together a hunderd times what are you acting about ? »
« first, it wasn't a hundered times just 10 or so on and i am acting like that because there is Seo jin-ah out, what will he think tomorrow ? »
« Come here, come .., he will think whatever he want, none of your business and shut down the light on your way »
« All of you love embarassing me, just move to the other side, that's my place » i groaned at him closing the light.
« What a nagging woman »
« Bla bla bla » i hummed and slided on my bed, namjoon is not the touchy type he will not hold me when he sleep neither touch me, he usually backface me and sleep within the first 3 seconds, so it's like sleeping alone. « Goodnight joonie »
« Goodnight princess and don't you dare sleep with any GOT7 members ok ? »
« Arraso arraso »
Waking up in the morning with something very heavy on you is not funny, i tried to move but i felt like a dead body was laying on me, i thought it was namjoon since he slept next to me yesterday but i was surprised to find taehyungie hugging me like an octopus, His head was resting on my chest and his hands enrolled on me as long as his feet, i felt like a pillow between his arms, Wait ! Where is namjoon ? oh i looked around to find him laying on the floor hugging the mattress, what did i do in my past life to have those kids ? they are more than strange when it come to sleeping, i was about to shake taetae a little to make him wake up but wait i don't want to be the first thing he see when he wake up since the first time i woke him, he made my heart drop so from that day i gave up waking him up. But this little was pretending, he slowly opened his eyes when all i wanted was him sleeping. Wait what if i pretend i am sleeping ? maybe he will not act stupid like every morning, ok that's gonna work ?let's hope for it. I took a big breath and closed my eyes, opening my mouth slightly, you know like a sleeping person. I felt him moving his head and i thought he is moving away,you know what i am still wondering how did he reach this place when i left him all drunk in the living room. that's really strange. Stop talking with yourself and focus on the fact that Taetae didn't move, you were dreaming Luna , how did you thought that you will be having a normal morning with Taetae sleeping on you.
Suddenly a Warm breath hitted my face, what the fu*ck is this boy doing from the morning, i am far from enjoying that. « Kim Taehyung , if you still want to be called dad, you'd better stop or i swear i will cut your junior down there » i yelled at him with my eyes closed and i am sure he will think twice before doing anything.
« But noonna i just want a kiss »
« Go find a girlfriend and kiss her as much as you want »
« i want your kiss, i have been dreaming of a morning kiss from you since forever please plweeesee i promise it will be the first and the last, Pweease pleassee »
« it's not the first taetae »
« Pweeeeasse, , Luna noona, i am be..g.g ... » i didn't let him finish i holded his cheeks and gave him a smack. « Satisfied ? Now get up »
« Not satisfied i want mooooooore »
« KIM TAEHYUNG, More of what ? » namjoon who was sleeping in the floor wake up angry and i am more than sure that he was awake a while ago and he know everything, Luna you are fu*cked up, you will get scolded.
Taetae was out of the room in less than second, Rapmon is scary when he is angry especially in the morning, oy. I was getting up after him, but namjoon mumbled « only him getting morning kiss !! » what the fu*ck with them this morning, i thought i will get scolded because i kissed taetae, oh oh it's not a kiss just a smack, it doesn 't count, but he is whining he want one, i ignored him and went out, Seo jin was not here anymore but he left a post-it saying he is thankful but he have to go to work that's why he didn't stay for breakfast.I was walking to the kitchen, but hoseok, who come out from nowhere, throw me in his shoulder and took me to their dorm to find all of them angry and taehyung bragging about his kiss, OH MY GOD ! Am i in a kindergarden or what ?
« Why is he the only one getting kissed ? » chimchim smirked next to me and i hit his feet. Yoongi who was sleep walking, didn't seem to notice and i hope he didn't hear anything but in other hand from the look jungkook is giving me he is aleardy aware of that thing. hey Luna and why do you care? it's not like he is your man or something like that, so gget a hold of youself can you ?
« Yah Yah , it was only a smack not even a kiss, i do it all the time with my brother, , it's not really a big thing so shut up jimin» i glared at him
« Then give all of us a smack » jungkook annonced making all eyes divert on him.
« OH NO NO NO » holy shiiiiit is he in his right mind, it's aleardy hard to just look at him let alone kissing, i think he became crazy, he is not normal no no.
« Why ? you said it's normal ? » before i could answer him, the sleeping yoongi saved me « Luna, i think you better get ready, you only have 30 minutes left, hurry up, the president of JYP will be here soon » he said glaring at the maknae who shurgged his shoulder and went to his room.
« WHAT ? JYP why ? how ? where ? now ? »
« just go » I run to my house as fast as i could, and i did my best to get ready , i put on a nice floral dress and a semi high heels. Yes i am dressing up for my new job http://picture-cdn.wheretoget.it/23afl6-l-610x610-skirt-black-white-high+heels-shirt-fashion-cute-summer-outfits-dress-stylish-coat.jpg
The manager of got7 called and i had to go, after all yoongi lied,JYP wasn't coming here, he was just saving my a*ss or let's say repaying back the fact i kissed taehyung in a very indirect way of punishement, this as*sh*ole yet he always save me. so i can't be nothing but thankful
I will not see the boys for the next few months and the hardest thing to do was to say goodbye, oh wait it's not a goodbye, just see you soon, yet i am unable to say it, i can't but i have too. I took my luggage down and greeted the manager who seem nice asking him for a few more minutes, i walked to their dorm, to find them gathered in the living room, a rare thing, especially on a free day. usually everyone is doing his thing, but today they were here to say bye expect for yoongi.
« Kids, i have to go who wants a hug » i jocked holding my tears
« No one, you can go » teased chimchim back
« Oh ok » i my heels when one backhugged me. « Always naive and idiot, yet i will miss you a lot » jimin whispered on my ear with a y voice.
« My flirtious man, me too » i turned to hug him back, taehyung snatched me away « thank you for the kiss, the best in all my life » he annonced and before i could answer rapmon and jin crashed me between them. Hoseok who was right behind namjoon stole me from them and the only thing still keeping my tears are his cherry smile, he kissed the top of my head and wished me luck, Jungkook was leaning on the wall next to hoseok, and i hesistated for a moment if i should hug him or not, but ended up throwing every second thought and did it, i hugged him mumbling « take care of yourself golden maknae and listen to your hyungs »
« Take care » i raffled his hair and pulled away. Wait there is someone missing !! Where is yoongi ? ? don't tell me he will not say goodbye, i will kill him, My eyes were exploring the place i was in, where is he ? « Luna, yoongi went out a while ago » rapmon who noticed me searching decided to inform me.
« Oh ? Ah ok, tell him hi for me then and don't forget to make sure you all are okay, annyeong » i waved to them and quickly ran out, my tears were threatening to come and i didn't want them to be sad. While waiting for the elevator, a jacket lended on my shoulder, and a panting yoongi was standing behind me, « i thought i will not reach you in time »
« Why are you panting ? what's that ? » i said holding the jacket, that seemed new.
« Always keep yourself warm, Be careful my baby girl, All boys are wolfs, i will make sure to call you everyday » with those words he took me in his arms and hugged me very tightly, My hands were enrolled around him. Yoongi is more than a brother, a bestfriend or evena lover, he is someone i can give my life for, because no matter how cold and arrogant he may seem, he never failed once at protecting me during those months i've been with them.
The elevator made end to our happy moment and he pushed me in, «thank you » those were my last words before the door closing
Time come for a new experience and a new job, and like every time the anticipation and the fear of the unknown is making my heart beat faster than usual, I thought maybe because it's not my first time i will not be stressed or excited but i am, and even as much as the first day i got my job with bangtan. Bangtan, Exo and now Got7 but no matter what i will always be a member of bighit and that's what matter for me.
Will got7 accept me ? how hard will it be to deal with them ? are they worse than EXO ? I hope no, i really hope no, because i tried living with people who don't really appreiate my presence and it's very tiring so let's wish for the best yet Luna expect the worst. Let the new experience begin.
What will change in her life?
how will those 3 months go?
Will she love again?
Yoongi ? Jungkook? Or another one?
Want to know then stay tuned .... <3
AN//
Before starting to write this story i was a silent reader who always imagined scenarios by himself, but then i decided to write and i am still very inscure about it, i know i make a lot of mistakes and i am sure not all people will love this story, but now i understand how much every like or every comment make me want to write more, i understand that the love of even one person for this story make me want to write just for this person. Thank you for your support reaallly..
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