Dear Journal,

During graduation ceremony, I walked the stage and recieved my certificate. Among the 200 students, Seungcheol stood up and applauded for me. Out of over 500 people watching the ceremony, he stood up and yelled my name out loud that his voice reasonated in the whole auditorium. 

"THATS MY YOON JEONGHAN!!" Seungcheol yelled and applauded for me. I can never forget those words because our principal made him sit down and my mom was filming me too, and you could hear his voice on the background hehe. He also whispered to me that my bestfriend was very supportive. I remember smiling softly to him and just nodding my head.

I got off the stage and went on my back to my seat which was way back, my last name starts with Y so. I walked past him and he smiled at me. He mouthed the words "congratulations" with his million dollar smile. God, I swear I died there. I missed him. I missed his smile. Especially if it was directed to me.

After the ceremony, my parents hugged Seungcheol while I stood far away. Our eyes locked and I couldnt read his eyes for the first time ever since ive known him. It was like he was longing, he was lost....... he was sad. Why did he look like hes sad? For all i know his dream girl Sooyeon gave him everything he'll ever need. He made his way towards me and goddamn, I was ready to open my arms to him. I couldnt ing hold it in anymore. I miss him. I miss him so ing muc