After confirming what i just saw, anger got the best of me, I am not someone who can get this angry easily, i know how much i can be indifferent but i don't know what took me, the accumulations of the day, the fight i had with bangtan, the pain coming from the cut, i don't really know but my mind went black, I pushed sehun away, letting him look at me in awe, i didn't even give him the chance to react back and walked searching for the so called friend suho in the dorm "Lay shi have you seen suho?" i asked while anger is just rising up with every step i make

"yes i think he is in kai's room, the second one at your left, Why ?" i didn't answer him and i stormed in there pushing the door with my feet making Kai and Ximin inside jump from surprise, i don't even have the strength to control my self, just like bolling water, i hate it when someone whom i really care about and treat like a friend , treat me like a b*tch, i am willing to accept it from a stranger but never from a friend , Right now every resonning cell that used to work on my brain is shut, i walked to the bed he was in knocking it with my feet making him sit up and look at me, i bend down to his level looking straight in his eyes saying  "Sorry if our session of disturbed you, dear FRIEND,  Next time i will make sure to moan silently, yet i am more than certain that bragging to your room would have been a better choice to ask us to shut up than the fu*king words you sent me, yet you know what JUNMYEON-Shi, i don't blame you, i blame myself  for not going home, i blame myself for staying here and mostly i blame myself for trusting a person like you. It's very normal for you to treat me like a who*re since i walked in a house of 9 boys at the middle of the night, yes i am a b*tch who  come in here thinking in worst case i had you by my side, i was confident, i said Suho is trustworthy friend, no one will hurt me " i leaned back laughing sarcastically before adding more "hehehe , yet i was totally wrong even the few who don't enjoy my presence didn't do it." i said pointing to kai and sehun one who followed after me , i took in a good breath and walked to the door before i remmeber one last thing to say so i titled my face and stared at his confused expressioni still don't know how i retained myself from slapping his face out "I forget to tell you two more thing, i am so sorry i will not quit because i am not here only for you but if you think you are more almighty than working with a wh*re fire me or else deal with a b*tch like me for the few more hours remaining, and don't you dare ask for forgiveness because i don't fu*king care anymore about you or about this friendship " my voice was steady yet sharpe as a knife, i never thought such a cold tone could exist within me, i caused a comotion and iwhile quitting the room i felt that mostly all of them were gathered in the door with mouth wide open,  i just passed them, grabed my bag from the couch and walked out. I should have listened to bangtan when they advised me to stay home, i shouldn't have stay here , i shouldn't have trusted anyone, yet i never learn from my mistakes. i heard someone call after me but i runned to the first ally i found, i don't want to see any fu*king person especially any EXO members. First i am abused by their fans and then i am treated like a wh*re by their leader, let's not forget, the headache that caused me the others, i am human for god sake. 

SUHO POV

the maknae kicked me out of our room to let her take shower and he even locked the door behind me, they are acting strange since earlier, don't tell me they aleardy hooked up together, oh now, i aleardy prevented them all to not touch her nor look at her more than a friend.

I swear i am going crazy, i pathed the corridor in front of my room a hundred time yet it's been almost 30 minutes and she didn't go out.

and suddenly i started hearing some strange voice, more like and yelling "Ahh", one word cought my attention more than others "Be gentle" i don't know what took me i walked to kai's room, stole Lay's bed after kicking him out of it, it always happen and i do know he don't mind and i sent her a message. i don't know what was that burning feeling i had in me , but it's as if someone stole my precious person away from me. i know she saw me as a friend and i thought i did too, yet seeing her wih another one of exo, is making me angry, i was lost in my thought when she stromed in the room, she was more than angry, like a boiling oil, i have never seen here like that.

I just listened to her without talking, She said some words that made me realise the weight of the message i sent,  i don't know what to took me to send something like that, i know she is not this type of person. i surely fu*ked up for good, i didn't even find the courage to say anything. she was right in every word she said. i should have trusted her more than judging her like that. all the boys started gathering in the room when she walked pass them and went out, i was about to go after her but Kai holded me and he went instead. if i walked after her she would kill me i am sure, yet i knew that i lost a good friend. will she forgive me?

she was really someone who tried her best with us, she tried to pull on a smile no matter the situation, all day trying to cheer for us, with an encouraging word or smile and sometimes a hug. even those who treated her badly she didn't care, she treated them the same as us, if sehun fell for her i can understand him well but i really wanted to know what happened in there and i will make sure to get the information i needed. i ordred the boys to go back to sleep and walked to my room waiting for sehun who was holding his phone typing something, and one thing for sure he is talking to her.

"Maknae what happened in here , i heard strange voice" i asked when he layed in his bed

"nothing hyung" he continued looking at his phone ignoring me

"Maknae spill it out, before i make you do it"

"I said nothing hyung, just you shoud have not sent such a message, i know you more rational, what happened to you?" he asked instead of answering and my patience is sliping away from me.

"Maknae, for god sake speak what happened in here"

"Hyung i will not tell until you promise me that you will not utter a word not even to her, because i will be dead and she will lose her job, she pleaded me so much to shut up but just because we knew each other for 9 years now and you are like a hyung for , so i will trust ou with this one"

"Utter the word you are killing me"

"Promise me before?"

"I give you my word"

"Hyung she was hitted by some saesang today on SBS, that's why she was wearing my jacket when we come back. I heard them talking and i found her in the floor with some many cuts and bruises all over her body especially her waist and chest, she even have some in her face, yet she was able to cover it with make up, she was really in need of hospital yet she didn't let me, and she pleaded that i don't say anything to anyone and i  promised not to yet, here i am telling you, today she was sleeping her because i threatned her if she didn't i will tell and in our room she just took a shower since she needed one yet she don't trust us enough to use the bathroom outside, after that i was just cleaning her cut, that's all that happened in here" he took out a big breath and continued while i just stared at him in shock, JUNMYEON YOU FU*KED UP VERY HARD" hyung, she was afraid for us more than for herself, she didn't want to let rumor say that exo's fans hurted the staff, she didn't want to let Bangtan know about this matter saying they will not let her continue being here, yet she wanted to end her 3 days with us no matter what, you owe her a very big apologie, even though i am sure she will not accept"

could i say another word? could i add more to that? i hurted someone who cared about us, i learned today the weight of words that a person can spill out, Words can not be taken back and an apologie will never wash the pain caused by them, i closed my eyes laying on the bed and tried to sleep. yet my only thought was HER

Luna POV

Look at me almost 4 am in the morning wondering in the streets. No cab in view and No one to call, i really wanted to speak with my boys yet i didn't want to worry them more than that. i swear i dialed their number more than once yet i stopped in the end, let's not add fuel to the fire. i walked in the first convenience store, bought some ice cream and choclates, yes the best thing that can deal with depression is sweets and i walked to the park nearby where we ate dinner before.

Sometimes no matter how hard you work for people they will only see the bad in you, Let's not think about anything..  i wanted to listen to some music but my battery is almost dead, nothing is working right for me today, but let's endure it, i just have one more day to go and tomorrow i will see my babies so it's ok.. let's just watch the star { i really like looking at the sky at night}, i took out my ice cream and started digging in it until a shadow sat next to me putting a jacket on my shoulder and offering me a hot drink, i pulled away a little, i shouldn't show my fear but i am , until he spoke " it's strange to see someone eating icecream in the cold "

"Oh" i  looked at him, it's the cold bastard AKA Kai, how the h*ll did he found me.

"i didn't know your dorm looked like the nearby park" he sat down next to me looking up he is saying that because i aleardy sent  amessage to sehun telling him i will see them at work tomorrow ,and i am home, i didn't want to make them worry or go search for me.

"it's cool home right? i own a bed in the fresh air" i replied sarcastically 

"stop it with your sarcasm"

"Go back from where you come,  we have work tomorrow" i replied taking a bigger spoon of my ice cream

"not until you go with me" he simply stated and i looked at him strangely, is he acting nice ? or am i dreaming?

"since when do you care for me" i asked

"since now"

"Really go back jongin-shi, i am not in the mood for your games nor your talks"

"told you not until you come with me"

"You know do whatever you want, and now let me sleep" i said to him as i layed my back in the grass looking at the beautiful stars, yet he didn't leave but layed next to me. we stayed like that for a good moment until he broke the silence "it's my first time seeing someone spoke to suho or any of us like that"

"humm.."

"can i ask what did he say?" i tossed the phone to him with the message on the screen.

"he didn't mean it like that, i think he was pissed because you acted very friendly with sehun for the last few hours and it's strange. and when we were in my room, we heard some .." he whispered the last words

"because we were fu*king, simple"

"stop lying, i may not know you a lot but i am sure there is something else"

"don't believe it if you don't want, but i told you"

"you want me to believe that you and the maknae in less than 5 hours became a couple and you are making out in the dorm?"

"Who told you we are a couple? we just for pleasure"

"Our maknae will not touch a girl he don't love and who isn't his girlfriend, yet you too will not do it, i know" he said assuring me

"you don't know me and he maybe love me"

"stop lying, i will not ask more, ok ok, don't tell me" he replied pissed of and sitting up

"you believed in me when My so called friend didn't so strange" i grumbled to myself

"HE was jealous"

"jealous? my a*s!"

"i swear he may be jealous, i don't know but he may be like you, you're the only friend who he treat like that, at first i thought because even you treated him differently than all of his friends especially girls who want him just for his fame, yet after tonight i am sure he is in love"

"Kai, first i am sure he don't yet i don't care if he was jealous or not, i don't care if he love me or hate me, i don't really care about all those matters, i trusted him the most, i really cared for him, i was so happy to have him as a friend but all he have done was hurting me SO one thing for sure, he will never be the same in my eyes, matter closed" i said sternly yet i was lying to myself i treated him like a best friend, i really enjoyed being around him, it's true he hurted me but he helped me too a lot those days, he was there when i needed him, i jsut can't believe i lost a friend. m y mind and heart are battling one want to forgive and the other is stubborn.

"ever heard of second chance?" he asked

"never"

"you are so stubborn"

"and you'are so annoying, i told you to go back home aleardy, at least sleep an the few remaing hours before work please" i pleaded i want to be alone.

"i swear you are strange"

"Aissh,, " i ruffled my head and covered my eyes with my hands preventing myself from any tears while rethinking about my words, i was harsh too..

i talked more with kai but about other things than this problem, he told me about his passsion of dance and how much he is depressed when he got injured and i narrated some of my stories to him especially my first meting with the boys and how i ended with them. i found myself laughing with him it' s so strange to talk like that with him. since he always act cold , "Do you miss bangtan?" he asked out of nowhere

"More than you can imagine, for exemple exactly like you miss your girlfriend"

"Ho..."i cut him before he finish

"i can tell you love her a lot, and that's a good thing, i wish you will continue together" he is always stuck to his phone, i cought him smiling sometimes while recieving a message, and everyone knows about his relationship with Krystal.

"you really mean it?" he looked at me while i sitted down.

"of courseee, why not? 

"just because i am not used to people saying that and mostly they are wishing for our break up"

"then here is your number one shipper"

"thank you"

"no my turn to ask how did you know i was here?"

"Let's say i followed you when you went out and , i am sorry we didn't start in a good step, yet now when it's ending i started feeling you deserved a chance"

"Told you so"

"Arrogant as always, yet will you still be our friend when you go back with bangtan? "

"Certainly NO, are you crazy,? each time i saw you i will change direction" i mocked shaking my head hard and he was shocked at my reaction.

"Yaaahh why ?" he hitted my shoulder and i flinshed a little, i aleardy have a bruise in there.

"because You asked a very stupid question, so just shut up and give me your phone"

"Why ?"

"Stop asking questions your annoying" i scolded and tend my hand to recieve his  phone, he gave it and i saved my number on it (the coolest life coacher)

"it's true i got in a fight with Suho, yet my problem is not with EXO, so if you are willing to consider me as a friend than i will be more than glad to always be here when you need me, and now let's go home wwork will start soon" i stand up taking the dust i got in me after giving him a hand to help him stand up to

"Finally you decided to come with me, oh i can't feel my a*s anymore from siting in this cold grass" he jocked

" no i am taking you home and gonna grabe my bike at SBS and we will meet in the shooting place"

"First I am not a little kid who need someone to take him home and second SBS is very far from here so how will you get there"

"crawling of course"

"you piss me off you know" he frowned at my mocking

"you don't know how much you did you too yet the day, you don't ask stupid questions i will be less annoying, i will grab a cab, So sleep a little bit since it's almost time for work, if director come to know about it, i will be DEAD" i declared emphasing the last word.

"i will protect you" he winked at me ily while we were walking

"Aww disgusting" 

"a lot of girls dream to be in your place right now"

"oh sorry to have dreams bigger than fangirling over you cold bastard"

"you will not stop calling me that"

"Never, and now go on, i will take a cab from here, and please tell sehun to bring a jacket for me i don't think i will have time to change" i gave him back the jacket he putted earlier on me yet he ignored my hand "leave this one on you, See you later" and he runned away, i waited for him to enter the house before grabing a cab, i am still wearing sweet pants and this sweet shirt yet don't really have time to do anything, i will just put on the jeans i have in the bike and leave this shirt and the jacket. i am even wearing their clothes now, what a shameful person.

Time skip; 

I reached the location before them, i made sure to find a bathroom to put on some makeup on my bruises and on my cerned eyes, i look like a panda. endure it Lunait's the last day.

I walked out to find them all here, My attitude didn't change with any of them, i am just more friendly with kai, i greeted them with a big smile, i believe in happy days even if i am sad inside,  chanyeol and baekhyun hugged me but i scolded them since we were getting glare from the staff and i ,in my case got scolded by sehun for leaving like that and spending the night out., the only one whom i was distant with was Suho yet it hurts.. unless he wanted something related to work i don't go near him.

We have an all day photoshoot, the group pictures and photshoot passed pretty much fast, and here comes the individual ones, i just tried my best to help them with the little knowledge ii had, they were really treating me good, more better than usual, they are not afraid of me right? hehe, they must be stupid Luna after the scene you made yesterday. Lay was the last one to have his photo yet he was aleardy ready,  so he joined me in the corner watching them from afar, " sorry, for our leader yesterday he is under so much stress"

"You don't have to apologise for him and he didn't do anything wrong, he may be right and i am sorry for the comotion i made, you must be startled"

"it's ok, yet I know and you know he was not right " Lay added croosing his hands and looking at the others.

"if you say so heheh" i laughed nervously, he is one of the member who can see through you so i better just avoid the matter

"Are you happy you are leaving today ?" he asked

"A truth or a lie?" { i don't know my feelings, let me think ..}

"I will go with half truth-half lie"

"Then Yes very happy " i smiled looking at his confused face

"what's that? it seems like a whole truth"

"The half truth is yes i am happy, i missed bangtan a lot, and the half lie is very" i replied trying to act philosophical

"Okey give me the whole truth or a whole Lie,  girls are so complicated"

"the whole truth is even though i am happy to see my boys, i know i will miss my days with you, that's why i try to make the best out if it, and even though it wasn't easy dealing with some, but because of the handsome angel i am talking with, i had fun and  learned a lot,so when i see you around, i hope you don't ignore me at least" i replied with all the sincerety i had because that's what i truely felt, i know i can't exchange bangtan but Exo was a good experience in my life no matter the hardship i got.

"Speak for yourself" he blushed and looked away

"When did i ?"

"You will i am sure, after the pain you've got in only 3 days, i am still impressed how you didn't run away"he leaned to my ear and whispered "I know about the saesangs"

"HO*Y S*IT how" and i put my hand in my mouth when i knew i am speaking louder than necessary," i saw you walking out lumping with sehun from the bathroom yesterday, add to that some visible blue thing you have in your neck, .it's easly to detect that"

"Did you tell anyone? " i asked hoping he didn't, that's all i care about.

"I respected your decisions to leave it a secret" i hugged him from happiness and i quickly pulled away."Thankk youuu yixiang, thank you very much"

"it's nice to find you learned my name" he just laughed slightly at my reactions {i am exageratting}

" yeah and even know your birthday" i said proudly

"than i will wait for a gift?"

"is there any gift better than me ? no !! than here i am" we joked until the photographer called him.

i am aleardy dozzing off, i need to move my a little bit or i will sleep, i am really tired. i just roamed around looking for something to boast my energy, and then i walked to the van, it's aleardy mid day and i want to sleep at least 20 minutes. i asked their manager if i can do it and  he granted me that saying that it's almost lunch time and he will cover for me.

I took the back sit of the van , covered my self with kai jacket and slept, a while after, a phone started ringing, oh don't tell me my time is up i am still needy of some sleep, i hardly opened my eyes to find my head on Suho's lap while he was playing with my hair, I  yelled trying to get up but he forced my head down, Wait why am i like that? i just remember sleeping on here, when did he come? what time is it? so many questions and no clear answer. 

"Would you let me move" i stared deeply in his eyes from my position, i wanted to stand but the force he was excerssing on my head was strong enough to make it hurt when i move.

"not until you listen" he replied simple

"we don't have anything to talk about and even less in such position"

"I have a lot to say" he said with an intimidating voice.

"I don't, take of your hand, i am really unconfortable"

"ok as friends we don't but as a co workers we have and since you are our life coach so give me advice with this matter" he replied ignoring my attempt to sit up

"You want to play like that, Let me sit and i will listen" he let me sit up after my daggers that can perce his face if he continue with his childeshness

"A few days ago i meet a very interesting girl , She was beautiful and didn't start screaming the second she saw me, she couldn't even recognise and we fastly became friends, when i am with her our laughter never ends, she is like a source of good vibes,  i thought this friendship will last forever but because of my jealousy i ed up, so what can i do? even if i apologise, i know she will not forgive me, nothing will go back to how it was, i know i hurt her but i didn't want to , i really didn't mean to, i was just thinking someone is stealing this friendship away from me and i reacted in wrong way, what can i do to  make her forgive me?" he leaned putting his hand on his faces while his elbow were resting on his knees., i really tried my best not to cry at this moment, i hate losing a friend , i really hate losing someone yet i don't know..https://i.ytimg.com/vi/fgbQuMffqzc/maxresdefault.jpg

"since you hurt her, it will be very hard for her to forgive you" i replied coldly

"You mean it's not impossible" he looked at me with shining eyes like a little kid

"i never said that"

"Yes you did"

"no"

"yes"

"NO, and let me go now, i have to go back to work"

"we are working so we can stay here as much as i want " he provocked me and i pouted angry

"Stop being a kid and move from my way" he was cornering me in the back of the van, so i can not go out unless he take his a*s off.

"want me to act like a man?" he winked at me

"i don't want anything from you just move from my way, please Suho shi"

"Not until you forgive me"

"First you have a long way to go for me to forgive and second  i will go back to sleep wake me up when you decide to let me out" i rested my head on the window covered myself with the jacket and closed my eyes ignoring him.

"Luna please"

"No" i looked at him strictly and he knew its useless even though i was hurt, because i really concidered him like a bestfriend , i don't know what to do next. but i am not ready to let it go he must learn from that. one thing for sure i will surely forgive him one but not now. 

i walked back to the location to find the director waiting for me "Hello Sir" i said confused, it's rare to see him in our working location

"Hello, young lady, i was searching for you"

"Ah sorry, i was having a fighting session with the leader" i joked around and he laughed

"Hearing that, i can guess you became friends with everyone, i am glad" he is not very strict yet his charisma is surely stunning.

"let's say, i used to have some haters too, but as for today i can say i've got a whole lot of friends, i hope i didn't disppoint you at least on anything"

"the truth is you made better result than my expectations, i guess i know why Hitman is so fond of you"

"Thank you very much, it's my pleasure" i replied even though i don't seem to see anything changing in those three days but he is more expert than me, so just agree girl

"Can i ask one last thing from you before you leave?" he stated

"Of course, i am at your service"

"Then would you work one more day with us, or let's say it's just a half day? Tomorrow will be the last show in Music bank for the boys and the debut of the sub unit CBX, i want you to be with them can you?" he said and i facepalmed myself why do i agree before waiting for the proposition , sometimes i am really stupid, i want to be with my boys, they also have MV bank tomorrow. Aiiish, now deal with the two, you accepted.

"It's my pleasure, yes i will be here"

"Oh thank you, then we will talk again tomorrow, i must go now"

"Goodbye" i bowed after him and turned to the curious faces looking at me from afar. i walked to them, and explained everything,  the journey is not ending yet they still have this shooting going on and it's aleardy 7pm,  i never thought a shooting can last this long.

Time Skip ;

Finally it's 10 pm time to go back home, MY BOYS MUST BE AT HOME, they are supposed to come home today afternoon so i will find them at home, i will see them soon finally,, i am really excited, i missed them like h*ll. i am really containing myself from jumping like crazy.

I bid goodbye with EXO since their manager will take them home and i drived my bike to the dorm, i don't know how much i drived fast but i really made it in less than 30 minutes even though it was pretty far. i walked in but i didn't hear any noises, oh yeah it's really late, they must be asleep, i was a little bit disppointed yet i am sure they were tired as h*ll so. I went in trying to make as less noise as i can. i will see them tomorrow morning and the day after and the day after i just have to wait..  !! ok the first thing to do is a shower put my pyjama and Dodo, where will i sleep today ?  i will decide on that later. .

After a good shower, i put a new pair of undergrament since it's been two days i didn't change, oww disgusted..  and  i studied the bruises i had on my body. HOLY , The intensity of blue is going up more and more; i think i will have to put on a long sleeves today too, let's just hope no one found out about that... i started putting my shirt on when someone come in the bathroom half sleeping { he must have thought no one was here} yet his Eyes widened and his mouth went 2 times bigger in awe when looked at me. I AM ED UP FOR SURE.

 

AN// Who walked on her? what problem will rise from that? or will she be able to deal with it secretly? if you want to know wait for the next chapter.

I am really sorry for my messed up english. 

i am always willing to listen to your constructive critism so don't hold up on correcting me thank you ..