Wise narcissus

The Wish of Existence
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 The sounds of fingers swiftly striking plastic keyboard keys were oddly relaxing for a certain teenager. They tuned a amelodious symphony of the mundane and boring, exactly what he needed after having engaged in such heated conversations. His sisters, and now, the boy he was fond of. He was a walking mess, causing sadness to the people he adored. Maybe he wasn't a good person at all, that his paranoia to not be a bad, callous individual, has caused him to be opposite, becoming a counter-self-fulfilling-prophecy.

“You terrible ing bastard...!” he cursed at the reflection he saw at the screen of the phone. Furious at the sight of his own face, he turned the screen over, letting it charge without having to stare right at himself. In the meantime, sat at a computer, he perused an online forum where people shared their troubles. Many of the questions being about beauty, finances, personal relationships and mental health. Casually scrolling, he came across a question that made him scroll right back up, and reread it:

 

'I am in love with the wrong person, what should I do?'

 

Piqued by the familiarity of the question, Kyungsoo clicked on it, where he found a myriad of different answers and arguments.

 

'There is no such thing as the wrong person to love.'

 

An opinion Kyungsoo seemed to nod along; why is there love, if the person may individually be disagreeable to the person in question?

 

'Love isn't always magical, you sometimes make it work, even if it's hard.'

 

Though young, the fair student could sympathise with the level of commitment needed to keep a relationship afloat; it reminded him of his parents, they worked hard, even through the silence and the arguments, because at the end of their troubles, they still had each other.

 

'To get over someone, slide under another.'

 

Kyungsoo was lost on that one; what did that mean? Like a game of twister?

 

'You can't wish love away.'

 

Kyungsoo smiled resentfully, uttering to himself “You don't know the half of it.”

 

After his phone had its fill, Kyungsoo headed out of the computer room, looking at the device and acknowledging that he had time to spare. Seeing as he would not see Chanyeol, he decided to drop by Luhan's class.

His enviously attractive friend was indeed in his homeroom class, right a couple of corridors away from his own. Kyungsoo entered the opened door and looked around the classroom for his friend. Needless to say, due to the vibrant nature of his friend's hair, he detected him easily. He sat near the middle of the class, cans upon his ears, bobbing his head as his were glued to the screen of his phone. He approached the unsuspecting boy and placed his hands on the boy's shoulder, giving them a squeeze:

“Luhan.”

“Ah, Mother of - “ cursed the boy, shrinking and twisting due to the sudden press on his shoulder. He removed his cans and glared behind him. His glare softened into relief and sighed, “Holy marbles, Kyungsoo, that scared the sanctity out of me.”

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floralnori
#1
Chapter 29: Thanks for another great chapter! Kyungsoo is so lucky in his friendships. He doesn't have many friends, but the ones he has are so loyal and supportive and really only want the best for him. I'm glad he let Sehun into his life. And he actually seemed to listen, understand, and take what Sehun had to say to heart. I can't wait for their performance. They're going to show everyone!
floralnori
#2
Chapter 24: Kyungsoo keeps surprising, sometimes even shocking me. When he started shouting at Jongin, I actually had to step away from my computer for a moment. I knew the hallway was still filled with students on their way to class, and I didn't know what would happen next. And then Kyungsoo surprised me. Instead of curling into a ball of fear, he straightened his back and talked back to those that could hurt him. He's so brave in that moment. Great job, author-nim!
0818420
#3
Chapter 23: I think.......Sehun is Luhan's boyfriend???is it? Or just my lala imagination.... Lalalala...
bloodywidow #4
Chapter 19: T_T kyungsoo broke my heart when he ran from the library and broke down alone his walls are collapsing over him. I hope that something good happens to him...like finding a something he's passionate about again or a purpose for his life rather than wilting away for his sisters. Since his 2 best friends are gone, kyungsoo's time with jongin and kris is going to be more concentrated? can't wait to see how that goes!! at the end when you described him losing his wings .. I couldn't help but think of a fallen angel's image...will he change to the better/worse or will people change for him ? ahhh to many questions XDD
floralnori
#5
Chapter 17: I am so glad that Kyungsoo sat down and properly thought about how his actions and beliefs (trying to protect everyone, being their martyr) was affecting his friends and family. Actually he was a lot like Jongin in the last chapter not recognizing the power he has over others. I loved Kyungsoo's wishes for Chanyeol and Luhan. The one for Chanyeol was a little bossy but Luhan's was pure gold. I'm really glad they went through. :)
bloodywidow #6
Chapter 15: *spoiler*

REALLY interested in seeing how things develop between Kyungsoo and kris! Because of YOU and your “Long before I was yours” XD they are becoming my second favorite after kaisoo XD
If ANYTHING, this fiction, specially the acting parts in the theater, makes me wish you would do an alternative universe/magic/ dark world! I also wrote that while commenting in another fiction of yours and here I say it again…your way of writing is very regal and majestic that suits the older periods ..

English is not my first language but I hoped I conveyed my feeling and thoughts the right way .. and as always LOVE your art .. UPDATE as soon as you can XD!!!

P.S. the tag said comedy? Soooo.. is that a typo or the comedy is still to come?
bloodywidow #7
Chapter 15: *spoiler*

Nothing is for free in life...I’m afraid of that the rectangular mobile… "Lay" gave me the creeps and I'm afraid for Kyungsoo. It, in away, reminded me of death note... instead of the death you have a wish but at what cost? Does it really grant wishes or is it a mere coincidence? I hope that you focus more on abnormal part of the fiction… it gives it a different feel … but if that isn’t what you planned, that is okay too ^_^

I don't like the sisters... soojuung’s selfishness gets on my nerves...she is a huge reason why they are suffering… she can go to kyungsoo's school instead of that elite one but she chooses not to! She also knew Kyungsoo have the habit of skipping lunch for her and her sister and yet stayed quite. She also helps him get night shifts although the older sister specifically asked them not to.
The older sister is a non-factor to me in this story ..refusing soojung working in the 24/7 market but agreeing to let kyungsoo work is beyond me >.<'

how did luhan get kyungsoo's number? Maybe he is the one who bought it and gave it to lay to give it to Kyungsoo?

If jongin is going to fall in love with Kyungsoo, and he will XD, it is not going to be because of a wish.. he was taken the moment Kyungsoo lifted his gaze and acted! That is what shock and frightened him. I really don’t mind what he said to Kyungsoo ..everyone is entitle to their own opinion but shouldn’t act upon it to hurt anyone!
floralnori
#8
Chapter 14: I am so loving the bromance between the three boys. Luhan and Chanyeol accept Kyungsoo as he is, just as he accepts them. Which makes Jongin's narrow mindedness that much harder to stomach. My guts churned when he said it was wrong for boys to like each other and assumed Kyungsoo wasn't gay. Kyungsoo is so brave in that moment when he corrects him and admits that he is. His heart is breaking and he's still true to himself. :) Awesome.
floralnori
#9
Chapter 13: I am really enjoying this story! I love the combination of hyper emotional reality and magical realism. I always feel like I'm right inside of Kyungsoo as he experiences this world that's almost completely out of his control even with a wish-granting app. I am so glad he has his strong friendships with Chanyeol and Luhan. I am so confused by Jongin's almost dead reaction to Kyungsoo at the end of this chapter. Did the wish backfire and cause their emotional connection to self-destruct? I can't wait for the next chapter!
IMAGINEBYDRAGONS #10
Chapter 11: It's such a shame this story doesn't get the recognition it deserves. This is such a great story..sorry for the lack of vocabulary, I ran out of words to say. You deserved an upvote from me :)