[FLASHBACK 1 – DARA’S POV]

It was like my heart was cut by a blunt knife when hearing Bom accidentaly revealed that Jiyong was taking drugs. Recalling his weed smoking scandal years ago, I had been there and known for sure that he was not the type of person who threw life into garbage because of such illegal substance. But the fact that working in this music industry was really of no joke, especially when you were a leader of a talented boygroup like Big Bang.  Jiyong, who was easy to get mad whenever his songs did not turn out like he wanted or whenever he was so stressful, used to use drug for mind concentration. But I had stopped him doing that stupid thing after many beggings and much of my tears; finally, Jiyong had compeleted given up such wrongdoing. But why did he find such drug? He had everything now. I heard from Seung Ri that MADE album was being under post-production, and his relationship with Kiko was okay then (I commented to myself in bitterness and sadness). I didn’t understand myself any longer. First I upset Il Woo, my best friend and may be, according to Bom, the Mr. Right of me to worry for the guy that was dating another girl, having parties, having , travelling, exposing their romantic relationship to public front of my eyes as if I was nothing to him. I got annoyed to myself when every night I kept searching for news of Jiyong and I was even not brave enough to unfollow him on social accounts although I badly wanted to. I hated myself when searching for every Daragon moments that our fans made for us and cried. So stupid coz I knew for sure that I was nothing in his eyes but Kiko.

Nonetheless, the facts that I forced Bom to confirm that Jiyong looked unhealthy due to overwork and illegal drugs upset me much. I knew my ex-boyfriend was such a stubborn guy that no one can stop him doing anything he liked, even it was Yang Hyun Suk sajangnim. I wondered why Kiko did nothing to stop him, Jiyong would listen to her coz she was his girlfriend. The more I drowned myself in thinking about him, the more helpless I felt. People said “loving some one is giving him a full power to destroy you, and finally he did”. Although I tried my best to work, to meet my friends, to travel, to spend time with my family and 2NE1, all my attemptions were completely to hell and gone. Coz I couldn’t forget him, forever he was my boy, every night I closed my eyes, I just saw only him in my mind.

“How stupid you are, Dara! Even God can’t help you” – I whispered to myself when being left alone in the private studio of 2NE1 at 2 a.m.

[END OF FLASHBACK 1]

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[FLASHBACK 2 – JIYONG’S POV]

I had a secret. Kiko and I broke up for months ago, but I hadn’t told anyone, even Young Bae, because they looked down on me as a loser.  Maybe Dara was right (she was always right, I had to say); I was so stupid and so hungry for winning everything around me. During the early period of my relationship with Kiko, we joined parties almost every night, but I didn’t know that she let Dispatch take our photos and reveal them to public. Then, I was quite annoyed but I wanted Dara to pay for everything she said, I didn’t pay attention to them anymore. When I had been with Dara, she always wanted us to conceal our relationship because she had thought it was good for me and Big Bang. She told me that 2NE1 and Big Bang should be recognized by music quality, not romantic scandals, and I had respected her for that. However, the dating with Kiko was another different story; she was too exposed to public that I couldn’t catch up with, because I got used to the way Dara and me dating earlier. We started to fight, or more exactly she got mad while I often kept silence, she blamed me that I still thought about Dara since every damn outfit of mind reminded her of Dara (I didn’t know why Dara and I shared a lot of same clothes. Although most of YG artists’ outfits were from sponsors, Dara and I could easily choose costumes and clothes that look alike to each other without any prior agreement. Not only clothes but hairstyles also, Dara and me had used to laugh with each other for hours when we had some arguments about “who wore it better”. It seemed this habit was not easy to give up for both of us), (since)  whenever hearing everyone gave Dara bad comments, despite jokes,  I was annoyed (there was once I threatened her friend just because he had accidentally told a  group of common friends of Kiko and I that it was understandable Dara had been the one taking the least lines in every 2NE1’s songs because of her weak voice…I didn’t remember much about that event coz I had been too drunken and affected by drugs I had taken earlier… Kiko told me that I did pull his co