Chapter 17

Forgiveness

Sooyoung's POV

it's been a week since the accident happened,  I don't know who are those men who shot Bobby and I but I can remember their face clearly. Is Bobby doing business with Shark loans again? Well,  I do not care anymore. My uncle said that he will provide security for me so I know I am safe.

My uncle is the only person that's left for me, though he hurt me a lot,  he's the only person that does not fool me and deceive me. He might trained me to be a bad person and do dirty jobs but,  what am I supposed to do? Men are evil by nature, composed of self interest and ambitions.

But then I tought men are destined to love and are born with conscience so they are ought to be good right? But I don't even know what a good person is. I haven't seen one since my mother died. I haven't experience that thing they called love. I tried to love once but it turns out to be deceitful in nature.

Because of these experiences I had, I chose to be cold and distant to other people and tried to manipulate their lives just like what fate did to me.  Sounds cruel but that's just it. The numbers of people I fired and deceive cannot be counted on my fingers. I still have my conscience though but it's not enough for me to stay away in doing dirty businesses.

I heard they started building the casino already. I also know that the Hwang's possibly know about this too. But they cannot do anything about it anymore. I did a clean job in deceiving Leo. Contracts are safely hidden in my house. I never left anything in the office for safety purposes.

For these past few years,  I feel and I know someone is keeping an eye on me. I don't know if that's my uncle or some past investor I deceived who wanted to get their revenge on me. I do jobs neatly so they can't get anything from me. It's their fault; they don't read contracts before signing it...

Men can cheat, play with you and hurt you using their physical force but the power of women to men comes with the use of brain and appeal, clever, charms and some small talk that can surely left you broken and bankrupt. I guess that's what people are, selfish and deceitful.

I spent my entire week resting my body and visiting Sunny at the cemetery. I talk to her a lot, though I know she will never hear me and it's too late to ask for forgiveness.

"Sunny, I miss you..." I said as I sit in front of her tomb. Trying not to tear up.

"I hope you like these yellow flowers I give you." I smiled

"I'm sorry I wasn't there to protect you when you needed me..."

"I guess Youngie is a bad person eh?"

"I shouldn't left you there..." I tear up

"Maybe if I hadn't left you that night, you'll be alive right now..." trying to hold back my tears

"If you are just alive right now, maybe I wouldn't become like this... Cold, deceitful and arrogant..."I chuckled sadly

"If you are here with me right now, I’ll buy you plenty of ice creams just what you told me you like before..."

"If you are with me now, I’ll take care of you and won't let anyone to hurt you..."

"If you are with me now, I will never leave you until we grow old, even you get sick of me or your husband might not like me... I'll stick with you like glue."

"If you are with me now, we’ll travel the world just like you always dream of..."

"But I guess it's too late now..."

"I'm sorry I failed you miserably..." I cried so hard

After that I went on my uncle's house,  as expected Kam Woo's there because he'