Excerpt:

“Just this once, let me pretend that I have feelings for you… that I don’t hate you. That I married you because I love you…” Seungcheol asked in a hoarse voice, almost begging. His request stung and felt like a painful wound inside his heart.

It hurt. But Seungcheol’s drunken state, begging eyes, and miserable look made Jeonghan to just want to agree with everything this man would ask. Besides, when did he have the heart to refuse what this man wanted? Even if he asked him to give his life for him, he’d do it. Even if he asked him to give back his freedom, he’d do it. Even if it hurts, even if it kills him, even if Seungcheol didn’t learn to love him despite of the things he has done and is ready to do for him… Because what hurts most more than seeing the one you love hurt because of you? He’d rather receive all the pain than cause him more pain by just being with him.

I don’t have the right to be hurt, just like the way I don’t have any right to love him, because his heart already belongs to someone else… Because of my selfishness, he couldn’t be with the one he really loves…

A/N: Talk about martyrdom, yes! I have been really wanting to make [and explore] this kind of [angst] story and I will start with this. Just please… don’t expect too much from me. I’ve been having a lot of JeongCheol feels lately and I haven’t felt this way since KrisYeol (ya feel me? jk). More comments, faster update [your upvote is a bonus *winks*]

MY OTHER JEONGCHEOL FIC: Lovely Prankenstein

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