Dear Journal,

5th grade was the time I got teased big time. Group of boys called me "Gay" and "Girl" because of my facial features that resembles a girls'. My hair was long and thick, and that added more fuel to the fire. 

( Here's a photo of me and my teddy bear that Seungcheol gave to me on my birthday. Do I look like a girl? )

One time, I got locked inside the washroom because "someone" decided I should stay there for the rest of the day. That certain someone was Kim Mingyu. Yes, the boy who pooped his pants in school. I was there for an hour before Seungcheol came running to open the door for me. His eyes was painted with worry and that, I can remember because he often teased me of being an idiot and didnt realize the lock was inside the bathroom and not outside hehe. My parents were called in and the principal talked to my bullies and asked them to stop. Wrong move. 

After that, it got worse. They started single-ing me out. I got chosen last when we play games. Also the fact that I wasnt the most active person in class, no one wanted me to be in their dodgeball team. In contrast to me, Seungcheol was athletic. He was always chosen first and sometimes, teams fight over to get him. He was handsome and athletic, thus he was popular with his good looks and athletisism. And then there's me, Seungcheol's "gay" bestfriend, just like everyone picked on me.

 ( Here, is 5th grader Seungcheol. See th