"He taught me how to drink.

Drops of alchohol stung my cherry lips

streamed through my pure veins

and poisoned my thin blood

My vision blurred

and my body felt unbearably incapacitated

yet as if I was floating on air

at the same time.

The strange thing about being intoxicated is

you feel euphoric

as your senses heighten

and your inner child

finally comes out to play.

But in actuality you know you are being constricted

inescapably trapped in your fears

forcibly dragged to the floor

and you cannot being yourself back up.

He taught me how to feel this way.

Like everything was right as rain

when I knew that in reality

my imagination had been ceased

and I had become a person nothing other than

a voiceless girl belongs to his selfish arms

and he made sure to hold me tight

He is the poison flowing through my veins.

-Jung Ah, summer 2016"

Sehun, I met him last year at a friend's party and we grew really close like we had known each other before. He never change, always having a cigarette on his hand, dressed in ripped jeans, basic t-shirt and sneakers like the first time I saw him. Sehun, he is annoyingly proud about himself, ditch college, never think about the future, and has problem with drugs but I see something more in him. He is not just what people see, he is...beautiful inside no matter how bad they judge him. To me he is a definition of bad boy who is a good man.

Sehun? I couldn't ask for more, he is more than enough to me.

Jung Ah, the first time I saw her was last year and I knew she is different. She is carefree, easy going and fun yet calm and relaxing. No one could understand me but her. She never demand nor question me. I have dark past, yes. My life is not all great and fancy, yes. But Jung Ah, she stayed, she was just simply smiling and said that she believed that all people have their own kindness deep inside, so do I. She makes my black and white life colourful. More importantly, she makes me belive that I still have hope, that I can be better than today.

So who is Jung Ah for me? She is my sunshine. She is the light to my dark world.