The next day was the hardest, I hadn’t slept, I missed her and I missed waking up to her in my arms. Even the shower felt ice cold despite being scorching hot and when I found one of her sweaters amongst my clothes I broke down again.

I didn’t eat breakfast, I just walked to university in a zombified state of consciousness and it wasn’t until I felt someone shaking me I realised Jongin was talking to me.

“What the happened to you?” Jongin demanded “You… you look like Kyungsoo.”

“She’s… it’s over.” I whispered.

Jongin’s eyes widened “What the do you mean it’s over?!”

“She wasn’t even herself!” I snapped at him as the tears filled my eyes again and Jongin seemed to deflate “She was living a lie. She wasn’t even being herself Jongin for s sake. She was pursuing me on the memory of her dead ing best friend from High school. Ilona… or whatever!”

“Ilona?” Jongin seemed to recognise the name “Holy Jimin was Ilona’s best friend?! The girl with the glasses?!”

I shot him a glare “Yes.”

“She pretended to be someone else? I don’t understand –”

“She was pursuing me to find out why her best friend was in love with me. She pretended to be someone she wasn’t because she thought I wouldn’t look twice at her.”

“That is ed up,” Jongin snapped “How dare she do that to you! After ing everything! How did you even find out –”

“Lola.” I muttered.

Jongin gaped “Lola told you…? And she was right?”

“I don’t want to think about it;” I raked both of my hands through my hair “I haven’t slept or ate. I just… how can I feel so ing heartbroken over a girl that didn’t ing exist.”

“But she did exist Kyungsoo,” He grabs onto my shoulders and I frown at him “You ever think that she became that person because of you? She spent so much time with you, she couldn’t have been faking this entire time Kyungsoo I saw the way she ing looked at you.”

I shrugged him off “What the does it matter? I don’t even know her!”

“You love her right?”

“Yes… no… I don’t ing know because I don’t know where the fake Jimin starts and the real Jimin ends!”

“Then what the are you doing?!” He snapped at me, towering over me “You were the one that said you didn’t want to give up on love because of what ing Lola did to you and here you are running from it. Yeah, it was pretty ty but her best friend l